Is there anything else to blame
when you finally look at yourself?

I see a repeat in life
as I get older
nothing really changed besides the eyes view
"my views"
although, I see someone younger who had the same ideals
like I once had.
From what seemed so long ago
instead, it's shorten now
in compared to being read in another ten years
the pattern starts over again.
From being really young
to mid aged
until I'm old
it all even ends the same...
So here's hope for the beginning to start over
or at least watch from a sidelines,
it may look different
but, it's all the same.
Life and the words I say will not matter
my life will not matter.
Maybe to a few it could change things
but, I enjoy being here anyways,
to grow
experience
to take
watch
and think in my own way.
yet the pattern continues again.

Beauty stuns,
Almost like your back at a gun,
Sometimes you don't know what to say,
Because they literally took your breath away..

I believe you show your finest hour
Within your darkest time

"give me pain
let it rain
i'll keep running
never turning back"

that's what life does to you
leaving you thinking there's nothing left
but, you can go the distance
you can go the mile.

Do it for the children
do it for yourself
give'm a reason to never give up.

when it hurts
it's gonna poor
but, it only makes you stronger
the more you can endure

so you can run the distance
you can run the mile
never turning back
live life for awhile

it's only gonna get worse
although, it's a blessing in disguise
soon you'll find the answers
for the reasons we try

just follow your heart
and do what's right
because, you're strong
and life will go on.

So just keep running.

It's funny, how fast light is,
Passing by as if time had stopped itself.
spreading everywhere on everything in a brightness.
It's the only thing that can split the dark from the inside out.

It's warm,
It's beautiful,
And, it's a feeling of being safe.

Although, when everything seems so great,
Light still keeps on moving
Kinda of in the blink of an eye
It leads back to the dark.

I believe people have a way of spreading there own kind of light
Yet, we're more fragil.

People have a way to bring
warmth,
Love,
And that feeling of just being safe.

Only it's easier to break a bulb
Then it is to make one.
It can always be replace
But, it will shine a bit differently.

So really take a look at what brightens up your day
Because, before you know it,

It's gone,
It's cold,
And you feel alone.

What you call free
sounds like crap!
What I call free,
well.. we just can't have that.
It's not like we can run away on our own.
So is there ever a place we can really call a home?
With one issue,
causes another.
I'm tired of this world
lets create one better!
I'm sure people really wouldn't mind that,
but who's gonna be the one who gets shot in the back?
We try to express ourselves over music like, pop and rap
but, like a wise women once said.
"Ain't no body got time for that."
So is anyone out there gonna take a stand?
While I'm the one out here who's raising my hand.
With my fist held high
I reach to the sky
Join me my friends
to surely make this to an end!
We have the power to change our world,
but we need to do it together,
with every boy and girl.
For the future is within our hands!
All we need to do, is just think of a master plan.

We'd say we'd never wanna grow up
Life's short and complicated
So what.

I don't ever wanna hear you say,
We were just dreamers
Dreaming for better days.

Because, today is yesterday
And tomorrow's already gone

We may look like fools
Yet fool's who had some fun

Tho one day we'll have to grow up
And we'll teach our young
"Don't do what we did
We were all pretty dumb"

Repeat.

The reaper is knocking at my door
I'll let him in so I know for sure
That's it's okay.
We could get to know one another
Better to be polite,
And accept my guest
For when the day comes
I won't be afraid
On the contrary, I'll embrace my death.
He's got a grin I've never seen before
I hesitate,
Should I open the door?
Fear starts to engulf me
I slam it back in his face
I won't let you take me on this date.
Although he didn't move
Rather just standing there with the syth in his hand.
Patiently waiting.
For that day.
Should I Let him in?
Should I keep him out?
Better to know your guest
But you never know when you'll be next.
Either way he doesn't care
He'll just stand there
giving me that death stare.

The meaning of life
is to show existence
of everything around you

Otherwise, without life
who's to say
anything even exists at all?

we all have secrets
hidden within our shadows
expanding at night

Heroes die
to show us the sacrifices from the start
of how much they cared in their hearts
to save the self centered people that we are.

Kitty cat
on my lap,
how I'm trapped?
Cause I'm a sap.

This was my story
Lost in the woods that burned down
but I'll take it back

Brought to my knees
with my head held high
only praying to the stars
to one day see you fly.

Light up a cigarette
it's how we escape
in hope life gets better
until we leave this place.

Leaving of course, from a stray
is any one intending for you to stay?
It takes thirty seconds
to smoke part of your life away.

Some look in the mirror
now covered by grey.
They cough up a lung
with nothing left to say.

Everyone else will pass away
continuing to smoke everyday.
Maybe there was always a better way
yet, look who cared enough to stay.

The reason I smoke everyday
is because, I'm stuck here in a pray
hoping someone will come save the day
or i'll say goodbye, in my own patient way.

I don't like to smoke
I can honestly say...
Yet I still do it
Day by Day.

Smile and keep nodding
For the mask behind the scene
Fits oh so perfect.

No need for a cape,
Not able to fly,
The hero's in us all
Keeping us alive.

No need for super strength
We've got our own,
It's about what you can take,
Even if you stand alone.

The villian's always around
Whispering in our heads
"How can you stop what can't be dead?"

Well with our power
We can stand tall
Against the forces in ourselves
Is there really evil at all?

Or are we just another character
Falling in our demise,
Letting the voices speak to us,
hiding in another disguise

Well it's up to you
If you choose to hide
Or get off your ***
And try to stay alive.

This is were I sit
on a bench so far away.
Looking towards the horizon
waiting day by day.

It's really peaceful
for what I can say.
This has you look at things
in a completely new way.

To be alone with your thoughts,
isn't so bad.
It gives you time to think
about what you really have.

I could give examples
but, where's the fun in that?
how about instead you pop a squat
and give you're mind a little chat.

There's plenty of room
so don't worry about that
i'll see you soon
I'm coming right back.

This is were I sat
on a bench so far away.
Looking towards the horizon
waiting day by day.

What's unknown is lost
Unless you're tending to seek
True reality

I'll watch the night
beneath the stars
waiting for her to come from afar

With the moon lite up
we can both share
this moment we have in a deep stare

Her eyes greener than the grass
with lips so soft,
her kisses last

and the silence really isn't bad
because of the memories we once had

Like how we laughed
or how we played
just me and her
listening to the waves

we'd call each other
by silly names
yet sadly these things don't always remain

But I'll always look up
and still think of her smile..
**That Paopu fruit really does last for awhile.

I stand here and wait
while the leaves are still dancing
When will the wind blow?

A day to drink
so here's a beer
lets get together
and be sincere

Tomorrow we'll be "dead"
but we had a great time
because we all got **** faced
and it wasn't a crime!

To be Irish here
is such wonderful thing,
you get to party all night
and everyone's willing to sing!!!

I'll wanna drink some more
after my headache go away
but there'll  always be a new year
for the next St. Patrick's day.

Lost in a maze
don't know where I am
I look to the side
and see a friend.

They helped me through it
but then they're gone,
I had to find out where I belonged.

Brought to the streets
Thus began a fight
these two men who were in my sights.

It wasn't long before I knew,
that these men had better things to do.
Confused for sure, but now I can see,
we walk these streets to find our dreams.

So what if I'm not alone?
These men also need a home.
I break free from my own chains
to wake up and feel there pain.

A dream of feeling stuck and alone.
The emotions only continued to grow.
I had fear of self control,
to be cast out in the endless snow.

So happy to have woken up
But the real world doesn't feel quite enough
if only we could truly see,
that all people have a time of need.

A body floating in water
drifting out to sea
you came my way
unexpectedly

I could feel the ripples
climbing against my skin
I'm also not sure
where this all really began.

Not sure if I was drowning,
not so sure where I belonged
but when I hit my head
that's when you came along.

I could only look forward
and it was so hard to see
but, when I looked above
there was an angel smiling at me.

I tried to reach for her,
I tried to speak
But, my breath was taken
or so it seemed.

I could feel a pounding in my chest
not just once, but more
then she put her lips to mine,
I was confused for sure.

I coughed up water
then I looked in her eyes
I couldn't believe it
"you just saved my life!"

An angel was there that day
but not one with wings,
instead it was my angel
and now we share two rings.

"If we could flow back in time
would you go with me?"

To relive those days in our prime
yet nothing's ever free..
and all the challenges we'd have to climb,
with waves sailing over seas.

"If we could flow back in time
would you go with me?"

Knowing this choice could be sublime
I'll never go if you plea.
I'd drop it all like a dime
yet, still have a feeling of glee.

"If we could flow back in time
would you go with me?"

I'd plan to use this like a thyme
to heal the wounds, you see.
Almost as soothing as a chime
peacefully hanging from a tree

"If we could flow back in time
I ask, would you go with me?"

Please don't consider this as a crime
I'm only using it as a key.
To start this we must gesture like mimes
so lets give it to the count of three.

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*" If we could flow back in time
would you go with me?"

So there's the theory of the multi universe, where if we were to keep going further into space that sooner or later we would reach an end to it. Being that the entire Universe itself is inside a bubble, next to other bubbles that have there own universe in them as well. I  believe in the idea of division by two. consistently cutting size in half by two until we reach another universe, being so small that nothing can affect the other universes or "world". We also know that energy can neither be created nor destroyed... We are made up of energy and created from the same materials as the stars in the sky, what if energy is so light and small, that when we die, it goes into the next universe and we get to relive our lives over again? Being weak from death, and having no memory at all, we are reborn to live out lives over again. This time with different decisions. What if there is an infinite amount of universes that you consistently live that have different decisions made in them? Also having an infinite amount of universes that you don't exist as well, meaning there are an infinite over an infinity of things that could ever happen to you and without you. Having people who aren't born in this universe, but having there own infinite universe of there own? from one little change to something drastic, would change everything.. example: if a wolf eats a deer, it means nothing to us, but in the reality of the universe, it would have changed everything that ever could have been or ever was with that deer. what If the deer hadn't been eaten? Maybe in a long run, the deer would have had breed some young, and the young would have been eaten by someone who was starving to death, but if the wolf had eaten the first deer, the person would have died who was starving. Now if the wolf hadn't eaten the deer, the person could have lived and maybe could have had children of there own, that would have drastically changed everything. What if we do relive our lives in the other universe, but with different decisions up to a point at any given time? only being one choice made to change EVERYTHING. everything could have followed through up to any moment in time that we decided to do something different, like me picking up a glass of water instead of a glass of tea, may seem like nothing, but it could alter anything in the future because i thought differently at that moment, meaning my decision on anything COULD be different afterwards. Also an idea for instincts, maybe we have a feeling or "reminder" or being at the same situation as before? What if so called God, is the universe itself. Nothing is perfect. so how could heaven be? They say Angels envy us for living. what if Living is our heaven, and that we relive our lives until its perfect, but nothing is perfect and for one to have perfection another wouldn't. meaning we would be in a constant cycle of life forever, learning something new every time without knowing it. We create our own heaven and hell. Judgment is the people that are around us.. If someone had killed someone else, they would go to jail. possible for life, so it seems like the worse thing ever to be stuck in a room for the rest of your life thinking you'r going to die and not know what will happen next, what if its a lesson to learn and the next time you live that life, you make a different decision, based off of your own instinct. Because whats a worse punishment than not knowing whats next, but being able to relive your life, its kinda like being grounded, just not knowing you will someday be free again. There has to be an unlimited amount of energy, meaning an unlimited amount of lives that could ever live, just in another universe that we may be able to see again. Who knows, maybe this is our tenth billion life living here again, and with an infinity amount of living, it really seems like nothing has changed at all, compared the universes itself going on forever. Meaning we may have nothing to fear at all after death. This is all just an idea i'v made up, but it's always running through my mind. Im probably wrong, but its just a thought.

It only takes one act of courage to change everything...

Close your eyes
Hold me tight
In your arms
Until the death of night.

Looking in your eyes
while falling to my demise
You'd finally realized
I've taken the hit.
But all i could think was,
So worth it...

Sometimes life just seems like space.
Endless, Cold, and Empty.
Although there's more to it than the eye can see,
It's truly filled with beauty and wonders.

This will be alright in the end,
don't be scared to have a start.
Just remember what you're trying to fend
and always follow your heart.

sometimes the best thing to do
is leave and never look back
while we're young
others will hold on
keeping you
slaving you
to do what they want you to
but, this world is huge
filled with opportunity
and sorrows.
although, with the choices you make
at least you lived the way you wanted
with no regret
with no fear
but the thrill of seeing what this world can make of you.

Smile for today
So they remember you tomorrow

Having to wait
leaving it to fate
with another day passing by.
Reality kicks in
while I'm thinking again,
is this all just a waste of time?
I wanna know,
is it true?
Can someone like me even be with you?
for that matter you want more,
you want the things i cant insure.
The things you want,
well that's to bad.
You should'v given me the time you had.
Well i hope your glad,
For now I'm sad,
because you never even cared to look,
and maybe.. just maybe, that's all it really could'v took.

To do the impossible,
Something so hard to let go..
Reaching your potential
And searching for
Forgiveness.