Anger always leads too breaking something that you love and care for
You may be able to repair it
But it’ll never be the same
Always think before you act
Because that’s what leads to self misery

I often find myself thinking
If you’re happier with him
And how’s it gonna be
When time passes by.
I find myself
In only a struggle
But I know I’ll be fine.
Only with what happened
But not with what could’ve been...

Why do we fight?
We had something that was like a light
That over time became clouded from all the arguments.
But through it all
we would just keep trying
Right?
Because deep down we know
That through all this darkness
And what lies upon the other side of those clouds
is that light.
It reminds us of how beautiful we really are.
It’s amazing how things just become so clear again.
I hope you know that sometimes you have to make it through a storm just to be able to see that light once more.
But God only knows if we’ll make it.
I’m really really sorry.

I always write
But the delete button is my friend
Because life is just hard
And I’ve never felt so alone
with so many people around me
How can you really express something like
that?

Why're you just laying in bed?
Contemplating and wishing you were dead?
What ever happened to you?
You used to be someone worth looking up too.
You used to believe in so many things
your morals have changed
now you're such a worthless being..
Do you even care what I'm saying?
Cant you see that I've been praying?
Hoping for you to change
but you never will...
you'll always be a loser
and that's how you lose the girl...
Cant you see?
I'm the one who's stuck having to see this
most nights I just feel so defeated!
As if this life were a game that's been cheated!
I just wanted you to do your best
but, it's all not good enough
so you lay your head to rest.
You know..
I've given up on you
and I don't care what you've been through
nobody cares
not your family
not your friends
but you can end it all tonight
probably the best way to avoid another fight.
You know this is true,
all these things I say to you.
Just bite the bullet
let it go through
because we both know
you're better off dead...

"God. grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."

Honestly I feel so alone.
I don't really know what to say
I get chocked up from this feeling
its like taking the worst of a beating
a feeling inside you
that you only wish would die
like a fire that just keeps on going
you need to put it out
but it only rises higher
burning everything around
and you just watch your whole world
burn to the ground.
So I'm sorry if I'm not okay!
what would you know anyway?!
you're the one making me feel this way!
wanting me to take my own life!
wanting me to give up on this fight!
wanting me to push everyone away!
you're the one who's given up
I'm trying to find the strength just to get up!
so why don't you leave me alone?
you're the one who's destroying my soul!
you're the one blaming it all on me!
you're the one who's causing the scenes!
you're the one putting this **** in my head!
you're the one thinking I'm better off dead!
while I maybe in the shadows
my heart and soul swing under the gallows.
But I'm not going to let you take my life!
I'm going to find a way to make this right..
you've taken everything out of me
but I will find a way to see this light.
because I know there's a bigger reason to fight
It's bigger then you!
It's bigger then me!
and one day I know
I'll truly be happy.

Remember that any mistake you make may becomes someone else’s blessing in the end.

A sight you see
But is it real?
Looking for truth
Unraveled and revealed
Am I here?
Or am I not?
Reality traps me
In this box.
I hope to look for
What I have forgot.
The freedom that is me
But maybe not.
All lies in my train of thought.

I’ve never seen a devil who wore fake horns

But I’ve sure as hell seen those fake golden rings.

Look toward a future
Or keep a grasp of the past
The question is
Which one should last?

A thought still goes by everyday.

Life is like a sound
You correct it when it's out of  tune.

You can write over a hundred papers and throw them all away,
Just trying to think of the best things you can say.
When you think about it tho,
It's almost absurd
Because, it ultimately leads up to
Just three words.

It's like a spirit that follows
and won't go away.
It's either an angel
or a demon
saving my life
although, causing the worst circumstances
for oneself to behold.

Free will still has its chains.
Exert all thoughts,
Leaving them in the back of your
brain.
Prevail over what should be considered insane.
Look upon yourself
and see how you came.

Can I just skip to when I'm old and dying,
So I at least know who I end it all with?

We've been playing this game
for way to long.
It's hard to fight the pain
When all and all it's done..
You left me wounded,
You left me scared,
Having trust issues
Now feeling impaired.
Who's to say that you'd even care.
Taking the truth,
Instead of the dare.
Let me tell you something
Finding love is rare
But, if you went the distance
Nobody else compares,
To you.

Running towards a light
That's faster then I can run.
Seeking for knowledge
Meanwhile I'll always be dumb.
Holding on to regrets
That I just can't seem to let go of.
My future will be
unfortunate.

See the winter snow blow away from the top of the mountains into a glimmer of light,
that only shines within the night.
From here it would looks as if
The stars were dancing..

It's okay to be mad sometimes,
Don't let anyone judge you for what they don't know.

I have gone through enough to know what I've needed to learn.
So tell me how to turn back the clock and do it over again.

A world of violence
With no ears to listen
Leaving everything in a silence
Only when we disappear.

I believe you show your finest hour
Within your darkest time

If you have to better yourself
because, you weren't good enough..
Then maybe it's actually the other way around.

To do the impossible,
Something so hard to let go..
Reaching your potential
And searching for
Forgiveness.

There's a tingle in my chest
Hair going up but,
I'm not cold.
Finding a moment of rest
Deep within my soul

She's like Angel,
Flying within the breeze
And she sees me...

How could I ever lose her?
If I did,
What would I do?
She's a million miles away from me
Yet, it all still feels so new

She beautiful...
And only God knows for who..
But she saves me.

Yeah she saves me...

If I could only see her,
Day after day..
I wouldn't ever care if we ran out of things to say.
All I need is this women
That's all I really need.

She's my baby.
And she saved me.

I listen to the radio
To find any song that I know
Just to see if I could feel
That you and I are really real

The meaning of life
is to show existence
of everything around you

Otherwise, without life
who's to say
anything even exists at all?

"give me pain
let it rain
i'll keep running
never turning back"

that's what life does to you
leaving you thinking there's nothing left
but, you can go the distance
you can go the mile.

Do it for the children
do it for yourself
give'm a reason to never give up.

when it hurts
it's gonna poor
but, it only makes you stronger
the more you can endure

so you can run the distance
you can run the mile
never turning back
live life for awhile

it's only gonna get worse
although, it's a blessing in disguise
soon you'll find the answers
for the reasons we try

just follow your heart
and do what's right
because, you're strong
and life will go on.

So just keep running.

Turn off all the lights
Just close your eyes and hold me tight.
Turn off all the lights
I promise everything's alright.

We can go to missippi
Or maybe Italy
I know we ain't got a lot of money
But, that's okay when you're with me.

Turn off all the lights.
Just close your eyes and hold me tight.
Turn off all the lights
I promise everything's alright.

I know we ain't got much
But, love is what we've got.
We can go anywhere,
Just close your eyes.

If I could make your dreams
all come true,
Then I'd do it all for you.
Just to see that smile,
for only a moment..
All my problems go away.
And when you're with me
I feel so free,
You make me happy.
Just promise me
that you'll never leave
So we can be a family.

just turn off all the lights
close your eyes and hold me tight.
Turn off all the lights
I promise everything's alright.

Love for one,
Loved by another,
Knowing the heartache
Would you share the pain?
Or make someone else have a dream?

There's so much
too much if ask me,
why does it need to be like this?
we're all the same
yet so different
yelling!
screaming!
Just for what we want..
but, there can never be a compromise
instead, it's just always filled with more lies
although, with so many lies
we'll miss the truth,
when it's right in our faces..
We're all so crude
yet, how could you expect so much?
these violent terrors are not just by the actions of people
but, by their violent thoughts instead
that grew inside their heads
from being emotional themselves,
exceeded beyond belief.
a feeling of revenge and anger,
maybe even one day remorse..
but, it's all caused by another action
to create such thoughts.
a chain..
that's all it is.
Where did it begin?
When will it end?
I feel it myself sometimes,
a fear of no fear,
action beyond recognition,
pride over dignity,
and that itself is what this world can be.
A very scary place
with no ears to listen.

I wish I could show you more
then I actually have
But, if that's all you look for
Well, that's too bad..

I'm a waste space..
                                                         ­                                     you're just in a rut.
I've got to get out of this place.
                                                          ­                                 you think to much..
I always see her face.
                                                           ­                                    I know, it's rough.
life really *****.
                                                          ­                           would you just shut up?
But, I'm so weak..
                                                          ­                  you're stronger then you look
I can't even sleep
                                                           ­                              why not read a book?
Because, I don't want to
I'm in too much pain,
something you wouldn't get
it's no wonder you're sane.
                                                           ­                                    Is their ever a time
                                                                ­you don't have something to blame?
                                                          ­                                                   honestly,
                                                             I'm tired of playing these head games.
See!
you're done with me,
just like everyone else.
                                                           ­                well that's not the proper way
                                                             ­                     if you're in a cry for help.
then tell me, please
what do I do?
                                                             ­                first off, you can't be so rude.
                                                           ­         second thing, stop crying boo hoo!
just be quiet..
                                                         ­         no, it's something you need to hear.
I don't want you to talk!
                                                           ­                                   I'm being sincere..
                                                       ­                                       I remember a time
                                                            ­                  when you didn't give a ****
                                            and now just because, you're down on your luck
                                                  doesn't give you an excuse to always give up!
...
                                                         ­                                       you're so strong,
                                                         ­                           stronger then you know
                                                            ­                   yet, you're always so ready
                                                           ­                         to jump out the window.
                                                         ­                                   It's not just your life
                                                            ­                                            it's mine too,
                                                            ­         and I've been through everything
                                                                ­                                 the same as you.
...
                                                        ­                               are you even listening?
                                                      ­                  do you care what I have to say?
I'm so sorry,
I just want this to go away...
                                                         ­      I promise you it will, only some day..
                                                   although, until then you've got to be patient.
..
                                                     ­                 You should look towards the sky
                                                 yet, don't scream above asking God "Why!?"
                                                         ­                Instead, just try to live your life
                                                                ­ you've always been so **** bright.
hmm..
well maybe you're right..
I can't just give up
I've gotta fight!
Thank you so much for clearing my sight.
                                                          ­                                         Don't thank me
                                                              ­                         we're gonna be alright.
I know we are,
it's just I get scared.
                                                         ­                                           Well that's why
                                                             ­                  we'll always come prepared
and no matter what happens
I know we'll share
the same kind of ending.                    -                     the same kind of ending.

This doesn't fit..
Where in the hell can I find one that fits?
Uhhh...
I know others have them,
some seem pretty obvious
but, I feel a great sorrow for them.
Although, I guess I should just go look in a mirror then, huh.?
I don't want to,
so I wont.
Not until I can find one that fits..

Do you have one?
Do you know where I can get one?
I need to know,
you see, people can just take it off
although, It's not reusable for anyone else,
It wont fit,
It only can for that one person.
Only them as an individual.

I've asked before,
In my own kind of way.
where they've gotten theirs
but, they seemed confused

"friends
people"

"You can't just get one,
why would you even want one?"

-I just do.

"Is it for you?"
"Is it for them?"

-Don't ask.

I leave and go home,
I should look in a mirror..
Maybe that will help determine a size.
I'm afraid to tho..
whenever I look, it's never the same as the pictures
not anymore.
why are the pictures on the wall so different?

-finally face to face

I feel my skin
I look in my eyes
although, every time I see another guy..

-wait...

I think I found one,
what I've been looking for,
and I've been wearing it all along,
masquerade I endure.

I try to take it off,
it's really sticking on tight.
The skin finally rips,
I see myself in sight.

The pictures looked the same again
just a little bit dim,
In fact that's the same face.
Its just always been hidden.

I couldn't believe it though,
That's what I looked like.
I almost forgot..

I've had what I was looking for,
a mask to cover my face.
What I didn't know was,
that the mask was fearsome itself.
Had it almost consumed me entirely,
While I was looking for a new one..
or one in general.

I can see my face again
all grey but, with circles of light around my eyes
a glimmer of hope.
I no longer see that other guy.
the mask can only fit once
so it's all okay.

This is the last thing I can say,

Just don't lose yourself under your own skin,
Always know there's another day.
Never forget there's another way.
To express towards others or yourself,
That you have the strength to admit for help.

Just look in the mirror
tell me what you see,
are you wearing a mask?
or are you free?

I wanna open your eyes
So you won't have a reason to fall
Just look towards the sky
Show em all you're standing tall
And even if you fall
I'll still be by your side
I'll never let you go
Not until the day I die

It's always something that stays in mind,
While slowly but surely it drives one mad.

sometimes the best thing to do
is leave and never look back
while we're young
others will hold on
keeping you
slaving you
to do what they want you to
but, this world is huge
filled with opportunity
and sorrows.
although, with the choices you make
at least you lived the way you wanted
with no regret
with no fear
but the thrill of seeing what this world can make of you.

The toughest thing a about trusting someone
Is when they know you do

Moral judgments
is it by him or her?
what's the right or wrong
will you follow your own insecurity
or perhaps open your eyes to who you really are.
Maybe no one has to know
maybe no one deserves to know
"You"
there's no need to prove a thing to anyone
no, they need to see the most unpredictable moments
to where you show yourself
without givin any thought,
without trying to impress
but instead,
you're just being you..
That's all you should have to do,
you shouldn't try to impress him
or her
or anyone
no, just yourself.
push yourself pass your own limits
until one day you find someone,
someone who CAN go further then you,
someone who CAN'T realize it yet,
someone who can go further then THEMSELVES
"because of you."
be as you are,
for your days will come
where your abilities of being yourself
will change the world of a whole other person
and you didn't even have to try so hard.
yes there will be rough times
and yes there will be good
although,
you may not even notice it,
not for years to come
but, you make all the difference
when you're just being yourself.

Just relax while the days pass,
it's all okay.
Someday you'll look back
and well, who knows..

We'd say we'd never wanna grow up
Life's short and complicated
So what.

I don't ever wanna hear you say,
We were just dreamers
Dreaming for better days.

Because, today is yesterday
And tomorrow's already gone

We may look like fools
Yet fool's who had some fun

Tho one day we'll have to grow up
And we'll teach our young
"Don't do what we did
We were all pretty dumb"

Repeat.

It's hard to look towards the light
When all you wanna do is finally close your eyes.

no matter how far you reach
the branch grows slower then you age

Dreams are a fiction reality
Where sometimes it brings you to a wonderful place
While other times your left in your own hell.
How You wake up and take it is more important.
Are you happy?
Left in a confusion?
Or just get up like nothing happened
because, you know it didn't.
For myself,  Dreams follow me all day
Eventually until they're either forgotten
Or the next night comes and a new dream appears.
I find it funny that a good dream
Can now be left as a nightmare
And a nightmare isn't so scary anymore.
Although tell me this,
When you know it's a dream
Do you wanna wake up
Or just see how it goes?

It takes only a ten seconds to change everything
Whether your in control of it or not.
It can be done by acting out
Or just hearing What someone has to say.
It could be great
or become a disaster.
Just when things seem to be okay
And nothing can be taken away, because, you already lost
"everything"
There will always be something that could be taken away..
Seems easy to say
"I'm used to it"
In full honesty
You never are.
"At least not for myself."
But it's one of those times again I have no control
And everyone around me will just say
"Well that *****."
While all I can do is quietly nod in agreement to my closest friends..

Once again,
It only takes ten seconds to change everything.

I see a repeat in life
as I get older
nothing really changed besides the eyes view
"my views"
although, I see someone younger who had the same ideals
like I once had.
From what seemed so long ago
instead, it's shorten now
in compared to being read in another ten years
the pattern starts over again.
From being really young
to mid aged
until I'm old
it all even ends the same...
So here's hope for the beginning to start over
or at least watch from a sidelines,
it may look different
but, it's all the same.
Life and the words I say will not matter
my life will not matter.
Maybe to a few it could change things
but, I enjoy being here anyways,
to grow
experience
to take
watch
and think in my own way.
yet the pattern continues again.

So silent but, quick in a move
Once you start, you keep on going
Nothing really slows you down.
You only need that first push,
to really heat things up.
Then, you get loud and destructive
Leaving us no choice,
we have to put you out.
That's why your always Shy
When meeting new people
Just waiting for them to turn around.