Driving through the night
Windows up
Speakers blasting
Throat raw from the strain of
Singing my feelings
Away

Tears flood my vision
Street lights blurred
Tires crawling
Through darkened streets as
Cars rush past, to leave me
Behind

Cutting the engine
Ears filled with silence
Door opens, stumbling
Taking night air into
My lungs like
A blessing

Bared feet sinking
Into cold sand
Surrounded by sound
Roaring, incessant
Foaming waves battering
The shore

Wind howling and twisting
Through untamed hair
Sand coating my skin like
Stardust, mouth open
Tasting the salty
Air

A glow, bold and piercing
Hangs in the sky
The full moon a beacon
Beckoning, below it
Shimmering, a path
Of light

Staggering toward moonbeams
Toes carving wet sand
Water rushing, enveloping
Ankles, washing
Away the evidence of
My existence

Waves tugging, insistent
My body obeys
Submerging, floating
Cold numbing the skin
Heart warmed by the ocean’s
Embrace

Letting go, body resting
Currents drawing me far out
To sea, bathed in moonlight
Lips curved in a smile
Slow breathing, finally
At peace

It’s the eyes, I know
That are drawing me in
Pale amber jewels held
Up to the sun
Light, not reflecting
But radiating
From somewhere deep
Within

My own eyes trail
Downwards, traveling
The contours
The angles and curves of
Your face
My fingertips twitching
Longing to feel
For themselves, the contrast
Of rough stubble
On smooth skin

You smile
Lips stretching
Cheeks curving
Teeth flashing
Melting me
Down
Into a puddle of
Longing, at your feet

Your voice, so
Soothing, so steady
Like strong arms
Wrapping around
My body
I lean into the
Embrace
Of your words

My face grows hot
My eyes flitting away
Afraid
They’ll show you
The truth
Taking a breath, I speak
To the floor
But you answer me
Just the same

I look without looking
My eyes sliding
Sideways
To watch as you walk
Away, graceful
You stride, rhythm
In your steps
I sigh, hoping nobody
Sees

I want you
So badly
I ache
For your touch
The words burst
Through my chest
Getting caught
In my throat
As I bite on my
Tongue, so hard
That it bleeds
While I silently turn
Away

A restless burning
Like acid, eats
Away at my soul
Sizzling, disintegrating
Bits and parts
Of my self, fading
At the edges

I wait, watching
Poised in the center
Of the madness
As the walls
Close in

The air growing thick
Choking me, the smoke
Suffocates, I gasp
Reflexively, but no
I won’t struggle
No
I won’t resist

With arms open
I wait
Let it come
Let the fire
Consume me