This is the tale of a demon shrouded in shadows broken down and lonely yearning for the tortured beauty also broken and unwilling to come close

The tortured beauty, broken and fragile
Heart aches and is shattered
The demon shrouded in shadows looks upon her with sadness remembering how much love they had and how it didn't have to end, he thinks of changing the past and making it so it never ended

We may be broken tortured beauty,
But like in cooking
Sometimes you have to be broken up
To mix better....

"When second chances won't leave you alone....then there's hope in love-PTV"

*******
One little word
You know you've ****** up when the person you love calls you that for the first time

They may say "I lost control for a second"
They may say "I didn't mean it"

In reality, it's all on you!
On ME!
Never would those words come forth if I didn't take the trust of a broken girl
The trust of one betrayed by everyone she's ever known
That trust I thought I would never have

When I got it......I crushed it
She trusted me with information of a thing she is ashamed to even know herself, let alone when it's happening....
And then I threatened to come to her house....
She despises being threatened
Hates it above all else
I knew this too....
I got in a corner and snapped......

....never again will I get tht trust and I know it.....

There is never an excuse for threatening someone.......

Especially not the one you love most......

The broken trust of a shattered beauty....destroyed by a monster who should b ****** to the shadows.....

......I'm so sorry......

There are things

Hard to decrypt

I'm a fool, never seem to get any hints
Never seem to understand what she really implies

My heart tells me that some of the things she says are about me

My mind tells me I'm selfish and ******* for believing anything like that can be about me when she has him.....

She tells me she's not sure who she writes about, it just all comes out when she writes

Our past together are the only herpa times I've ever had.....

I can't help hoping you still think about me the way I do with u...

I can't stop my heart from beating when I hear you say my name.....
And I can't stop it from aching when I see u in his arms...

I want you in my arms
I want you on my lips
I want you by my side
I want you hand in mine
I
Want
You

I want you back
More than you will ever know
I want you back
More than I can ever show....
I want you back
....we still love eachother
I want you back
But your dating him....
I want you bak
Your all I think about
I want you back
Yesterday I cried realizing how I'm not the only person going through this
I want you back
I may be a fool at many things but you know I would treat you like a queen....just like before
I want you back
I may not always show how I feel....but everytime I think of you my heart grows sad waiting for the time it will find yours and hold it close....
I want you back....

Don't tell me to forget u
I'm closer to u than I have ever been
I won't ever forget this
I know you want me too but I won't I'm sorry to do this to u but I won't

I'm sorry I still love u

I won't forget about u, I'm closer to u now
I can handle this little one don't tell me to forget it makes me feel bad

When nobody cares
When nobody notices me
I dwell in the shadows
Not feeling
Not thinking
I'm alive but it's no way to live alone

No one can understand the loneliness
No one tries
When I'm alone I think of how lonely I am
Then I listen to music

It tells me exactly how I'm feeling
When I don't even know
It comforts me when I shake
When everyone is gone music remains
Music saves me from myself

Pain harm lonely
Three words
All different
Yet they coincide if you find the right situation,

Pain, it hurts, pain is what you can feel

Harm....harm is what you cause to others, harm is something horrible....harm is something that can only be caused by something...by someone who isn't thinking...someone who gets caught up on life that spins too fast...

Lonely is how someone feels after there is actually a happy moment in his life,  when he's been alone for so long when he's been unnoticed for so long...when that one person comes along and shows them love....you never know what you have until it's gone...

The words I trust you
Those mean more to me than anything

But this selfish ******* misuses the trust of the one he loves more than not....

All for selfish reasons I'm not even sure myself

Pity, is tht y I misuse it?.....

Don't think so

Because I thought something the wrong way?.....

Nope not that either

Maybe I'm just.....a bad person.....a bad friend.....

Slowly
Oh so slowly
I'm thinking of happy love
Happy life
With the person I love
And then it comes

"Hey boy I'm you
The person you "love" would b so much better off without you
Can't you see she doesn't love you anymore
That she just feels pity
So she stays around to keep u calm
Just look at her and....him
Look how much they love eachother
Don't tear them apart
You can't be loved
Stop trying it's pointless"

No I refuse I still love her
She still likes me
He hurts her
Sure I have too but together we can make a change
We can love eachother once again
I know in my heart we can
She's all I have

"Don't you see you selfish little brat
The more you say those things the worse she feels
The more she hurts because Ur so lost
Your not inocent kid you cause much pain and harm"

No I refuse
This can't be true
All I do is try and love her
All I want is to be her only one

"Don't you see?!?!?! She already has the love she wants"

But I still love her
So much
She's all I think about
She's all I care about

"Your dragging her down kid"

I'm trying to lift us up on love
Together we can face any challenge as long as we have eachother

"She's better off without you"

I love her, she still loves me
Even with someone else she still loves me

"Your selfish and deluded"

This battle is never won only fought

"One day one side will win"

And then we will either be saved or destroyed

"Or you can join me in the shadows, un-noticed, unwanted, waiting for her to notice you, like the years before her you can be lost in the dark once again"

I don't want to come back there, I have feeling I have love I have hope

"We will see"

Shut up happy endings, there is no love without pain no happy without sad, no give without receive

Just because something went wrong don't give up

Just because two people split up doesn't mean there love will never find each other again

No matter how long it takes love will find a way

When second chances won't leave you alone there's hope in love

You may have left me back then,
You may say there is no us
Take a moment to thing beside urself
Beside the one Ur dating
If there really never is another chance for us....how come you still like me
How come we still held hands
How come u wanted to kiss me
If there is not any possibility of us anymore how come you slept on my shoulder knowing what you were doing
How come we grow closer and closer feeling the love we felt back then
Sure we may not b the same people but I know in your heart you felt that love like old times, I know you felt it too

Do you see me?
Do you see the real me?
Look past the academics, the smile carefree laugh and jokes, and you will see...the real me
I let go of every feeling I have, so no one thinks I'm sad

The real me, the one you don't see
The real me yearns for comfort
I dwell in the shadows because no one has cared enough to pull me out

Well not true...one person has...you know who you are

But that is a different tale for a different time.....the shadows used to b my home
No one knows how truly lonely I am....
Let me share with u
The story of a lonesome soul
Some days when I'm lonely, I'll put my hands together, fingers intertwined like I'm praying while honestly I'm thinking of holding her hand, it keeps me calm, some days I'll hold my pillow close slowly crying and shaking uncontrollably trying to remember how it is to feel her warmth....the endless struggle of a lonely boy shrouded in shadows....

I've destroyed friendships, I've destroyed trust

I had her trust and I.....I threw it away

A beautiful girl....scared and alone....trusted me....and I destroyed that trust.....

What have I done