*******
One little word
You know you've ****** up when the person you love calls you that for the first time

They may say "I lost control for a second"
They may say "I didn't mean it"

In reality, it's all on you!
On ME!
Never would those words come forth if I didn't take the trust of a broken girl
The trust of one betrayed by everyone she's ever known
That trust I thought I would never have

When I got it......I crushed it
She trusted me with information of a thing she is ashamed to even know herself, let alone when it's happening....
And then I threatened to come to her house....
She despises being threatened
Hates it above all else
I knew this too....
I got in a corner and snapped......

....never again will I get tht trust and I know it.....

There is never an excuse for threatening someone.......

Especially not the one you love most......

The broken trust of a shattered beauty....destroyed by a monster who should b ****** to the shadows.....

......I'm so sorry......

When nobody cares
When nobody notices me
I dwell in the shadows
Not feeling
Not thinking
I'm alive but it's no way to live alone

No one can understand the loneliness
No one tries
When I'm alone I think of how lonely I am
Then I listen to music

It tells me exactly how I'm feeling
When I don't even know
It comforts me when I shake
When everyone is gone music remains
Music saves me from myself

This is the tale of a demon shrouded in shadows broken down and lonely yearning for the tortured beauty also broken and unwilling to come close

The tortured beauty, broken and fragile
Heart aches and is shattered
The demon shrouded in shadows looks upon her with sadness remembering how much love they had and how it didn't have to end, he thinks of changing the past and making it so it never ended

We may be broken tortured beauty,
But like in cooking
Sometimes you have to be broken up
To mix better....

"When second chances won't leave you alone....then there's hope in love-PTV"

Do you see me?
Do you see the real me?
Look past the academics, the smile carefree laugh and jokes, and you will see...the real me
I let go of every feeling I have, so no one thinks I'm sad

The real me, the one you don't see
The real me yearns for comfort
I dwell in the shadows because no one has cared enough to pull me out

Well not true...one person has...you know who you are

But that is a different tale for a different time.....the shadows used to b my home
No one knows how truly lonely I am....
Let me share with u
The story of a lonesome soul
Some days when I'm lonely, I'll put my hands together, fingers intertwined like I'm praying while honestly I'm thinking of holding her hand, it keeps me calm, some days I'll hold my pillow close slowly crying and shaking uncontrollably trying to remember how it is to feel her warmth....the endless struggle of a lonely boy shrouded in shadows....

Slowly
Oh so slowly
I'm thinking of happy love
Happy life
With the person I love
And then it comes

"Hey boy I'm you
The person you "love" would b so much better off without you
Can't you see she doesn't love you anymore
That she just feels pity
So she stays around to keep u calm
Just look at her and....him
Look how much they love eachother
Don't tear them apart
You can't be loved
Stop trying it's pointless"

No I refuse I still love her
She still likes me
He hurts her
Sure I have too but together we can make a change
We can love eachother once again
I know in my heart we can
She's all I have

"Don't you see you selfish little brat
The more you say those things the worse she feels
The more she hurts because Ur so lost
Your not inocent kid you cause much pain and harm"

No I refuse
This can't be true
All I do is try and love her
All I want is to be her only one

"Don't you see?!?!?! She already has the love she wants"

But I still love her
So much
She's all I think about
She's all I care about

"Your dragging her down kid"

I'm trying to lift us up on love
Together we can face any challenge as long as we have eachother

"She's better off without you"

I love her, she still loves me
Even with someone else she still loves me

"Your selfish and deluded"

This battle is never won only fought

"One day one side will win"

And then we will either be saved or destroyed

"Or you can join me in the shadows, un-noticed, unwanted, waiting for her to notice you, like the years before her you can be lost in the dark once again"

I don't want to come back there, I have feeling I have love I have hope

"We will see"