I don't write well, but when it comes to you I will write a hundred piece or even thousands of poem just to make you feel that you are loved.
-Sacred Heart

You were there when we laugh,
You were there to make us tough.
We were there to make you smile,
We stayed when you asked us to stay for a while.

You were there through ups and downs,
You were there to save us with a beautiful sound.
We were there when you cried,
We were there to catch you when you fall down from tired.

You will always be there to welcome us,
You will always be there to gave a lot of trust.
We will always be there to back you up,
We will always be there to make you on top.

You will always be there to bring us back with a light,
You will always be there to make everything as a positive sight.
We will be there when you need a call,
We will be there to catch you when you fall.

You will always look the same even if you grew old,
You will always be our sister it will never fold.
We will always look at you with all our love,
We will always be your friend like a flock of white doves.

You may and can change,
but we will never see it as strange.
You may and can forget,
but we will make sure to make another good memories with full set.

You may and can chase all your dreams,
we won't fail to make you firm.
You may and can create a whole new world,
but we will budge in without any words.

You may and can erase us,
but we won't stop to draw us back to your life.
You may and can stop loving us,
sorry to say but we will force to take your heart.

You must never forget who and what you are,
or else you will see our backs very far.
You must never chose us over your family,
or else you will never see us smile freely.

You must choose the right path,
stay at rest we will follow you back.
You must meet and wait us at the end,
we will make a new journey with all of us in trend.

You must choose what's best for you,
we must choose what's best for ourselves.
You must create a beautiful and unique dreams,
we must create a strong and wonderful memories.

This poem was written because of you,
It was created because you exist.
This piece was completed because of your presence,
and was notice because you are known.

However, I can sense that you already met your edge.
You already reach your limit,
You were already falling behind;
at least that what they've said.

I can see how you hide those ****** tears.
I know how to find the scars you kept underneath your longsleeves.
I was informed how you change your own perspective,
and I feel ashamed for I did nothing but to stare.

I was there amuse by your smile but refuse to look in your eyes,
I was there admiring your new outfit but failed to look in your wrist,
I was there talking how you change so much but failed to question why,
I was there watching you like you're a new release and in trend movie.

So Dear J,
I miss how you make everything so positive.
I miss how you would talk about your dreams.
I miss how you live your life.
I miss the unique, pure and full of love kind of you.

I still see you but I know you're not you,
I want to look in your eyes but you always divert it far from my gaze.
I want to hold your scar but you never gave me a chance.
I was stupid to ask you to come back but I know you're already dead inside.

This ****** poem might and will never catch your eye.
This all good for nothing piece may and will never help you.
This piece of garbage will never change and pull you back.
I might never pull you and bring you back to life.

Dear J, can I watch you again ---
How you think of yourself as useless,
How you look yourself unattractive and heart broken?
Surprisingly blood was dripping and I look in the mirror it was broken.

We never put ourselves surrounded by high walls,
We let anyone to come in because they shout a lot of calls.
We mold each other by opening each hearts and throwing away the chains and locks,
We gave all the keys to them so they can pass trough all the blocks.

We love all the people around us.
People like every part of our cast.
We all complement each other's flaws.
We can give our truest side and they will never call us low

We were happy by our situation back then,
Everything changed when we let our emotion drive our brain.
We love them so much to the point we are ready to give our all,
But they all misread us and they let us fall.

We decided to put ourselves surrounded by high walls,
We will never let anyone get inside even if they make so many calls.
We will remake each other by putting each heart with chains and locks.
We will get rid of the key so they will feel our pure blocks.

We will trust no one outside our world,
We will never open up and you guys will never hear a word.
We will never keep our guard down,
cause no one is deserve to set foot in our ground.

They killed us before our 18th birthday,
Now it's our debt to repay them someday.
But we promise it won't take too long,
Please welcome the monsters you made because you judge us wrong.

It was always been like this,
you will smile at me and you will say---
"you're gonna be fine"
and I know I'm not.

It was always been like this,
you will run towards me and chant---
"I'm excited for your life"
but you know I'm not.

It was always been like this,
you will hug me and you will whisper ---
"I miss you"
but was I the one you miss or the lively vibe I give?

It will always turn out like this,
I'm gonna laugh when you make your dumb faces.
It will always turn out like this,
I'm going to smile even though i'm not okay.

It will always turn out like this
I'm going to be happy cause' you're here with me.
but why is it the one who always;
found out that i'm lying is you?

Why is it every time I will bring down a tear,
you're always here to catch it?
Why is it every time I die,
you're always there to bring me back to life?

I hated you,
for leaving me behind.
But now I still hate you,
for coming back right now.

Wait no, I hate that I like you.
I'm crazy enough to jump without you.
I'm a ***** to force you to fly with me.
I'm right to think that I have a lonely story.

Yet I still hate you.
You still treat me the same,
I'm still a lost child in your eyes.
I'm still the sister you care about.

I hate our 3 years age gap,
I hate that I'm your ideal sister.
I hate that I will never be your lover.
I hate that our age bring down the bridge

I hate you.
No wait, I hate that I like you.
Yet I still hate you.
I hate that I'm liking to love you

I've dreamed of me holding someone's hand,
Someone who I don't recognize his face when I wake up.
I grow up with my mom on my right side,
and envy and jealousy with other children in my left side.

Every night the same dream invaded my mind,
Every morning I will try to remember his face but couldn't.
Every weekdays I found myself asking why is my family different,
Every weekends I will wake my mom early asking why does our family is incomplete.

Monday morning my mother's face looks different,
Her smile changed from sweet to vibrant.
Tuesday noon an unfamiliar man stand beside her,
With a mixed emotion type of smile full of sadness, happiness and excitement.

Wednesday night I caught the stranger crying with my mom,
I don't understand why but they're both smiling while crying.
Thursday midnight I was shocked that I have a dad,
I was furious that all this time I have a complete family but never felt it.

Friday dawn, I decided to leave our home.
I decided to hate my father for leaving me behind.
I blame him because I was bullied and was called an illegitimate child.
Still, I'm longing for him to call me "my son"

Saturday came and night is near,
I close my eyes and let the nightmare in.
Nightmare didn't came, a man stand beside me holding my hand,
I looked who it was and it strike me it was him all this time.

Sunday I came home running to my fullest to reach our house as fast as I could,
There he was hugging my mom whose crying right now.
Tears are starting to grow from my eyes,
I stop running to catch my breath and said "Thank God for the blessing you made".

"Mother!" I called, they both looked at me.
Their fears dissapeared and relief cave in.
I walk straight closing our gaps to each other,
"I'm sorry" I hug my mom and looked to the man "I missed you and I love you, Father"

I'm afraid when I fall to sleep,
I might dive too deep.
I'm scared to wake up,
for I thought my heart beat will stop.

I'm anxious to play in the rain,
people might think I'm insane.
It's so depressing to leave the house,
I might meet a lot of clowns.

I remembered how she smiled at me,
telling all the stories about me and our family.
I remember ** I fall asleep without any fear,
for her angelic and sweet voice is all I can hear.

I remembered how she laugh at me while playing-
cause' I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm remember how excited I am to wake up,
excited to play that my heart beat can't stop.

I remember the sweetness of the soup she cooked for us,
it taste like heaven and it feels like a blanket that heat us up.
I'm remembered how I enjoyed playing under the rain in our land,
it's so cold yet I can feel her warmth for she won't leave me behind.

I remembered her graceful walk beside me on my way to school,
I was walking with my cold hands but she looks really cool.
I can now go outside our house,
She said "no more clowns. Let's look for a doll house".

I remember her smell,
I remember her warmth,
I remember everything about her,
I remember and I still feel her love for me and for us.

She save us a lot,
She was there when we need to fight.
She was and will always be our number one fan,
She always believe that we can do everything by our own hand.

She never failed me to smile, cry and laugh.
She never failed to act that she is so tough.
She never failed to make us feel safe and home.
She never failed to love us with all of her heart.

She's the best of all the best,
She's my first and last love,
She's my first kiss and first hug.
She's my one and only true love.

I love you with all of my heart,
Happy mother's day mother.
You have my love and my heart.
We love you with all of our heat our best mom.