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Mar 2016 · 1.3k
St. Francis Memorial Blues
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
I went down to the St. Francis Memorial
A morgue built over broken hearts
I found a rose and I pinned it to my clothes
As I tore my family apart

Let me go, let me go in peace
Let me rest without any pain
I don't want to be praised or spiritually saved
I just want my memory to remain

Send me home, send me home dear mother
Wherever it is that you may be
And in the evening sun when the day is done
Please don't shed a tear for me

As I walk along St. Francis Memorial
Looking at the name on every stone
Nothing hurts worse than the sight of a hearse
Driving through the tombstones alone
Mar 2016 · 2.8k
Soul .45
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
I'm going to the city with my Soul in my pocket
I'm gonna find out who I am
There's a revolution and no one can stop it
But I'll do the best I can

I got my Soul loaded and ready to fire
Say goodbye to your best friend
She tried her best to quiet my desire
But I loaded it up again

So as I get to the city of blackened streets
I'm gonna paint them red
With my Soul in my hand and two sturdy feet
I put a bullet that woman's head
Mar 2016 · 2.4k
Playing Dreams and Friends
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
I used to sing to the morning but it's at the end of the day
I used to sing to the mountains but they all washed away
I think of the lessons I've learned along the way
When my memory fails, they'll all slip away

I had a dream but the morning came to pass
Clouded up my mind with nothing but the past
When you've fallen in love, you'll always remember that
When you fall out, you feel like you'll never get it back

I played to the millions all with empty eyes
I played to a friend who sat and cried
All is forgiven with a kiss and a sigh
When the realization hits that life passes by

I cared enough but it only brought me down
As long as I'm alive, I'll always be around
Send me requests and I'll carry them out
I'll be your friend until all your lights go down
Mar 2016 · 2.1k
I'd Like To Do This Forever
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
I greet myself every morning
Try to convince myself that bad complexion's kinda charming
Maybe youth is never-ending
Then I see my tax returns are pending
I wish I could promise everlasting
But I've always been told that lying is a bad thing
I'd like to do this
Maybe forever
But only if me and my lover stay together

I was conceived in a kitchen
And it became the place my childhood was murdered in
I fell asleep at the movies
Somehow the sounds of violence really soothe me
I smoked a dozen
Hacked my way to a suicidal buzz again
I'd like to do this
Maybe forever
But only if me and my family stay together

I gave a prophet my number
She sent it to the clouds and now I'm going under
Am I the only me?
Or am I a product of genetic destiny?
It doesn't matter
Happiness is measured in love and laughter
I'd like to do this
Maybe forever
But only if me and my friends stay together
Mar 2016 · 1.6k
Who I Am
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
Every now and then I gotta sweep the floor
Carry out requests like a common *****
But I do it / I'm pushing through it
It's who I am

They tell me not to listen to the men in suits
But after the sermon they lie to you
I'm not easy / you'd best believe me
It's who I am

I've gotta find a woman or at least a man
Love is only accepted if you've got a plan
I'm indecisive / it's the way I live
It's who I am

Maybe when you're wealthy we'll become friends
Because money's never caused a connection to end
But can I borrow / a few tomorrows?
It's who I am

I drive to wherever the world ends
I doubt I'll ever see any of you again
But I love you / I'm thinking of you
It's who I am
Mar 2016 · 781
For My Mother
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
I wrote you a song
It's sweet and it won't take long
I hope it makes you smile
I'm glad you let me stay awhile

You're my mother and friend
I'll always want to see you again
You didn't just give me life
You gave me a reason to fight

You and I will always be
Together at heart, you'll see
When I'm away from home
You'll never truly be alone

So I wrote you a song
It's sweet and it won't take long
Just to put a smile on your face
One I'll never replace
Mar 2016 · 3.5k
Art
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
Art
You're a work of art
Which is why I don't get you
Mar 2016 · 4.9k
Pocahontas
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
Sell me Pocahontas
She is only seventeen
Paid in full for a painted skull
And a million apple trees

Guide me, native spirit
Teach me how to speak
To tell them why they have to die
And why they're so weak

Pocahontas, come with me  
Take my hand and you'll see

The land of fallen glory
Of courageous family men
Fought for truth and killed the youth
After we called them friends

Pocahontas, come with me  
Take my hand and you'll see

Listen to my promise
This is my desire
Just sign the line and close your eyes
As I set your home on fire
Mar 2016 · 6.3k
A Weekend in the South
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
It was down in California
Where the light hurt my eyes
I couldn't hear my thoughts or find a reason why
It was down in Louisiana
Where all my friends were now
When something went black and escaped into the south

So I went into the city
Of whatever state I'm in
I can't tell if it's New Orleans or if I'm drunk again
I buried all my secrets
In a tarnished leather book
At which only me and the universe can look  

Thank god for himself
For he's given me pain
And if it's someone else
You can erase them with blame

So I jumped into a truck
Driven by border clerks
But halfway down to Mexico, I knew this wouldn't work
They had it in for laughs
At the expense of broken hearts
I know they meant no harm but they were tearing me apart

The flag above my head
Only made me feel sick
Someone tried to sell me love but I knew it was a trick
But when the sun finally fell
And the stars shined on me
I understood what people meant when they told me I was free
Mar 2016 · 3.2k
Don't Worry About It
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
Life is just an addiction waiting to fade away
But while you've got the time
Let it free your mind
Even if it kills you someday

Today is just a day waiting to disappear
And though it's piling on
Soon, it will be gone
Just another wrinkle in your mirror

Tomorrow's just another stop along the road
A quiet little town
Or heaven coming down
Or somewhere you've never known

Death is just a final chord ringing out
Drifting into applause
For what is and what was
Something to never cry about
Mar 2016 · 2.6k
Dear Colorado
Jordan Rowan Mar 2016
Dear Colorado,
Are you still awake?
You're like a fantasy I have
Like I risk I have to take
How have you been?
It feels like years since we kissed
How many people come your way?
How many of them do you miss?
I think what you said was true
I'm gonna die alone and sad
But I've grown to realize
That it wouldn't be that bad
Just let me see you again
At least one more time
Once more, and I'll never call
I wanna die under your sky
Feb 2016 · 8.0k
Don't Kill Me, Brother
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
Someone is dying, I can hear them breathe
The dark isn't final as it sets on me
Nowhere is everywhere, say what you see
Don't **** me, brother, I've got family

There's nothing here, look all around
The sun is dying, it makes no sound
Someone is crying, lost and unfound
Don't **** me, brother, and bury me down

Fighting is over, now we survive
Only the weak are left alive
Smoke rolls away yet the fire has died
Don't **** me, brother, don't even try

Light's on its way but don't hold your breath
You've only got so much left
I'd like to shake the hands of death
And say don't **** me, brother, lay me to rest
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
High Priest Paul stalks them in the night
He promises forgiveness by the edge of his knife
He never stops to question or hesitates to bite
Believe in him and he will make it right  

Scar-Faced Jake doesn't like to wait
He murders Myan time and claws the hands of fate
He bullies his way to the top of the state
He wears a velvet hat and sells you ****** bait

Senator Chris keeps his lovers on a list
A check for every thrill and a line for every kiss
Somewhere, out there, far beyond the bliss
There's kids wondering where their daddy is

Groovy Jungle Jim buries his guitars
Played them like a fiddle in middle country bars
Slept with the lowlifes and wannabe a stars
His voice is the air and his clothes are in the yard

Ali of the Valley sees the starry sky is clear
Reflecting in her eyes like a cosmic mirror
Wondering if the universe looks at us and sneers
While the people on the earth scoff and call her weird

Mr. Priestess Slim puts the bottle on the floor
It's full of whiskey eyes but just a moment more
Someone is rapping on his chamber door
But when he opens it up, he starts a holy war
Feb 2016 · 2.7k
Distance
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
I'm on the final trail
Ever since I awoke
Since my mind turned on
I'm destined for cosmic smoke
There's a distance covered
But it took my whole life
I don't know what's left
But I hope I do it right

It's like a winter storm
That doesn't know how to end
It sweeps up some
And never comes back again
This distance here
Has taken me so long
But before I disappear
I'd like to sing you so-long

Send me whispers
From somewhere beyond my place
Maybe I'll understand
When I finally see your face
There's a distance between us
But it's getting closer now
No matter how long it takes
I've got to get there somehow
Feb 2016 · 6.7k
The Ballad of Suzy
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
There's gods all around that pound you
While the men in high heels surround you
How much longer 'til they've found you?
Suzy, do you know what you've done?

She had her ways of seduction
A femme fatale if there ever was one
A high class killer and a smart one
But everyone fails once or twice

You spent the night in the hacienda
Curled up on the white veranda
To kingdom come they'd like to send ya
Suzy, do you know you're on your own?

The sun will rise tomorrow
Do you need some time to borrow?
Listen to the morning swallow
You've got to come up with something quick

How does it feel to be a rebel?
To wake up dead next to the devil?
You've got one more deal left to settle
Suzy, I hope your aim is good

Is that smoke in the distance?
Is it a campfire or an instance?
Is there anyone out here to witness,
Whatever Suzy has up her sleeve?

The gun that she carries
Belongs to the man she married
And tonight, along this lonesome prairie
Suzy will meet him once more
Feb 2016 · 4.5k
The Ghost of Highway 5
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
Slept in and saw the moon fall asleep
Dead motor rising underneath my ***** sheets
Camped out for days to see a love of mine
But she met a man, now I'm trying to **** some time
I feel like a ghost on highway 5

Caught dead with my spirit in my hand
Claim your prize when I help you understand
You think of love but I think of fun and games
Regrettable nights with moon howled names
I feel like a ghost in your brain

Burnt out exhausted with roads in my eyes
Fought for once but now I'm despised
I want to drive until my engine starts to rust
Until the memories I had turn to ******* dust
I feel like the ghost of teenage lust

Improper sayings that sting under the skin
Emotions like to implode you from within
Have you seen my head, all lit up with desire?
But you were the one to light it on fire
I feel like a ghost too dead to be tired
Feb 2016 · 299
Down
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
Down on the bottom
Everyone's favorite place to be
Come join me
Feb 2016 · 2.4k
Life is Complex
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
Some simple morning
When the sky fell
It was like a temporary warning
Made of wedding bells
As the temple heard the laughter
And the sound of ***
It rang through the rafters
And said "life is complex"
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
If you knew ******* me
Would you hesitate at all?
Would put the writing on the wall?
I'm starting to think about,
What it would be like
But I think we'll do it some other night

If you broke into my house
Would you steal all my things?
My cast iron lung and my mother's rings
I start to wonder about,
Everything we could do
But in the end, that's all up to you

If you saw my collection
Of everything I've ever done
Would come closer or would you run?
If things fell to pieces
And collapsed onto the floor
Would you beg for mercy or for more?

If you knew how to shame me
Would you kindly tell me how?
I'd like to use it in a painting somehow
If you thought about my flaws
As just reasons to laugh
I'd like to know so I can join in on that
Feb 2016 · 2.9k
At the House on the Lake
Jordan Rowan Feb 2016
I'm somewhere else
And you're right here
I need time to become clear
If all is well
And we can't tell
Sometimes things just disappear

There's stones to find
And towns to go
Stories to hear and myths to know
It's all right here
Written down
But who wrote it's in the ground

And down by the house on the lake
No string is loose, no word is fake
Sing as the winter blows
Past our heads and down the road

There's a car outside
It's running low
But it still finds a way to go
When I get young
I'll understand
But right now, I'm sure I don't

If time is past
Or up ahead
It's all too much for my head
Can I just sleep?
And dream in song
For it won't be long before I'm dead

And down by the house on the lake
No string is loose, no word is fake
Sing as the winter blows
Past our heads and down the road
Jan 2016 · 2.6k
It's Alright, Love, Be Happy
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Farewell, my love
Only the sky above keeps us close now
Love me now like you loved me then
I can live with that
But I can't live without being your friend

Time is short
Just like what we had, isn't it?
There's nothing that,
I would change
I just wish it wasn't different now

Please come back
Leave the future behind

Farewell, my love
I don't know where I'll go
If things get bad
And I'm not back
Find someone who won't make you sad

If all is well
And I'm still gone, don't let me in
Hold on tight
To what feels right
And darling, it's alright if it ain't me
Jan 2016 · 1.2k
Mona and The Hangman
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
As the sun lit up the streams and the sky
It broke up the dreams in Mona's eyes
And she woke to a day of lazing around
As a boy she never met came blazing through town

She got up and fixed herself a coffee and book
She glanced out the window and had to take a second look
A little boy came running with blood on his jeans
She realized that her father was nowhere to be seen

She opened the door and waiting for him to speak
His breath was harsh and his words were weak
"Your father lost and he's set to hang"
He said as the telephone rang

She wiped the dust off the saddle and a tear from her face
As she rode away towards the hangman's place
When she arrived and saw her father in chains
She felt the sting of a loved one in pain

The hangman pointed to her and asked her name
She replied "I'm his daughter, you should be ashamed"
"There is nothing now that you can do,
Unless you'd like me to hang you."

As her father shouted out and cried
She trembled and knew she couldn't watch him die
Before the hangman put her in binds
He said "There's one more thing I have in mind."

And as the night howled and grounds froze
What happened in that room, no one knows
But when sun rose in the morning
There was no family left to do the mourning
Jan 2016 · 1.0k
Stop
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I'm tired of being dramatic
Words don't always flow
Poetry isn't right over what else is wrong
Cry some more
That will help
Whine a lot
Like we all do
**** trying to sound perfect
Life doesn't rhyme
Life has ups and downs
Life *****
And then it gets good
And then it ***** again
Deal with it
Stop crying
Jan 2016 · 4.0k
Loveless Sex
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Loveless *** breeds happiness
With your legs wrapped around a chest
Have you now achieved success?
Does it feel like you know best,
When you just have to accept
Whatever they say?

It must be over now  
I can just tell somehow
Learn a job at the plow
For that's all you do now
Can you smell the future now?
It must be close
For I see no sweat on your brow

Has it led to the farm
Where money grows like ******* charms?
Speaking of, I spoke to them
They don't like it when you bend
Maybe you should stand up straight
And learn to make love and how to wait
It doesn't feel like you're hard to shake

Age is just a number that,
Shows how long you've survived
It doesn't say you're bound for fame
Or even worth enough to stay alive
Come back home to mother and father
Where they can't complain about your bother
Your mouth tells of stories though
They're only true to you
Jan 2016 · 1.1k
I Am Your Home
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
There's something out there
And it will break your heart
There's something out there
Waiting to break your heart
And if it breaks your heart
It will break mine too

Don't believe in anything
Unless it believes in you
Somewhere in this scarred face
I see remnants of you
Nothing can be lost
When you know that it's true

I can still hear the voices
But they don't believe in me

Have you seen the weather?
Looks like it's gonna be fine
I wanna be together
But only if you have the time
Do you wanna go back home?
Well I am your home
Jan 2016 · 1.4k
Next in Line for Relief
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I see the things I've felt unraveling before me
Maybe your mind just doesn't do it for me
At once impossible is now very likely
You'll go on anyway despite me

I thought about you maybe only once today
I thought that wouldn't happen until I passed away
Sometimes I think that I could never get away
But now I'm wondering if I really want to wait

When tomorrow comes it will be just another time
All I've ever heard from you is "some other time"
Sooner or later I've got to find my own life
No second chances for those who think I'm simply next in line

Come down from there where you've been too long
The pedestal that I built isn't very strong
I thought you would die up there but I was wrong
And I'll feel better when I know you're gone
Jan 2016 · 2.4k
Letter to Someone Unlikeable
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
You're a walking overreaction
When something doesn't go your way
You think it's everlasting
And when the heart inside your cold chest
Doesn't get a response
You blame it on unhappiness

I think it's over, all of those complaints
But when they start again
I wonder if you ever learned restraint
Sometimes it's easy
But most of the time
I can barely stand you speaking

You're still a child
Somewhere, out there
There must someone who likes your style
I'll bet they're crazy
It doesn't matter how hard you try
It ain't me

Can you believe it?
Somebody near you
Doesn't like it when you talk ****
Maybe you should try this
When a thought comes in your head
Don't just say it, maybe filter it
Jan 2016 · 4.0k
A Dry Bed and A Good Person
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
You say stop and I say go
It's the little voices that tell me so
You say yes and I say no
But I hate it when you have to go
I can't think straight but that's okay
I don't have much to say anyway

I'm important and you are too
There's got to be something we can do
Do you like to drive around?
We can listen to what you want to
I'm bored and I don't care
Responsibilities give me nightmares

I say love and you say hate
Hate is easy but love is fate
We talk philosophy and time and space
When passion's real it shows in your face
I'm too tired to even try
The rain is nice but my bed is dry
Jan 2016 · 1.8k
Today Was Fun
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I've had enough to drink, I guess
But I might as well finish the rest
Will you follow me here?
It may be dark but it's oh so clear

It's a mighty fine day outside
So I should stay inside
Watch the lights beat on my window
And imagine how the wind blows

Come one, come all, come dancing
Someone out there is laughing
Is it at me? I can't see
I shouldn't have left my seat

Must everything be so perfect?
If so, then nothing is worth it
I like imperfections, expands my selection
There's no flawless affection
Jan 2016 · 2.4k
In the Street
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I don't have anywhere to be
I don't have anyone to see
Maybe if I walked into the street
Somebody would silence me
Just hold the violence, please
I've already killed the leaves
Watched them crash into my knees
Since I can't drown in the sea
I'll die in the street
Jan 2016 · 2.6k
Past vs. Present
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Sometimes as days go by so fast
We take time to dwell on the past
Hazy pictures and memories of laughs
Moments in time we'll never get back

Tell me your stories like we first met
Tell me again so I won't forget
Soon I will but not just yet
Soon, I can use them when you're upset

We fight for the times we think were best
When we were younger and needed no rest
When all was ahead, no sins to confess
Heads full of dreams and love in our chest

Somewhere along these perpetual years
We learn to accept that time disappears
Pictures are best kept stained with our tears
What lies ahead will be better than here
Jan 2016 · 1.5k
When Dreams Wake You Up
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
When the morning doesn't breathe
In the cold winter air
How does it feel to need somebody there?
You could probably hear them if it wasn't for the frost
But their words are frozen, desperately lost

How does it feel right now
To be awake in the dark?
How does it feel to be lost in your heart?
Take a look inside, I hope you find what really burns
Like the sound of a name, more than just a word

How do those dreams feel
When the wake you up?
They're like a movie reel that shakes you up
If everything at once starts to swirl and collide
Then what's important will live when what's pointless has died
Jan 2016 · 1.8k
Happy Without Me
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
If there's god's will then will you take it away?
I hear my name coming from the edge of town
I need to go find my place in these worst of days
I may be different when I come back around

Don't let me die
In your sweet, sweet mind
Remember the times when I cared for you
And when I go
When my footprints are gone
Find someone new who will see you through

If all is well and you can sleep in peace
Don't think twice about where I am
It doesn't matter if I'm alive or deceased
Just as long as you can smile again

But don't let me die
In your sweet, sweet mind
I know your heart has always been good
Unlike mine
But I can't control it no more
No more, but know I would if I could

When you wake up and your mind is released
From any thoughts about me
Now you can live and you can flourish in peace
You'll be happy, alive without me
Jan 2016 · 1.2k
Anna
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Oh, Anna
Don't let him steal your heart away
You've been doing fine celebrating Independence Day
Oh, Anna
You've got a lot of growing to do
Don't fall for someone who needs to do some growing too

Oh, Anna
If he ever gives your heart a shove
Come crying to me because friendship is just like love
Oh, Anna
Do you believe him when he talks to you?
When he says he loves you do you believe that it's true?

You'll never be the same when you give him everything
If he hesitates to answer don't wait forever after
Love should be an instinct, not a laughing matter

Oh, Anna
I know it isn't easy at all
But when the going gets rough, you know who to call
Oh, Anna
I know you're hurting so
But when the right man comes believe me, you will know
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
The light beyond the windowpane reads like the lines of a poem
And the headlights crash into streams on their way home
The lampshade brushes your arm and crushes you like a stone
You're still there but over here you're all alone

The streets are all black or maybe it's just the night
The day was long but now it's time to make it right
But when your memories are wrong and blurred out of sight,
Do you really have the strength to put up a fight?

You light your cigarette and close one, ****** eye
"Don't bat a lash" says the woman who last made you cry
And she follows you down to the depths of your mind
She complicates your soul and then she just hurries by

Somewhere down the alley, towards the church bells of dawn
You hear a voice that slowly carries on
Like a lost whippoorwill still whispering its song
A feeling comes over you and you wonder why you waited so long
Jan 2016 · 2.5k
Lovers in Fog
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Somewhere in the night
Before we settle down
I can hear the distance closing in
How long has it been around?
It's likely that I haven't slept
Or even stepped out in the rain
But if I promise you once again
I think I'll go insane

Do you believe in me?
Do you believe what I say?
I'm sick of hiding it
Maybe I'll throw it away
I'm impossible to understand
But then again, honey, so are you
We're like fog over cities
Covering up the awful truth
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I'm calm, I promise
Just don't convert me
Just please be honest
And don't desert me
I'm lost in obsession
In all directions
Will you be laughing,
When I lose possession?

My heart's fading
But there's no answer
To all my waiting
It's like a cancer
That now controls me
It's gaining power
I'm fading slowly
Under desire

The night's a weapon
I use against me
It leaves impressions
On me gently
And when the morning
Comes in higher
Without a warning
Comes desire

If I'm still waiting
When you find me
No escalating
Just please come find me
When it's over
All of this waiting
All this desire
Is never fading
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Deadbeat street heat
Dust on the window
Like the dead of night
Screaming like a crow
I didn't mean to fall down
But that's what happens when you move
And as long as you're around
Can you help me keep the groove?

In the storm, keep me warm
Under blankets or your arms
Tune the magic of your mind
And let me breathe in your charm
When the loneliness is killing me
And I know it's killing you
Would you mind if I rang you up,
To help me see it through?

Today is lazy, tomorrow's crazy
I won't worry until then
Because right now is where I'm in
And this dream will never end
Have you thought much about me
Since the sun rose in the West?
Because I haven't been able to keep you out
Though I haven't tried, I guess
Jan 2016 · 1.0k
She's So Good to Me
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She's never been known to talk too much
But she's not afraid to touch the ones she loves
She won't run away

She never has much to say
But when she does you don't look away
Or close your eyes
Yeah, she's a good girl
And she's been good to me

She says she's not afraid to die
But when she does, don't be afraid to cry
It's alright

She talks of life and what it means
Her voice is quiet and her words are clean
She's lost in a daydream
Yeah, she's a good girl
And she's been good to me

I wish I could always be
As good to her as she's been to me
Everyday

But I get lost and stuck sometimes
And she's the furthest thing from my mind
It's sad to say
But ****, she's a good girl
And she's been good to me
Jan 2016 · 15.0k
Only One Of All
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
The night sounds of fallen angels
Building stairways back to home
And the radio plays softly
Like a crooner left alone
As the night falls into the velvet shades
And beats down the bedroom door
Of all the visions that come to me
It's of one I'm hoping for

The postman closes up the station
And the buses get cleaned with rain
The asylum rests and barely breathes
As the countryside goes insane
Prophets speak of peace
On the dim hue of TV screens
Of all the moments that seem real
I still wait to watch my dreams

Imposed upon the westward wall
Are the silhouettes of weeping oaks
Swaying in the wind that talks
But they only tell me jokes
Swept beneath the silver stars
Sleeping on blanket clouds
Of all the space above me
I feel as if I can't get out

Headlights and passing trains
Sound like time passing by
Gone are the hearts inside
Like the years beyond my eyes
Sounds from the suburb city
Blow like sirens in my mind
Of all the thoughts within me
Only one freezes time
Jan 2016 · 2.8k
Going to Portland
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I slept a little last night
But I don't think I closed my eyes
I'll tell you I'm alright
You should know I'm good at lies

I'm tired and terrified
And I'm sick of being scared
My brain is kinda fried
Maybe I'm just unprepared

Maybe a change of scenery
Will cure my misery
I'd like plane tickets but I can't afford 'em
So I'm going to Portland

I had a drink last night
And I was nowhere to be found
I'd like to think it was one drink
Only if the whole bottle counts

I'm a servant to the rush
And I believe in laying low
But when someone says to hush
I like to give it to them slow

Maybe I need to leave
So my mind can finally breathe
I don't need no beach of sand
I'm going to Portland
Jan 2016 · 837
All I Have, I Guess
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She's like devil himself
Except she's real
I ask her how she looks at me
What she thinks and how she feels
She just smiles
And says "That's not the deal"

She can't be trusted
But she's all I have
And like an old rusted car
She's the best but breaks my back
And when it's over
I'll realize that I love being trapped

I'm bound to fall
It's just who I am and what I do
And when I tell her so
She will laugh and sleep with you
And stumble home
Smelling of someone else's truth

I think I like it
When she tells me she's not in love
Because if I'm being honest
I have never really been enough
And I've made my peace with that
Just as long as she likes it rough
Jan 2016 · 924
It's All Cliché, I Know
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Yes, this silence is killing me
Do you really think I'm alright?
That I was willing and free
To miss you every night?
I still remember the sound of your voice
But it's just a memory
And it will fade
Like a singer's melody

I know that you don't love me
And I'm alright with that
I can't force things to be
And I've made my peace with that
But that doesn't change the cruel fact
That you're gone now
And I will heal
I've got to move on somehow

I know you've got your reasons
And I'm not here to those away
But it's hard when I can't see them
Or see you everyday
Down and out and lonely and blue
Stuck behind the train
There's only one thing to do
When they don't call your name

Make it out to the surface
From the undertow and the cold
And even though you're worth it
I can't wait until I get old
I can move on, I promise that I will
And you won't hear from me
But no matter what, I love you still
I just can't wait forever, you see
Jan 2016 · 2.8k
We've All Heard Enough
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I'm a lying, cheating loser
With a gun pointed at my head
I still remember everything you said
Maybe I'll be worth more to you when I'm dead

There's a summer sunset I haven't seen
And it's haunting my dreams
The daylight breathes and blows away
The scent of you and everything you'll say

I can still hear the words
But I'm still unsure
If you really meant them
And why I resent them

Daylight, dead of night, any time
The thoughts don't stop in my mind
I think and talk about it too much
Everyone around me has heard enough
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I'm too drunk to write
But I'll write anyway
Lately, I've been drunk night and day
It helps my mind forget
That she walked away
Jan 2016 · 3.4k
Be Who You Deserve
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Take a deep breath and let your life begin
Close your eyes and find meaning within
Disappear if you disappoint
Bust your blues and split the joint
Calm your nerves
And be who you deserve

Turn off the old mind and finally relax
Space and time can get you back on track
Flee the scene and whisper to the sun
That all is well for now you have become
Who you are
You were never that far
Jan 2016 · 733
Best of the Worst
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She's beautiful
She treats me bad
She's still the best I've ever had
Jan 2016 · 4.6k
Too Much Privilege
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
I've got too much privilege
Can we tear my people down?
Let us build a village
And live off the ground
And speak of myth and death
Around the smoke of our breath

I can't imagine
The pain my people cause
Like a 10-ton Gatling gun
And every bullet counts for loss
Where was I when we killed them all
Someday, we're bound to fall

I wish I could say sorry
For the color of my skin
And that I wish I could change
The state things are in
I wouldn't mind if you wanted to **** me
For all the years of misery

I've got love within me
But moving pictures tell the truth
We need a new beginning
Peace is in its youth
Living for each other
Can only come from one another
Jan 2016 · 1.9k
Never Known, Never Had
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
Electric dreams of crying electric sheep
Sweep through my mind full of sleep
Dance across the diamond sky
And wave as your silhouette goes by

Crying crystal eyes fixed upon the sun
With no thoughts of many but just one
The one who sings in hazy blue bars
Illuminated like the northernmost stars

Melodies warm the air and the heart
Drift past the door and into the dark
Deep in the mystery of human life
Rests the emotion tied to one night

Calm and frail under sapphire skies
Doubt and worry in worn-out eyes
Never known yet unignored
Never had but longed for
Jan 2016 · 4.2k
I Won't Forget Her
Jordan Rowan Jan 2016
She's so sweet snd tender
I'm so glad I met her
And when it's all over
I won't forget her

She sends me to rapture
She's so hard to capture
Bohemian stature
So go up and ask her

Can you find me a reason?
Through changing seasons
Through love and treason
When I'm hot and freezing

She's so fine to gaze on
She's got life to take on
Even when she does wrong
She still sounds like a sweet song

She's so sweet and tender
I'm so glad I met her
And now that it's over
I won't forget her
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