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Jo Hummel Jul 2015
I can't dream when I sleep with you
because you make my mind all fuzzy.
I've got oneirophopbia, so not dreaming is totally ideal.
Jo Hummel Jul 2015
I can say, very easily and without exaggeration, that every godforsaken moment I don't hear your voice or see your face is pure agony.
I live to hear you breathing on the other line when I wake up.
Jo Hummel Jul 2015
She's the rhythm in my dance,
the reason for my choreography.
Everything I do is in her name.
No universe is complete without her
(she is the embodiment of all life):
I am not complete without her
(she is the reason in my mind).
No matter what.
Always remember that.
Jo Hummel Jul 2015
There are glass shards in my heart that tell tales of old ghosts:
I'm too sentimental to remove them.
who knows
Jo Hummel Jun 2015
It's not even about you.

It's fire scorching everything in your path,
the way you command attention from everyone without saying a word.
It's starshine in your eyes,
how you can make the worst things sound like they've been made of velvet,
how you could snap my heart in two and convince me it was a good thing.
It's the seduction,
the growl in your throat when something you want is just within reach,
when you don't make promises and I still expect you to deliver,
but you're still a ******* god when my expectations exceed everything else.

It's about how you love,
how you could suffocate me with your two hands,
and I'd still waste my breath on you.  

It's about the way you noticed me,
how it was only for a moment,
and I'm still enamoured.
Jo Hummel Jun 2015
Sounds specific to dying engines,
picked locks,
or waves lapping at the surface just above your head;
The feeling of the earth crumbling below you,
the tremor caused by a far-off explosion,
or the way black holes will lure anything into their grasps.
The way any noise can make you jump,
the mention of someone causing your breathing to quicken, your pupils to dilate, or your hair to stand on end.
Knowing that there's no solution.
My anxiety is beyond imaginable right now and it's honestly hard to imagine I'll be alive this time next week.
Jo Hummel Jun 2015
Wound in Hades' cold grasp,
brought to asphyxiation by his fingers,
I can feel the universe crumble away as the edges of my vision darken,
blurred,
and I call out for you.
I was always a fool for pretty eyes,
dimples, freckles,
tattoos and short hair,
and the kind of laugh that makes your hair stand on end
(in shocked delight, not terror,
though the way your heart begins to pound makes you wonder).
It's enough to say I'll cause my own downfall,
but I'll always give my last breath to whisper your name.
here have a mesh of anxiety + love + suicidal thoughts
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