David? Whatthefuck, back in the day we used to kick it,
today I wake to the news that you paid the ultimate ticket.
The world is wicked, and killing is shameful.
To know there'll never be just justice is painful.
Thinking back to some of the memories we had,
I laugh with the moments cuz they really made me glad to know you.
Still I've always known you to be a good person,
I know how occasions can lead to bad situations.
We all have a temper,
now it'sbest to remember that we should just cool down.
Otherwise there'll be other times where we find others are gone now.
I'm taking this time to reflect, because you getting shot is something i'd never expect.
You texted me months ago, and I saw you last week.
The questions of life is now something we're all to seek.
David, hopefully at least some will learn based on what was done,
and learn that f*cking with guns really aint that fun.
Much love to the heaven above for you or whatever place there may be.
You're gone but not gone, for in our hearts will always be Dahveeeeed!
Rest peacefully :/

And in the drought, passion roared through that eternal water spout.
There was some doubt but then the world realized what this life was really about.
Heads were in the clouds only to find out that the stars have aligned.
Enraptured in love is where we've found ourselves so gently intertwined.
And in this time, no such face with numbers existed.
We ran together taking the opportunity as though we could have missed it.
It was bliss and had the moment had physical elements I might have kissed it, too.
For only from all perspectives do we acknowledge what is true.
It was indefinitely inspiring and on that notion we flew.

*What we share is beautiful, and what's not commonly known is taboo.
It just might be that what potentially starts with me, could end with you

I don't know why I let the little things bother me. It used to ruin who I was only constantly. Now I'm just gonna take deep breaths and release, or even workout some more despite insanity. I can sense dishonesty based on what's apparent to me. It is troubling and for it I pay a mental fee. They say that the truth can truly set you free, then again our happiness can be based on what we choose to see.

8 days into the new year and I have already broken my resolution.

After 4 shots and 3 whiskey and cokes
God only knows what all went down.
I wake up in a daze
pick my clothes up off the floor
and curse myself out loud.

The car ride home lasted a life time.
I closed my eyes hoping that it wasn't real
that when I opened them again I'd be in my bed
alone.

Turned the shower on as hot as it gets
tried to burn off the shame
tried to scrub off the guilt
but no matter how scalding the water was,
nothing could wash away the pain.

Spent hours in my bed
not moving
because if I moved
it would mean I exist
and I don't want to.
Not anymore.

Nothing has ever made me
hate myself more.
8 days into the new year and I have already broken my resolution.

*8 days into the new year and I have already broken.