Learn me slowly
please.
Be patient
with my pages
                                                                                       Jon York   2019

Sometimes the best memories
sneak out of my eyes disguised
as tears.

I am remembering some of the
most beautiful moments of my
younger  life that  weren't  just
with you  but  because  of  you.

No matter how broken we think
we are, we will always be a piece
in someone else's puzzle of life.

We'll fill all of their cracks with
love and fragments of our own
heart.

Our lives may not have fit together
but ohhh...did our souls know how
to dance....

I fell in love with the way you
touched me without using your
hands.

I hunger for your kiss, the feel
of  your  soul  touching  mine.
                                                      ­                                       Jon York   2024

I want to kiss you, taste you
       so bad right now.
                                                            ­                                  Jon York   2019

Love  me  now.....
so my memory of your
body will last forever,
our souls hinged and
intertwined
          as one.

Love me slowly.......as I know
no other way and stay as long
as you like because I'm not
going anywhere and I want
only you. So love me harder
because I want to remember this
night always and this will give
me  a  love  to  write about for
                            days  to come.

I want to be able to
still  feel   my   lips
burning  against  yours,
and ******* the air from
your lungs as my touch
lingers over  your  body
and the dark echo of my
voice resonates  deep  in
your   mind,  my  hands
washing  over   you  like
                         moonlight.
I  am  not here... and  yet
      I am everywhere and
                 so close to you.
                                                                                       Jon York   2019

She is
the sea,
calm but
so deep.
                                                                                             Jon York   2019

Just to watch you
wear light on your skin
and trace peace in your fingertips...

how you smile at me
so easy.
                                                                                                Jon York  2019

Your spirit
  is  a bed
in which my
  loneliness
  can softly
      rest.
                                              ­                                        Jon York   2010

Each memory
              has a
         soundtrack
               of
          its own.
       Music gives
              a soul
              to the
           universe,
   wings to the mind,
               flight
              to the
        imagination,
             and life
                  to
            everything .
                 I like
            my music
              so loud,
                I can't
              hear my
             thoughts.
                                                                                    Jon York   2019

Life is
           like
            a
          ****.
     Sometimes
         it's up,.....
      sometimes
        it's down...
          But it
           won't
         be hard
         forever.
          If they
        need you
       temporarily
          ignore
           them
      permanently.
        Life has
      taught me.
     Never expect
    anything from
          anyone.
Don't love too much.        
Don't hope too much.
Don't trust too much.
Because that too much                           Temporary people
is going to hurt you so much                          give permanent lessons.

                                                      T­here is always hope. Always
                                                          ­                                   Jon York   2019

Even if
your on the right track
you will get run over
if you just sit there
never looking back
and what you should
do today don't put off
to do someday
no matter what
others say
because if you
put it off  
life will make
you pay and pay
and try to
remember that
someday is not
a day of the week
no matter what
you seek.         Jon York                      2013

The words
they just come
along with a need to put them
on paper and to some
they will make no sense
but to others they will
enter in to their
souls.

Someday somewhere
along the way what I have done
and what I say will be
read and heard affecting those
who have read me before
knowing that I had
something to say
on this day.

There is no escape
from reality and no one
can run that fast
or make paradise last
as the years just
keep disappearing and a stop
comes to our
cheering.

Is this really
how it is supposed to be
going through life refusing
to see what is right
in front of us
as we crumble into dust
longing for that last
seemingly unreachable
lust.

The biggest killer in the world
not be wars or disease
but suicides as so many
both young and old choose
to end their silly ride of reaching
for that pie in the sky
having had enough pain
and so much rain
and even those with great
worldly gain choose
to sustain.

Me, I just sit here
as my thoughts emerge
through my fingers and
on to paper
knowing that I will be here
for awhile longer
hoping and knowing that
someday somewhere along the way
I will find the answer
and the reason why I am still here
and why I hold life to be
so dear.         Jon York             2012

Some days, in the world,
I feel like
the fake drawers on bathroom cabinets
or the false pockets
on a mans vest;
A reasonable addition
that looks like it belongs,
but what possible purpose
will I ever serve.

Some days, to the world,
I feel like
a thunderstorm with too little thunder
and too much rain
and no fathomable idea
what to do with all the lightning
growing inside me.

Some days, to the world,
I feel like
a book with no cover and a title page
that is torn;
I am filled with words
but only those that care to read
will ever understand
what I am about.
                                                                                        Jon York   2019

Take time to do what
makes you happy
knowing that life is
the art of drawing
without an eraser.

Just wash away
from the soul the
dust of everyday life
and console those
who are broken by
life and know that
some days you just
have to create your
own sunshine.

Sometimes the reason
good things are not
happening to you is
because you are the
good thing that needs
to happen to other
people so remember
that tomorrow is just
another day.

Be ready come what
may and know if you
should never see
tomorrow there will
be no cause for sorrow
because you made the
most of each day while
you were here and if
you don't understand
I can't explain.
                                          Jon   York    2016

I  think  you
    are doing a
wonderful job
   figuring out
some heavy ****.
A smart person
knows what to
   say, a wise
person knows
whether to say
       it or not.
                                                                                 Jon York   2019

Some of the best
        moments in  life  
       are  the  ones  you
     can't  tell   anyone  
                   about.
     And in my  dreams I
         kissed your lips
       a thousand times.
      Whisper me a dream
     and I'll kiss you a story.
             Echoes of my
                    KISS
         linger on your lips
       whispers of my caress
               tingle upon  
                 your hips.
           I   want   to   write
             poems with  my
             tongue between
                   your legs.
                        and
                       I will
                    ****  you
                 till   the   mere
                      thought
              of  me  *******  you
                      ***** you.
                                                                                  Jon York   2019

Find someone who
isn't afraid to admit
that they miss you.
Someone who
knows that you are
not perfect but
treats you as if you
are. Someone
who's biggest fear
is losing you. One
who gives their
heart completely.
Someone who says
'I love you' and
means it. Last but
not least, find
someone who
wouldn't mind
waking up with you
in the morning
seeing you in
wrinkles and your
gray hair but still
falls for you all over
again and touches
you like she did
the very first time
you ever met and
first thing out of
her mouth is the
words 'I love you'
as she kisses your
lips.                                                                 Jon York   2019

When you find someone
who makes  you feel  the
same  way  music  does,
that's  when  you  found
     someone special.
                                                                                          Jon York  2019

We are all
    bad in
someone's
    Story

I  love  when  we're

having  a   normal

    conversation

and  you   suddenly

   say  something

   insanely *****

and  you tell me  that

the best feeling in the

world  is  being  with

someone  who  wants

you  as  much  as  you

want them.
                                                                              
                                                                                Jon York   2019

Some people and some things
that take place
in your life you cannot ever forget
so all that you can do is
just move on.

I am just happy to be alive
and to have made it this far down
that treacherous road of life
as we ask ourselves day in and day out
what this life is really
all about.

Love is something that
we all try to embrace and sometimes
it just hits us in the face
causing us to be sad or to be glad
as we ask ourselves
what is this love really
all about.

You hope that the scars
that are left will soon be gone
and will not influence
what you have to do for
the rest of your life.

We go through life
and remember people and events
and places that we wish had never been to
or seen so we bury them
and try not to think about them again
but at what cost
as we wish that we could
come out of it clean
as we pretend that they
never really happened.

Living a good life
after fighting a war
in a far away land and another at home
in the promise land
caused many of us to just
stick our heads in
the sand.

Tasting a love
that you thought was real
but turned out to be only lies
that brought many cries
and forever changed how you look
at trust only makes moving
on a must.

There is just no escape from reality
so we lie to oueselves
and pretend that they never happened
but some things and some people
you just don't ever forget
so you just move on.        Jon York                 2012

When I was a young boy, growing up in the
middle  of  Oklahoma, I  believed that  there
was right or wrong;  good or bad;  yes or no;
black or white.

It  was easy to  think that way.  How clever I
thought I was, to be so enlightened and decisive,
to have an opinion on everything and to think
I  was right. I wish  I didn't know now what  I
didn't know then.  

As I grew older I realized that sometimes there
is no right or wrong. That some situations have
no good outcome or happy ending. That the answer
can be both yes and no and that manifold factors
must be considered, and that some questions
have no answers.

I don't feel quite so clever anymore, but perhaps
grown wiser since I realized that life operates in
shades of grey and no one really knows the right
way. We all just have to keep going day to day,
doing what we feel is right.
                                                                                          Jon York   2031

When I found her
I learned that she
was not something
wild to tame but
something wild to
                run with.
                                                                                            Jon York   2019

The most
wonderful thing
  I decided
      to do
was to share
      my
life and heart
      with
      you.

   I don't know
how you did it,
   but you just
walked right into
       my soul
     as if it was
  something you
had done many
    times before.
                                                                                                 Jon York   2019

Sometimes hard.
Fast and rough.

Sometimes deep.
Slow and gentle.
                                                                                         Jon York   2019

Sometimes
the universe is
much too
beautiful for
its own good.
Sometimes:
you are
my universe.
                                                                                               Jon York   2019

Sometimes
                      all   you really
                      need is a hug or
                      someone to just
                      tell you everything
                                 will be okay.

                      Okay, or some
                       rough  *** or
                           whatever
                 as nothing grows into
                          something.

                  Forgive my fingers,
                        for when they
                        find your body,
                     they  always  lose
                        themselves.

                         I always practice
                         safe ***, I always
                          tie her to the bed,
                          so she doesn't
                          fall out.

                         I love what you are...
                         what you do  to me, and
                         how you love me,
                         always trying so hard
                         to please me and I
         understand exactly what and who you are.

                                                           ­                              Jon York   2019

Sometimes
when I hold her
it feels like
we've already lived
together, many
different lives
as many different people,
in other times
and places.
But somehow
our souls
always end up
in each others
      arms.
                                                                                            Jon York   2019

Sometimes
all   you
want  is  a
loving  kiss  and
   a hard
fast ****.

I can handle that
    action.
                                                    ­                                       Jon York   2019

Sometimes. . .
              . . . when you release expectations you are free to enjoy things
                     for what they are instead of what you think they should be.

               . . .when you focus on problems that you have you have more
                    problems but if you focus on possibilities you have more
                    opportunities.    

               . . .when you want to disappear what you really want is to be
                    found.

              . . . it is okay if the only if the only thing did today was breathe.

              . . . if you could read my mind you would be in tears.

Sometimes.. .
              . . .every ones true colors show eventually.

              . . .the worst part about being strong is that no one asks if you're
                   okay.

              . . .people do not listen with the intent to understand but they
                   only listen with the intent to reply.

              . . .if life removes someone you never dreamed of losing it will
                   replace them with someone you never dreamed of having.

              . . .in life we forget the things we should remember and
                   remember the things we should forget.

Sometimes. . .
              . . .to heal a wound we have to stop touching it.

               . . .problems in life are there because of two reasons and they
                    are because we act without thinking or we keep thinking
                     without acting.

               . . .the beauty of life does not depend on how happy you are
                    but how happy others can be because of you.      

               . . .what is meant to be will always find a way.

               . . .you just have to be patient because the best things happen
                    unexpectedly.

                . . .if you can not accept it and can not change it, just leave it.

               . . .you can......end of story.
                                                          ­                                     Jon York    2016

                



               . . .

To love or to
        have
        loved,
          that
     is enough.
          Ask
      nothing
       further.
         There
       is no fear
         to be
    found in the
         dark
    folds of life.

       Sometimes
               I
        just wish
             that
       I could fast
      forward time,
             just to
         see if it's all
              worth
                   it
            n the end.
                                                            ­                           Jon York   2019

I do not write just for you
and I do not write
in order to catch
your eye.

In fact I'd rather some
not read my impoverished words at all
since these are my own personal
impoverished thoughts.

Who is it that I write for,
well there is no presure to impress
and no needs that need
to be met but only myself
and my sanity laid bare
and my instability for
all to see.

Seemingly too afraid to speak,
my words come alive as ink
and this for me is my only mirror
however distorted it may be.

It was all really very funny
that I got so mad and seemed
so hurt just because
I was had by the Kansas Queen
of mean.

She did it so clean almost
like a surgeon at work
just cutting me to pieces like
I was some ****.

But I can still smile
and I would still go that
extra mile for that kind of love
but not for that kind of person
who lacks  somewhat
in style.

Her life is only one big lie
and she knows it
but those that surround her think
she is nothing but blue Sky.

In truth she can
hardley wait to tell
just one more lie in order to watch
a grown man cry.

Just so you know
my world will go on since you left
but I will never be the same
only left behind holding on to empty
memories smothered
in lies.

Why the addiction to your memories,
because moments come and pass
but those like time machines
and broken dreams
are unforgettable.

I can only look back on what
I was on that very first day that we met
and had the feeling of a driven cause
and for some stupid reason
thought that you
felt it too.

But I am stuck in the now,
broken somehow
and it is still unforgettable.

No longer can I breathe you in
letting your arms hold me safe and tight
as you take me
through the night.

All I really want now
is my freedom from this spiral cage
and my chance to dance again
into my never ending
night and the rain.

I don't think I could find
the right words to let you know exactly
what you mean to me and I know that you think
it doesn't really matter but no other thought
could make me sadder.

Sometimes I am so confused
and unsure of what to say
but sometimes
it just turns out that way.......  Jon York         2012

The words they come from
somewhere in my mind
like a beautiful breeze blowing
wind in your face or like a smile
that only takes a moment
and costs nothing but gives much,
like a memory that lasts forever.

Don't take your eyes off love's
swift feet even for a second,
because if you do you'll find
yourself in a field of lonesomeness
and know that it is in loving that the heart
finds its quest and it is in giving, not getting,
that our lives are best.

I've climbed to the top
of the mountain and touched
the dew on the morning rose
and witnessed the beauty of nature
and bathed in that beauty and as
my memory runs over those yesterdays
knowing that the only way
I can ever go back,
is the way I just did,
back into the fast-fading
thoughts of an old mind.

When I was young I was
full of fun, learning of life,
living each hour fast and free,
almost as if each were my last
and later, still young but a veteran
of an ugly war that changed me forever,
I knew just enough about life
to regard it more valuable
than before.

Involved in many of life's mysteries
of serving causes or friends,
both of which become
more dangerous with time,
made some of my actions
feel like a crime,
somewhere in my mind.

But I continue and I am still alive
knowing that love is so much more
than an empty desire and beauty
is also so much more than
the new that fades away
so fast.                                                  Jon York             2013

Life has been trying to crush me                    WHAT IF          
but only succeeded in creating
a diamond.                                                         Everything
                                                      ­                 I have been through
 Those who                                                       and I am going
 don't believe in magic                                    through now
will                                                             ­   is preparing me for,
never                                                            ­      what I asked
find                                                             ­                for?
  it.

Because                              ­                               I feel so much
I have known despair                                      that it is hard
I value hope.                                                         for me
                                                              ­                 at times
Because                                                    ­        to feel anything
I have tasted frustration                                        at all.
I value fulfillment.

Because
I have been lonely
I value love.                                                            ­  Jon York   2018

Dreams
                  are  only  dreams
                        until you
                        wake up
                  and make  them  
                             real.

                 You are the Author
                     of  your  story.
                           If your
                stuck on  the  same  
                              page,
                   remember  that  at  
                       any  moment,
                         you have
                the  power to write a
                        new chapter.

                       You will never
                  always be motivated.
                            You have
                     to be disciplined.
                          The future
                   depends  on  what
                         you do today.

                      Love what you do,
                             so one day
                        you can do what
                              you love.
                                                                                          Jon York   2019

Listen to not                                       Only you know my

the words                                                 secret desires.

I speak                                                 Only you have seen my

but the beat                                               hidden passions.                                

of my heart and                                  Only you have my

the rhythm                                                 complete trust,

of my body                                                abiding respect,

that knows                                                  total devotion  &

only                                                            loving adoration.

your tune.                                               Only with you

                                                                         am I free.

                                                                                     Jon York     2018

You are                                    I just want                                 You
       the eggs                                   you, that's                                make
         to my                                      all. All your                              me
         bacon.                                     flaws,                                       laugh
     I love you                                   mistakes,                                 when
     more than                                  smiles,                    ­                I'm not
       bacon.                                       giggles,                                   even in
   I have looked                               jokes,                                        the
   at you                                            teasing,          ­                         mood
   in millions of                                sarcasm.                       ­            to    
   ways and                                      Everything.             ­                smile.
   I have loved                                 I just want
   you in each.                                  you.

   You have this                               Thank                                         If  I
     incredible                                   you for                                     could
way of making my                         being                                         have
     heart happy.                               the                                          anyone
You're my spark                              reason                        ­             in the
     in the dark.                                 I smile.                                    world,
                ­                                                                 ­                       it would
You're name is my                 No amount of time                         still
   favorite word                         spent with you                           be you.
            and                                  is ever enough
You  will  forever                         because                      I promise to
   be my always.                      everything is better       make you feel
                                                     with you and                wanted, loved
You're my never ending       everything has been              and
      thought and                            better since                     needed.
   proof  that  life                                you.            ­        every single day.
        is beautiful.                                                       ­     
                                                      Jon York   2019

If I could have just one wish, I  would wish  

to   wake  up  every  day  to the  sound of

your breath,  the warmth  of  your lips  on  

my   neck,  the  touch  of  your  fingers   on  

my skin, and  the feel of your heart  beating  

with  mine.

You're  the  only  one  who I wouldn't  mind

losing   sleep for, the only  one who  I  never

get tired of talking to, and  the only one who 

crosses  my mind  constantly throughout the

day.

You're the only one who can make me  smile,

and  the  only  one who  without  trying  can 

change my  mood without the intention to,  the

only one  who  can  affect  my  emotions  with

every  action  of yours, and you're  the  one  I

am not afraid of loving and the only one I want

to keep in my life.

                           Sounds like love to me.
                                                             ­                      Jon York  2019

So what if I didn't
give her butter flies,
who needs butter flies
if you have real love.

Life isn't a paperback
novel or a romantic
Hollywood movie.
Butter flies quickly
disappear as soon as
they appear but real
love stays.

So what if she could only
pretend that she loved me,
so she could use me. She is
the one who has to live with
herself and look into
the mirror everyday.

So what if I didn't really
love her, but only loved
what I wanted her to be
and what I knew she was
capable of being.

It is all the same, it's all
a big game that we call life.
Two people play their parts
because they think that they
don't want to be alone but
soon discover that they have
to answer to that person who
loves them and and that they
supposedly loved back, so they
go back to being alone.

So what if somebody gets hurt,
for life is full of hurt and lies and
it is how you deal with those false
promises that determines
who you are in the end.

So what if money changes
everything because that's
just the way it is and the
way that it will always be.

So what if we go through life
never really happy but
only pretending to be happy,
for obtaining happiness is
different for every person.

So what if everybody goes
through life with their own idea
of what it takes to be happy and
what they think they are being
told by society as to what
they need to be happy.

Get over it, we are all going to die
and it is up to you to decide how
you want to life your life while
your here on earth until you
get there, happy or not.

So what if you choose wrong,
it's all the same, it's just all
a big game and you must
learn how to play it in order
to survive.                                     Jon York   2011

So what, I don't care
what anyone
thinks or maybe
assumes about
my: relationships,
my health
my *** life,
my happiness,
my security,
my ability to write,and
my strength, - as a man
who survives  whatever
life sends to me,
           because
It's BETTER  than  all  of  
you  think it  is, so much
BETTER.
I'm seventy years old and
really don't care what all
of you so called "friends"  
assume or might think
about me because:
I'm having the time  of my
life and so is she! I say to
all of those who judge me
based on my what my
poetry says
                so what.
                                                           ­                             Jon York   2019

When you see something
beautiful in someone, tell them.
It only takes a second to say,
but for them it could last a lifetime.

If only our eyes saw souls
       instead of  bodies,
how very different our ideals
     of beauty would be.

My story is filled with
broken pieces, terrible choices,
an ugly war and terrible
disrespect upon returning
and then a horrible head injury
in an automobile crash
       and ugly truths.
   It's also filled with major
comebacks, piece  in  my  soul
and  a  grace  that  saved  my  life.

If I ever tell you about my past,
it's NEVER because I want you
to feel sorry for me, but so you can
  understand why and who I am.                                   Jon York   2021

NEW MONTH.
  new beginning.     new mindset.      new focus.      new start.
                                                                ­                            new intentions.
The sun will rise and you will try again.                new results.                                        

Inhale courage, exhale fear.

Never regret a day in your life:
                                                       Good days give happiness.
          Bad days give experience.
                                    Worse days give lessons.
                                                        ­     The best days give memories.
    Life is short,
          Live it.                   Anything that costs your peace
    Love is rare,                                                            ­      is expensive.
          Grab it.
    Anger is bad,                             No matter how much
          Dump it.                              you know, there's always more to
     Fear is awful,                                                           ­                   learn.
           Face it.
  Memories are sweet,                                                         Everything is
         Cherish them.                                                            ­   going to be
                                                                ­                             alright, maybe
Keep your head high no matter what happens.               not today,
You'll  be alright. If the moment hurts, do not fall                 but
victim to its pain, look ahead. Focus on what can be.      eventually.
          Focus on your dreams. You'll make it.
                                                                ­                           Jon York   2019

Nothing  changes  if  nothing  changes.
Take a deep breath and enjoy your life.
Care about  peoples approval  and you
                               will be their prisoner.
Fear is only as deep as the mind allows.
Be brave, take risks, nothing can substitute
                                                 experience.
Follow your instincts.
Be curious, dream big.
Love what you do.
Love learning.
Keep an open heart &
a strong spirit.
                      Have fun.
No  matter  what  happens, no matter how
far you  seem to  be away from where you
want to be, never stop believing that you'll
somehow make it.

Have an  unrelenting belief  that  things will
work  out,  that  the  long  road   has  had   a
purpose, that the things that you desire may
not  happen  today,  but  they  will   happen.
    Continue  to  persist  and  persevere.
                                                                                           Jon York   2019

Deep down
you  know   exactly   what
you  are  capable  of.  There
may even be moments where
you get an actual glimpse of
all  the  potential  you  have.
You just have to be willing to
sacrifice the habits, the things,
and   the situations that  are
standing in the way of your
success.
                                                        ­                            Jon York   2019

Love works if you work at it, but only
time itself will decide, so stand on your
head and get a different view of things
and see that something beautiful is
forever a joy.

My world has been full of love, laughter,
and full of tears, of well remembered
places and faces, of fleeting moments
of the hearts, unbridled joy of shared
silences, and lonely longings where the
deepest feelings are born, and live on
in memory.

I have known minutes of pleasure that
were worth millenniums of pain, but I
have always come away with more than
I gave, even when I was sure I' d given
a lot, but I do not try relentlessly  to
understand, knowing joy will come
when it is time and there is no good
or bad, malice or virtue, only time and
circumstance,

I have loved never asking if I should,
I have trusted not caring if I could or
couldn't and every time I closed the
door on reality, it came in through the
window, but what I do, I do with love
because there isn't any other way.
                                                  Jon York     2016

Inhale sky, exhale stars.
                                                                                             Jon York   2019

I carried stars
in my pockets
because I knew
she feared the dark
           and
whenever sadness
   paid her a visit,
  I'd paint galaxies
on the back of her hands
           and
   she stared at
        the stars
  like they were
       pillows for
        her mind
       and in their
  light she could rest
    her heavy head.
     And in the end
when  her  eyelids  found
    their infinite darkness
she will know that our bodies
    were tiny universes,
           and that I
loved her with a thousand
                 sea's.
                                                          ­                      Jon York   2019

You  are  what  you  do,   not
what  you  say  you'll  do. Don't
talk, act. Don't say, show. Don't
promise,  prove.

When things change inside  you,
things change around you. Your
direction is more important than
your speed.

If you start now, you'll begin seeing
results one day earlier than if you
start tomorrow.

Trust  the  timing of your life. There
is  no "RIGHT TIME",  there  is  just
time & what you choose to do with it.

Be a warrior, not a worrier, never
give up, because great things take
time and don't be afraid to fail,
be afraid not to try and remember,
if you want it, you must work
for it.

And remember where you started.
Sometimes you just have to create
your own sunshine.                                                        ­   Jon York  2021

I want to feel your breath
in a slow but speeding
up rhythm as I enter your
body, filling you with my
love.

I want to feel your skin and
the goosebumps on it as you
are reaching that peak of
pleasure and I feel the final  
movements of your your
body under mine which is
almost still.

I want to hold your hand as
you squeeze mine when you
are absolutely satisfied
because your body has told
you so.

I want to see you smile when
you, worn out from making
love to me are being carried
to the shower by me where...

the warmth will sooth us back
to life, warming me like sunlight
and soothing you like rain and
burning  us both with passion
and stealing away the pain.

                                                          ­                    Jon York   2018

When I awoke on the
morning of my 63rd
Birthday I found my
Sun had been here and gone,
like a thief in the night,
when all I was doing
was trying to get it right,
not thinking it would
turn into a fight.
  I thought I knew you
so well but because I was
in love with you, I did not
recognize what I saw in
you now as you walked
away knowing that you were
not coming back anytime soon.
  I can't play your games and
because of you I now realize
that I am much to strong
not to come alive. It has been
too long since I felt this way,
able to see myself in a brand
new way.
  I realize now that you were
holding me down, but I can
turn it around even though
I changed my life to be with you
only to be compromised by
your thoughtless lies.
    I thought you were my
"Angel in Disguise,"but you
turned out to be one big lie.
I thought that we had so much
but two years later you
won't even touch.
  I won't look back because
it is done but we had some
fun for such a brief time
that just dissappeared too fast,
a time I was sure would last.
  Tomorrow is another day,
the first without you
by my side in such a long time
,but I'll be ok, I'll just find
another part to play with
someone else who says
they care and who knows,
maybe our paths will cross
again someday and you can
laugh and say
"I knew him when and
I left him on his Birthday,"
such sweet sorrows,
but it brought me
a better tomorrow.                                         Jon York 2011

You can't skip chapters
you have to read every
line, meet every character
or you won't enjoy all
of it.

Hell,
some characters will
make you cry for weeks.
You will read things you
don't want to read, and
you will have moments
when you don't want to
the pages to end.

Stories like ours keep the
world revolving and we  
learn that the best things  
truly come when you have
the patience to endure.
                                                         ­          for  introduction
I am lost                                                    and I fell in love
in your pages                                           with the strength
and fumbling through                            of   your   spine.
the chapters of you.                                 I will turn them,
You                                                        ­     now, still,
came without                                            but promise me
prologue                                                    yo­u will never
and no need                                              end.
          ­                                                                 ­                   Jon York  2019