Jolene Perron

Jolene Perron Aug 2010

There's a turn in the road,
a fork in the straight.
My life's decisions,
lie in its wake.

A life unsure,
a life unplanned.
Could be remade,
or destroyed by some man.

The fork in this road,
decides my life.
The future ahead,
either love or strife.

One path or another,
a decision so tough.
Want to scream so loud,
I have had enough.

Why must I chose?
why is it hard?
When I tell you the words,
you only disregard.

What I say doesn't matter,
the decision is mine.
You don't seem to care,
you tell me you're fine.

A split in my path,
a fork in my road.
Should I follow my heart?
or stay with who I know?

I stand here silent,
as the rain begins to fall.
It hits hard in the concrete,
as I slowly lose it all.

I fall to the ground,
as the rain falls down.
I bow my head feeling the fall,
of my birthday crown.

It all fell apart,
right at the seams.
Why can't you do it?
Just for me?

Why can't this life,
work like it should?
Why all the pain?
why am I lost in the woods?

As I turn 16,
and I look back.
I see the life,
I have sorely lacked.

This life and curse,
what is it worth?
I can't stand much longer,
all of this hurt.

So I look up ahead,
at this fork in my road.
Should I leave this place?
Or keep to who I know?

Jolene Perron Jul 2010

Her and the Kids

it was a beautiful day
out on the street
the kids are laughing
in the scortching heat

the sun is shining
down on the concrete
the children run around
in bare feet

the dogs chasing them
in the sprinklers
baithing suits and shorts
his and hers

the day is young
the sun is bright
nothing is wrong
and everything is right

the world of kids
what can go wrong
this day will be over
before long...

Jolene Perron Jul 2010

Other Half Of Me

I really want to know,
the other half of me.
The side of which unknown,
who I'm meant to be.

The man you left before,
over 16 years ago.
The man that I wish,
to truely come to know.

There is a side of me,
I do not know.
It's dark and cloudy,
made 16 years ago.

Without this other man,
I will never come to know.
The other side of me,
that can not ever show.

My brown eyes and hair,
I know I got from you.
But my body and my nose,
look nothing like yours do.

Attributes about me,
some do not make sense.
Why is he not here?
who put up that fence?

I only wish to find out,
who brought me to the world.
The man who helped create,
this beautiful little girl.

I'm not so little now,
I'm about to turn 16.
Can you imagine how he'll feel?
how he's missed out on me?

Does he even know I'm here?
does he know that I exist?
If he did, I wonder,
if my smile he did miss.

I want to know the man,
who made half of me.
Who he was and is,
who I'm meant to be.

Jolene Perron Jul 2010

Don't You Remember?

Don't you remember the time,
when you used to hold me tight.
Don't you remember you said,
forever it'll be alright.

Don't you remember the words,
Babe, I love you.
Don't you remember this?
sweetie, I still do.

There was a time when,
I saw you most every day.
Everything was lovely,
perfect in every way.

We had our fights,
and agruments you see.
But nothing compared to that feeling,
when you were with me.

You gave me butteflies,
but now you give me tears.
Each time I think of you,
this became my worst fear.

I wish I had a do-over,
just one last chance.
I've grown up in the last month,
I believe we both have.

I believed in us,
and baby I still do.
I don't know why after all this time,
I still love you.

The storms that come and go,
I wish you were there.
By my side holding me,
I wish you still cared.

Don't you remember last year,
at this particular time.
We only wished to be together,
that you could be mine.

You waited for me for long,
and I wish I knew from the start.
Baby, I'm waiting for you,
because you still have my heart.

I don't know how long,
how much it'll take.
But I hope you realize I'm yours,
until the earth shakes.

Until the skies come down,
and engulf this world.
I'll be sitting here wishing,
I was your girl.

You have my heart,
this friendship I will cherish.
But it's your love, babe,
that I really truely miss.

If it takes forever,
hundreds and thousands of years.
I'll be sitting here,
waiting for you dear.

So don't you remember?
the words I love you.
I wish I could hear them again,
because I still do ...

Jolene Perron Jul 2010

It Was A Lie...</3

I feel as though,
it was a lie.
From the first hello,
to your final goodbye.

From that time you said,
you did love me.
And that moment in time,
we could not be.

After all the screaming,
all of the words.
Every drip of blood,
all of the hurt.

After all of this ****,
that you've put me through.
I can't believe baby,
I still love you.

But I feel as though,
it was never true.
Did you really love me?
Because I loved you.

With all of my heart,
and all that I had.
I gave you everything,
you never gave back.

I fought for what,
I believed was right.
But I was always alone,
at the end of the night.

I gave and gave,
but it was never enough.
My love rejected,
my life became tough.

I was fighting for someone,
who gave up too soon.
I shot for the stars,
he settled on the moon.

I wanted to go,
oh so much farther.
But he stayed put,
could not be bothered.

When I reached high,
he gave up.
I tried and tried,
but it was never enough.

Did it all really happen?
was it one big lie?
Why did you walk away?
and have to say goodbye?

Why did you give up?
on all that we had.
Why is it simple things,
that always make you mad?

Why did you give up?
why does it feel like a lie?
Why did you walk away?
why is it goodbye?

Jolene Perron Jul 2010

Here's The Knife, Take My Heart

You scream, I scream,
it's become a yelling match.
I tried to get over you,
but I am more attached.

You don't seem to get,
nor do you understand.
All I want from you,
is a caring man.

A friend to run to crying,
but he says I'm beautiful.
Holds me 'till I'm calm,
completlely lifts my world.

You want it all back,
your sweater, shirt and gift.
Well honey this ring,
I'm keeping till Earth shifts.

This ring is all I have,
hanging around my neck.
At one moment, don't you know,
what it truely meant?

"Forever Yours",
it was engraved.
But now I'm left alone,
completely betrayed.

When all I asked,
was for a friendship.
What I got in return,
was a complete heart-rip.

Here's the knife,
now dig it out of my chest.
Don't worry, sweetie,
I'll clean up the mess.

Nothing I'm not used to,
the sweat, blood and tears.
You became my worst nightmare,
carrying all of my fears.

The sweater, the shirt,
take it, it's yours to keep.
This ring and neclace however,
it's mine, over which, I weep.

It has memories,
of the man you used to be.
The one to dried my tears,
who really loved me.

But that man's gone,
and here, in his place.
Is a man I do not recognize,
with a fearfull face.

He carries my heart,
blood all on his hands.
Walking away from me,
leaving me alone again.

I'm cleaning up the mess,
but I'm drowning in my blood.
Save me, honey, please,
don't you see what I've become?

Jolene Perron Jul 2010

I Miss You </3

Maybe I'm a little scared,
to really open up.
Maybe I just feel as if,
I'll never be good enough.

Maybe, baby, I miss you,
and I really want you back.
Maybe you make it all right,
when everything's out of whack.

Maybe I'm scared to fall,
into a new love.
Maybe I just want you back,
to pick me up above.

My life is falling into shreds,
and I just need you here.
To hold me tight hug me close,
and whisper in my ear.

I don't think you understand,
the tears that I have cried.
The nights spent laying in bed,
wishing you were mine.

I'm crying, I'm lonely,
will you please help me?
Come here and hold me,
tell me you love me.

All those feelings,
they didn't just leave.
Where are they in you?
where could they be ...

I miss you,
I miss being by your side.
I just want you back,
I want you to be mine.