Would you like to learn to fly?
Or would it be better if I tried,

Just leap off the edge,
like theres no chance of death,
and live like its your last day,

Whats the point of living scared?
come on, take the dare,
live life like theres no risk,
just for a minute,
pretend you don't care,
dance in the rain,
and sing like no one can hear

You only live once,
live like you'll die tommorow,
you'll have a lot more fun.

Back to the place where it all began,
where the tears first ran,
down my cheeks,
in a stream,
of pure emotion,

                                    why
                               does
                             it
                     have
                  to
              be
        this
   way?
Does the world hate me?
Why
     can't  
           I
            go,
               one
                    day,
                          with a
                                     smile,
                                              on my face?
I'm so sick of this,
I just want to be okay.!

black.white.black.white.

what if there was no color?

Then, we'd all drown in,
                                        
                                                the blackness,

and fade into the white,
                                          
                                                mismatch,
                                    difference,
                 but all so elegant,

                                               Blood,
                                                         tears,
                                                                  and whiskey,
                    
                                         They are not your friends,
                                     but keep them close,
                                 for they are enemies

black.white.black.white.

and we're back at the beginning again.

I want,
      a pretty looking
                leaf to fall,
                    and float through
                the air,

                                      Without a single,
                                                     care,
                                            the float through the
                                    breezy air.
Oh,
     autumn air,
             come to me,
     how I love the breeze,
autumn air, please come to me,
Because,
       I miss,
                 The whymsical way,
                                the leaves fall,
                            from the trees,
                     and are finally free,
               to float in the breeze,

I'm scared,
because I'm in,
way over my head,

I'm scared,
and at this point,
I'd rather be dead,

I'm absolutely terrified,
of what they might discover
will they take me away?
Oh god, the fear, it smothers.

I know I should keep calm,
but thats not an option now,
I'm under too much pressure,
and pretty soon i'm gonna crack,

Tommorow is too close,
can we keep it away forever?

Why do they have to come now,
when I'd rather they come never

My heart was blackened,
by practice,
so don't ask me,
why I'm like this,
for it was all you're doing to me,

You're the reason for my situation,
and why my whole life,
has turned to hell,

Somebody grant me a wish,

Or cast a spell,

Because I'm gonna need magic,
to survive this tragedy,
known as my home,

It's also known as,
My Hell.

Where exactly they came from,
Nobody knows,

The rain cools the earth,
while the sun attempts,
to heat it up again,
what a complex system,

Well, in anycase,
I just wonder if,
the devil really beats his wife,
everytime this happens,
because thats not very nice,
and if I were the devils wife,

I'd leave,

Because, no love is worth,
being beat on,
by the very person,
whom is supposed to love you,

Yeah, if I was her,

I'd already be gone.

Catch me while I'm weak,
and rip me apart,
tear me to pieces,
don't let a shred remain,

**** me quick,
and let me die,
I'll finally come to peace,
with this dark cloud,
hanging over me,

Why do I always feel like this?
like someone
ripped my heart,
straight out of my chest,
and watched me bleed,
to death,

It's not a nice feeling,
to be broken,
It's like having wings,
just for the sake of falling,
there isn't a piece of me,
that hasn't broken,

Sometimes I'm happy,
but not very much anymore,
not since you knocked on my door,
now my heart is hollow,
and theres no repair,
and just when I need someone,

Theres nobody there,

My life always seemed,
to work out that way,
right when someone is needed,
theres no one to be found,

and I'm just now finding out,
that the only place I can hide,
is a hole in the ground,
someonewhere no one is found.

Does anyone have a heartache stopper?
if so then whip up some of the magical concoction,
and funnel it down my throat,

For I can't take the pain any longer,
I really thought that I was stronger,
but I don't think anyone can take this much heat,
without getting burned,
well now, i'm in pieces,
only ashes of my soul remain,
you ripped my heart apart,
and now here I lay,
completely broken,
looking for a new start,
because this old heart has finally been slain,

I have to pick up the pieces,
and start fresh once again,
only half the woman I could've been,
you stole a piece of me,
one that I can't replace,
you stole my pride and dignity,
from this my heartache came,

Theres a storm brewing in this purple heart,
and you don't want to be around when it starts,
for it will be a bitter battle,
only one of us will remain,
and the way things are looking,
you just may **** me today,

For I'm not strong enough to face you,
not after so little time has passed,
I'm still healing from the last time,
you carved my heart out of my chest,
and if you read these words,
and find your heart feeling hollow,
you may finally realize,
all the heartbreaking things you do,
but I don't think its possible,
knowing you.

It's three o'clock in the afternoon,
theres absolutely nothing to do,
oh god, how I wish I was with you,

There's nothing I'd rather do,
than spent a day, with you,  
just laying in bed with music playing,
talking and laughing and kissing and holding,
believe me when I tell you,
theres nothing I'd rather be doing,
than cuddling with you,

Its a dream that will soon come true,
for December's icy chill will bring you to me,
and we'll be happy for a while,
that is,
until you have to leave again,
then i'll be a wreck,
because I'd rather keep you forever,
but I'll know not to fret,
because we'll soon be together again,

It's 3 in the afternoon,
and I'd do anything, just to be with you

Is it right or wrong to to speak your mind,
because I'm a bit confused,
it seems everytime I open my mouth I loose,  
I say what I feel and get put down, I think i'm loosing my mind,

Put me down again,
you have no idea how good it feels,  
to have your still beating heart,
ripped straight out of your chest,  
and brutally ripped apart,
right in front of your dying eyes,  
oh love you have to try it,  
dying is the latest fashion,
so please, do your best to hurt me,  
this pain has never felt so right,

Do you sense the sarcasm,
is it ringing through your ears?
if not you should probably get checked out,
because you're going deaf, i fear,
Next you're going to tell me,
you actually thought I enjoyed,  
being emotional ripped apart,
well, if that was what you thought,  

you're a ******* idiot.

Yes, a ******* idiot plain as day,  
were you not aware of this,
did you not realize you belong in,
a ******* mental instutution,?
Well thats okay,
I'll sit back and sip coffee,  
and waste the day away,
while I watch, your mutilated head decay,
I'll go to jail for killing you,
but I'll rest easy knowing,  
you're not on this earth anymore,
no one else with have to suffer,

Because your voice makes the ears bleed,  
its a truly deafening sound,
now I know, no one can be happy,  
atleast not with you around,
so I killed your *******,  
because I wanted to be happy,
for once.

I cracked the glass,
one too many times,
the mirror shattered,
along with my heart,

mirrors, its true,
they dont lie,
but the person,
can only see,
what they want to believe,

That has given you something to think about,
hasn't it?

Your knife, my back,
It doesnt get any better after that,
My blood, it splatters the walls,
My screams, travel down the halls,
And now you have to drag my body,
down to the river,
Where you can hide your deathly sin,

its okay,
you didnt mean to hurt me, i know, you only wanted to make me bleed
but now I'm dead, *******,
and now I'll haunt you,
until the guilt kills your stupid ***,
and then you'll know,
what it feels like,
to be stabbed,
straight in the back,
with a cold blade,
feels great, huh love

now you're dead,
oh what a mistake I've made,
now we fight even after the grave,
in the place we've called home,
hell, we are in hell,
because of your stupid ***,
now i'll brand you with this coal I found
for you shall pay for the blade that was plunged into my back,
without even a second glance after the deed was done.

Am I speaking clearly?
Or just speaking circles around you
In which are twisting around you,
So tight they cut the skin,
Is this conversation hurting you,
Suffocating you so badly your tounge is getting dry?

And how are the wounds healing from last time we met?
Your wrists look much better, not so worn and dead,
So honey tell me, are you feeling better yet?

Or are my words slicing at your eyes like knives,
Are you lying when you say your fine?
Are my statements eating away at your head,
hollowing out your cheeks so you look half-past dead,
Is it I whom is ******* your life away with every day that passes by?

Will you ever get better?; I hate seeing you this way,
You look as if you might fall over and die, I'll say,
Your lips, they're turning blue, is it me making you this way?

Baby please get better, I'll be so alone if you're dead,
I promise,
I'll never hurt you again,
We'll have a fairytale life,
Baby, I can't wait to call you my wife,
I want you to be mine forever, I'll never let you leave, *ever

There is a touch of gray,
In every silver lining,
So if I say I'm fine,
Theres quite a chance I'm lying,
And on the inside,
I'm dying,

There is a touch of gray,
In every silver lining,
So if I say its all sunny and smiles,
There may be a storm brewing in my eyes,
I may feel like ****,
But it can all be covered with a smile,

There is a touch of gray,
In every silver lining,
So even if I'm smiling,
And my eyes are shining bright,
That doesn't always mean I'm not close to crying,
Look behind the smile,
And see the bit of gray,
I'm always hiding.

Lets go to a magical place,
outside of time and space,

A place where we close our mouths to speak,
and shut our eyes to see,
a place full of magic and mystery,

Such a place doesn't exist you see,
it's all a dream,
completely fictional,
yet look at the beautiful imagery,

Our minds gave us the power to,
think,
but this theory is wrong you see,
because sometimes,
even people with eyes,
can't see,
and people with mouths,
choose not to speak,

It all depends on what you believe.

It's 2:30 AM,
and I'm sitting at this **** table again,

Searching for a reason,
reason for the changing of the seasons,
along with the changing of the wind,
it blows in every direction,
searching for the time of day,

But who really cares anyway?

We're just wasting away with every passing phase,
Ticking away at the moments of the ever so dull day,

Someone, please, take me away!

Shattered mirrors and the illusions they create,
I am no longer sure of who is staring back at me,
maybe its a phase, it'll pass with the wind,
maybe its my demons, fighting me again,
I am no longer sure of who I am,
not sure of my decisions, and whats right, from whats wrong,
I sort of wonder why people think I'm so strong,
for I'm falling to pieces,
and I've hit the floor,
Really don't know who I am anymore,

Shattered windows, broken dreams,
seemed to be all that was left of me,
and as I walk around this splintered wood,
I start to think of all that should be,
but never got to be,

As I walk through this broken home,
I think of all the pain,
I have come to know,
and I look up at the moon,
how brightly it glows,
and what does this come to show?

Dawn breaks in this sad place,
and a bit of hope floods,
this broken home,
rids it of all the pain it has come to know,
and what does all this come to show?

Happiness is reachable,
and depression is beatable,
as long as you follow through

Thinking is a beast,
I've yet to overcome,

It rips your mind apart,
and tries ever so hard to decipher your life,
through the juices,
it is a monster,
a true beast,
and it is trying to,
control me,

Overthinking,
is worse yet,
sometimes making me feel,
like there is an icepick,
going through my chest,
making me more miserable,
every passing second,
its true agony,

This beast slays me,
everyday, all day,
i'm sure it will be with me,
for the rest of my life,
someone shut my mind off,
I don't want to think at all,

No, I don't want to think at all.

I'd rather be in the way than out of the picture,

So go on, tell me I'm in the way,
That doesn't mean I'll move,

I fly with the wind, where ever it wants to take me, I go,

So if I ever just pop up somewhere,
Don't ask me what I'm doing there,
Because not even I know,
Life is a wild ride,
So hold on tight and prepare yourself,
Because life is all about the unknown,

Lets go back,
To a simpler time,

Wouldn't it be awesome If we could all hit rewind?

Go back to when,
There were no tears to cry,
No one asking why,
Lets go back,
To a simpler time,

Change all the reasons,
That made you want to leave to begin with.

I couldn't take it anymore,

So here I lay,

**Dead..

and they wonder why I'm crazy,
someone just ******* **** me,
I'd be better off dead anyway,

another fight,
more words to hit me like knives,
carving away the rest of my pride,
tell me I'm not worth it,
ask me why i'm like this,
please, do it again,

you should know i'm like this because of you,
ever single little thing you do,
pushes me further toward the edge,
and the moment I fall,
will be the death of us both,
just so you know,
a few more insults to go,
I belong in a ******* jacket,
because of what you've made me become,

and oh whats that you say,
anyone who cuts is insane?
well *****, you made me this way,
dealing with your ****,
finally did it,
it drove me crazy,
call me insane, go on,
all you're doing is wasting your breath,
but go on, keep talking,
maybe you'll waste it all,
and finally drop dead.

Waking up,
                    I realize I was only dreaming,
                                                       ­                Thank god
For, that was a horrible dream,
No, correction,
A horrible nightmare,

I was there, and you were there,
Then,
                           SNAP
You're gone,
                           BOOM
I'm dead,
                           it all fades black
The end.

Someone once said to me,
Pain isn't always palpable
And now, I finally see,
Sometimes, you have to dig deep,

Like on the bitter nights,
When I can't sleep,
All the haunting thoughts are keeping me awake,
And I can't seem to get comfortable,
Between the sheets,
They seem to suffocate me,

On those nights,
I'll sit and dig out my inner psyche,
Looking for,
The thing that pains me,
That night,

And when I find it,
I'll **** the *****,
With positive thinking,
So I can finally get to sleep,
For once.

Black and green nail polish,
And this pentagram ring,
These things,
They seem to complete me,

So here I sit, blank computer screen mocking me,
Listening to music,
Letting the lyrics submerge me,
In a world where pain, is just make believe,
Oh wouldn't that be lovely?
If everything was happy,
There'd be no war,
Sadness would be a memory,
My dear that would be bliss,

But this world I speak of here and now,
That my dear, is only make believe.

Trying to be optimistic,
Its getting me nowhere,
I'm a dark poet,
Always have been,

So now,
I'll let the creativity flow,
And shoot bullets from,
This pen,

Because I can't remember the good times,
That was way back when,
Oh how I'd love to go back.

I feel so bad,
Whenever I get you involved,
In this hell I live in, i hate making you suffer,

But I have to say,
I like that you listen,
When i pour my heart out, looking for something to love again,
You're always there,
When my vision shades gray,
And its like Im all alone,
Your always right there,
Telling me about a better day,
Love is great, when  you get love from someone like you

I can finally talk to someone,
Who wont judge me, and turn me away when theres nothing interesting to say,
You stick by me,
And I wouldnt want it anyother ******* way,

I've said it before, and I'll say it again,
You really are my bestfriend, and you always have been,
Thats what makes us click,
A simple connection,
And the ability to show emotion.

Kiss me until I pass the **** out,
Love me until I'm sore,
Because my darling, even then,
I'm sure I'd beg for more,

See you are the sweetest guy I have ever ******* met,
And I'm never going to forget, the way we met, and connected instantly,
My dear, I'm just so glad you love me,
What would I do without you, would I even survive,

So heres another tribute to you, my love,
Never forget, you're truly a blessing, sent from above,
See, now you know you've got me head over heels,
Because I don't even ******* believe in christianity,

But ***, I'd change religions,
Because whenever I get to see you, its just ******* heaven.

Music blares,
My eyes stare,
Watching the water,
Wanting to be there,
Wanting to be there, instead of here, listening to you *****
When no one really gives a ****,
You're nothing but a selfabsorbed *****,
That makes her daughter feel worse with everyother word,
Kim, shut up, leave me alone, I'd be better off ******* alone,
You think your helping, your really not,
So go give your "words of wisdom" to someone else,
Because you're the only reason I feel like this

What if the world wasn't a cold ball of hate?
Well, I can say for sure, that would be ******* great,
But what do we ever do to deserve this amazing fate,
We have to make it happen, we have to deserve the bliss,
And my dear, you ask, how on earth do we do this?
Well, for starters, stop the hate, appreciate the small things,
Because my dear, incase you didn't hear, we've got a lot to appreciate,
What if the sky wasn't blue, and the sun didn't shine,
What if songs had no rhythm, and poems didn't rhyme?
What if we were all forced to face the fact, that god doesn't exsist,
Most people do believe, but believe me you,
We are given the choice, to believe,
And some people take this to the extreme,
Leaving pamplets on doorsteps about how to convert,
To make thyself holy, so no longer will their soul hurt,
My friends, this is all a lie,
And while you may call blasphemy,
You can't tell me it isn't true.

Heads spinning,
Lights dimming,
Reality is hazy,
Am I going crazy?
Nope just a bad trip,
Down a long road,
Less traveled than most,
And almost completely unknown,
This is a feeling,
I don't like experiencing,
Somebody, Stop the ******* room from spinning,
Eyes open,
Mind lingering,
To thoughts I never knew exsisted,
Like i said, just a bad trip.

You tell me you love me,
And believe me when I tell you love,
I really do, love you too,

You're my whole world,
They swear I'm too young to fall in love,
But I'm head over heels, fell fast and hard,
But its okay, because you were right there to catch me,
And never let me hit the ground,

I drive myself crazy thinking about you,
Because you're just breath taking,
Thinking of you every minute of the day,
And I'm pretty sure if I didn't have you,
I'd just go ******* crazy,

You changed me,
Now I actually care about things I swore I never would,
Stopped all the bad habits I picked up trying to cope with my tragic life,
Now, all I need to feel better, is you,
And I wouldn't want it anyother way,
Because baby, you're my reason to breathe,

I swear you changed me,
The blades I hid away are all gone,
Thrown away,
Because with you, I don't need the pain to be okay,
All I need is you, because no matter what anyone says,
I do, I really do,
I just love you, and only you.

I can't control this love, its just too strong,
And its not something I'm willing to let go,

Don't you hate it when tear drops stain the pages,
Of all the things you've written,
Trying to forget all the rage,

Just letting the tears fall when theres nothing left to loose,
When all you can think about is your mothers obsession with *****,
Or maybe anyother problem you have been forced to face,

Why not wake up to another hell of a day,
When you never actually got to sleep anyway,
Why not cry yourself to sleep at night,
When you'll wake up to this torture every ******* day,

Theres just no point in living this life,
Because its only filled with sorrow, and strife,
So I confide all my problems, in this blade,
The pain lets me live on for just another day, before I repeat and bleed again,

Its not a process I'm proud of,
But I'm facing the fact that I have a problem, and I need help..
Now do you see? why I need therapy.