Would it make you feel better to watch me as I bleed,
Take it all in and watch as I fall to the ground,
My torn and broken remains, never to be found,
And you'd enjoy every minute, watching me crumble and fall,

You watch with no effort as to who you are, like nothing to the world,
And I'm sorry if you find it uncomfotring to read this when you're down,
I'm sorry I made that smile, turn upside down,

You know,
That smile,
That one you tried so hard to fake,
To not let everyone see how badly you're breaking,
That smile,
The one that covers all the tears that ever fell,
In moments of sorrow, or strife,
That smile,
That kept everyone quiet as to your condition,

Well no not anymore,
Now everyone is in full out uproar,
All because of the one little thing you said,
And it tore me down, it really did, when you said the words you said,
They really were awakening,
Opened my eyes to what i usually couldnt see,
Awakened me to the situation in midplay, the one right infront of my everseeing eyes,
These eyes, they see no lies,
Look past everything that ever seemed to not be right,

So go on dear, look at me and tell me theres nothing to fear,
That I will be happy here,
Tell me nothing can ever do me wrong,
Go on and lie to me again,
Like you think I can't  see you're lying.

Sun shines through the trees, even on my darkest days
You know, those days were nothing seems right,
Those days where you know you're going to cry yourself to sleep that night,
Few moments past when you don't feel like you're nothing to the world.

Even on these dark, thought filled days,
The sun still shines, interferring with my trace of thought,
There is a slight chance, this poem doesnt rhyme,
because I can't exactly think with the sun in my eyes,
And a fly buzzing around in my face,

So if the flow of this is ****** up,
And there are more grammatical errors than normal,
Just ignore, because today, just isn't one of my better days.

Oh what a wild ******* night,
Danced until it all felt right,
Let go of our troubles, for just a little while,
To have a bit of fun, to act like a child,

Yeah, we danced, danced until our feet hurt,
And our voices run dry,
Danced until we forgot about that usually pain stained smile,

You know, that mask we always used to wear,
and say everything was fine,
Well baby, tonight, it was real,
For one time in my life,

That pain stained smile wasn't haunting my mind,
We were just dancing, and having a good time,
So again, I say, what a wild ******* night,
Why can't we all act like this, all the time,
That would be the ******* life.

Where,
Please, show me the way out,
I don't see any shining lights,
Ofcourse,
I can't see much right now,
With the tears clouding my eyes,
You told me I have to find it,
I have to look for it on my own time,
And I will,
I'll do it,
Just like I found the ability to make these words rhyme,
I'll find a way out,
A way out of this brutal, heartbreaking life.

Bracelets decorate my arms,
Only because I'd rather you see them, than the scars,
The decorations that tell the story of my past,
Not just a decoration,
But a forever adornment,
They'll never leave me, never let me have any peace,

Why am I openly expressing these feeling now, you ask,
I'm searching for this unreachable thing called forgiveness,
Because the memories will never let me be,
The guilt, it still walks with me, trudging, ever so slowly,
I can't forgive myself for something like this, I hurt you,
Something I promised my self I'd never do,
And I promise myself now,
That never again, will I hurt you by hurting myself,

It's just not worth it you see,
Not worth loosing you,
You're the single best thing that has ever happened to me,
And I'm not throwing all of it away,
For even a little bit of a temporary sensation of mind numbing pain.

Take a look in the mirror,
Is this problem getting any clearer?
You're a shell of a woman,
Completely hollow,

Scars they decorate your arms,
And that bracelet with 3 little charms,
That one your daddy gave you for christmas,
Right before he left us,
He left for the country, wanted to get away from the high life,
Go back to where things were simple,

That bracelet,
Its your only connection to him
And you never take it off,
You say you never will,
And there are parts of me that believe you,

The three little charms,
Ballet slippers, for when you took tap,
Saxophone, for the side of you that loved jazz,
And a heart, to let you know he loved you from the start,
He'll love you until the end, even if you never see him again.

Daddy isn't doing so great,
Lost nearly half his weight,
And as he lay on his death bed,
All he wants to do,
Is see his little girl again,

He takes his last breath, screaming your name,
Now all you want to do is go back in time, and warn him,
Warn him of what is to come, tell him to stay with you until his final day,

And ofcourse, he wouldn't listen,
But atleast you would have been able to try,
Try and save your dads life.

On a cool spring day,
I feel the tears stream down my face,
Still wondering why I scream,
And waste my breath,

You'll never listen, and even when you do,
The next day you don't remember a thing I've said,
So theres simply no point in wasting,
The little air I've got left,

Now, the day the oxygen ceases to flow to your head,
Thats the day I'll be happy again,
Things will be okay once you're dead,
And as harsh as it may be to hear these words coming off of my tongue with such ease,
You're slowly driving me closer to insanity.

I'll admit,*
      That I am,
Just a fool
        *for you..

She's been beaten,
She's been bruised,
Physically and verbally abused,
She felt like nothing,
Every little problem was dealt with,
With a few little cuts,
But her ways have changed,
She no longer resorts to pain,
She no longer has hiding places,
For razorblades.

Sometimes, the girl with the biggest smile,
Has the most pain to hide,
That girl that always says shes fine,
Is holding all the tears inside,
The girl that always seems so happy,
She solves her problems, by drawing lines,
So, next time she says shes fine,
You'll know its a lie,
Because she may look happy on the outside,
But on the inside, she's dying.

hey,
yeah hey you,
your heart may be hurting,
but no need to feel blue,
don't believe he left you,
because he was never truly with you,
he had her,
you wernt his true focus,
only a side fling,
what does that mean to you,
he may have said things
you'll never forget,
but he was lying,
only trying to make you,
believe in nothing,
you may have loved him,
but baby,
it takes two to tango,
and your dance partner quit on you.