Everything is oh
Well, whatever
Every time I go
I can't sever
The blasé nonchalance
Embedded in my head
I was given a chance
But I'd rather lay in bed

You see I'm not lonely
And I don't get people
I'm always the only
One to see through the sheeple
I don't see the point in
Going through the motions and
Acting like the world isn't caving
And my heart isn't shrinking
With every single breath
And with every person's death
I just can't seem to
Care

But
The truth in the rut
Is
What it is
And
What it is
Is
All I want
Is to be cured
All I want
Is to give a ****
All I want is to care
All I want is to care

All I want is to care

I wanna know
So before you go
As the lights fade
Before the love we've made
Would you spare
Me the scare?

And now the clouds are high
You tell me that you know why
I've never gotten around to come around
Why my vice has always been the sound
Of your lips parting

Oh sweet girl don't you see
That Heaven awaits you upon leave
You've got nothing to worry
Nothing to be a little bit sorry
About but you still talk to me
Like what we have is something

You're the weight behind the breeze
And when it shines, you are the sun beams
You're smile can change the mood
Of a room full of crude fools
And I am just one

When my eyes first rested
On you I was sure  I was being tested
By the forces that surround me
By all the powers that will eventually be
But then you opened your mouth
And you told me all about how
You've been (and asked me the same)

She told me
To come over
And on her
Never saw her
Like that before
Changed before my
Eyes sinking high
Looking for the sky
All I saw
Was darkness fading
In and out
As I went
Forth and back
Near had a
******* heart attack
When the door
Opened a little more
But it was
Only her dog

With my ear to the ground
It's time to soak in the sound
Of your voice from the top of that hill
You've never sounded more shrill
But things are constantly shifting
And nothing ever stays the same for long

So just hear me out now
Soak in my sounds
Try to block out the rest
You're being put to the test
Never felt so blessed

I had a dream about you
On a night that I thought would never end
I walked over to talk to you
Don't take it the wrong way if I just wanna be friends
After all that's happened over the years
I can't take anymore tears

I know you like to do your own thing
And I need my independence
It just never seems we are ready at the same time
Never heard of interdependence
The classic way of doing things
Was never for me and clearly isn't for you
So lets just be true and cool
But were both fools

Two

Times again
Again and again
Spinning three sixty
Three sixty and drop

Two

People holding
Hands in the rain
Drops drip and drop
Again on clenched fingers

Two

Cars rolling
Through red
Lights and bam
Crash and burn

Two

Funerals too
Black and bare to
Bear so you crawl up
In a ball and **** your thumb

Two

More times
Before I'm done and
Sit down for
Peace & quiet

Throw out the abstract
What's the use in that act?
Go to the lake, sit on rocks
Saw you at the cinema, what a shock
Never, ever come around again
Much rather have my own friends

Sit on, sit on these black rocks with me
Tripping, stumbling over my own feet - but
When we're together we got that twenty-twenty
20/20 - you're so funny when you try to talk the walk

Crafting something out of thin mist
At the start never can tell what it is
So don't ask, don't you say a word now
Break my concentration, throw it up in the air now
Just follow my feet, get on my boat with me
We'll float the still waters below white clouds

Entitlement
I
The side effect
Me
Down fall
My
Of us all

I
Can never tell
My
Personal hell
Me
And you in this room
I
Think it might as well be our tomb

I'm
Stuck in this cycle
My
Heart beats out of my chest
Me
And my and I never know what's best
I
Can't tell you the truth
My
Mind doesn't know the difference

Please
Read no further if you don't like
Who I am
And who I am
Is constantly
Changing
I shift with the tide on the blackest nights
I move with the waters
Sway like the branches
Blow like the wind
And I never know
Never ever
If I'm coming or
Leaving

So hear me now
And listen close
Put on your spectacles
If you need to
But what I'm saying here
Is change
Change
Shift
Transformation
It's been said a million times before
And it'll be said a million times after this
But when are we going to change?
Not just me
and not just you
And not just your family
and your neighbors and
your teachers
and cousins and
grandparents
I mean us
As a whole
As a complete and full circle
When are we going to break the cycle
Of what we think works
And realize it just
Isn't
And implement a new process
A new line of thought
An "experimental" approach, say?
Now people don't like that word
Because people are scared of change
And they don't believe in taking chances or risks or putting their own ***** on the line but come on!
When are we going to realize that living the same old way
In the same old house
Thinking the same old thoughts
With the same old brains
Is getting us nowhere?

In the early mornings
When the Sun comes through the blinds
You'd think that I'd be yearning
For my stress to unwind
But you'd be wrong, wrong, wrong
I'm doing just fine, yeah
And because of that I wrote this song

It's hard to remember what the Sun feels like
When it's cloudy and the wind burns your skin
But you've got to take a picture with your mind
You can never appreciate loss when you win all the time
So soak it it, soak in everything with all you've got
Let the though and emotion and words come to you
I don't get why everyone wants to be a robot
These days

Sit down, take off your shoes
Breathe in, you've got nothing to lose
It's in your head, you're in my bed
"I love you so much" is what I said
Breathe in

Take everything in your life
And change into everything
Everything you thought you were missing
Just listen

Nothing is all that hard
Once you get around to doing it
Those doubts in your head are transparent
Your job is to stop them from blaring

When you're on the outs
Reexamine what you give and what you're given
It's usually just about the same amount
So the next time your pout, think about that

Putting your ear to the ground
And breathing in and just waiting
Is no waste of time, it's time well spent
Everyone is capable of seeing around the bend

I will rob you of your vitality
I am not your spirit tutelary
Crush your bones and eat your heart
You were wrong from the start
Should've heard your mothers words
Shouldn't have fell in with the rest of the herd

I'm talking to you
The one who thought he won
Let these words stick like glue
You were just in it for the fun
it's time to open your ******* eyes

People have died yeah they're already gone
But you you're still here breathing next to me
What? What the **** makes you better? What the **** are you on?
Just step your ego to the side and just give yourself a chance to see
So many people claim to be open and accepting
But at the end of the road their brains are nothing but alocked doors

There lies a stillness inside each of us
And you can reach the valley if you just **** the fuss
Nothing is accomplished through force and just stays
For the rage that feeds on this,  
upon the highest perch lays
So clench your fists tightly and open them up again
Slowly you'll learn that your voice hasn't been sent - yet

In this day and age
It's 2014
That's fourteen years
Past 2000
Yes
Count them
F o u r t e e n
Years into the twenty first century
The century of space
According to film and literature
The century of progress
And the century of new ideas

Keeping this in mind
It's a wonder that everyone
And everything, by association
Seems to still be hypnotized
In my country at least
I love where I live
And I believe it's one of the greatest places
To grow and to learn and to teach
But I think more people ought to start thinking
And thinking about old ideas
And the concept of materialism
And the ideas of progress and prosperity

Hate only creates more hate
No?
Just look at any hate filled person
To ever exist
They hated
And then people hated them
For, in turn, hating them in the first place
It's a never ending cycle
Of persecution
And devastation
And extermination

On the other hand
We have love
Love plus love
Equal?
More love
That's right
And the only thing
The only power
In this world
That we all have in equal measure
Is the propensity
To love
And with love comes progress
And with love and progress
Comes
More love and progress
And things we can't even imagine

Because the whole world seems to be
Hypnotized
By this age old idea of hating
And limiting their own beliefs
To the point of catatonia
And never ending
Nonstop
Progress-halting
Dead ends

So I'm just saying
And that's all I'm really doing
Writing this right now
For nothing more than to perhaps get someone to read it
And say
Hey
Maybe this is the truth
Maybe this is he way
Maybe if I do something good
I'll start to feel a little better?
Maybe
If I try to do the best I can
Every day
Breaking free of whatever gains may lay in wait for me
And just embracing the power of whatever it is that guides us
That keeps us spinning on that mysteries axis
Floating through space at blinding speeds
Will help us out in the end
Because
In the end
At the last breath
And the last drop
And the last time we close our eyes
All we'll have
Is love

If that's what we choose

If you want to live
Then you have to die
And if you want to smile
Then you have to cry
Just listen to the ground
And kiss the roots of trees
For your head used to pound
Until you allowed yourself to see

The way you talk to me reminds me
It brings to the front of my mind how
I used to be when everybody and everything
Were doused in that acid washed black and white
You really make those feelings wash ashore
In a part if me I never knew was there
Like the colors no one can see

So don't stop no don't stop tonight
There'd be no reason to put up a fight
But I'm going to I'm going to try
Because I love it when you pretend to cry
I hate to see you cry, because I'm always the one to die

Selfish thoughts are the fuel of the lonely mariner
Sailing seas blinded by the light of the carrier
That holds his child clutched tightly in arm
And the memories of childhood on grandpa's farm
Oh how the flashes get clearer and eyes get tired
The seas get chaotic the more you become hard wired
So step away, take a long and hard look
Look away and know that everyone is born a crook

Electricity
All through me
I can see
How this will end
Rules were made to bend
And messages made to send

In the aviary you can see for miles
Miles and miles, how I love that smile
The sweetest thing is you by my side
And the last thing I want is for us to slide
In the heavy snow and the cold rain
But just as pleasure goes then comes the pain

Can't do nothing about it, babe
It's as necessary as a summer shave
The path is never smooth, but we try (we try)
No matter what, no one is able to hide (can't hide)
I wish I held the key and I think I'm close (I'm close)
You and I, I think we're the most (the most)

You and I, I know we're the most

these walls i once abhorred
i was lookin' for some more
i didn't have the cure
i was sure she was a *****
only knew how to lure
she never held my cure
my cure, my cure

but cured
i'm cured
i'm sure
i'm cured
so sure, so sure

everything is dark blue now
saw this big tree, didn't know how
it grew, it grew right out the green ground
roots through the blades, i heard a strange sound
knew i was on my way, on my way to be found
and then it really happened, it pounded, it pounced
on me, on me (it jumped through me)

like a sorry holy ghost
looking for the right host
trying not to be a big boast
but when you've come to a roast
you can't help but hope for the ****** most
after all, you came here and you chose
you chose the biggest hose
everyone wants the best, i suppose

in the war
they teach you
in the war
they beat you
in Afghanistan
they strip you
mold you
glue you
back

a new man
a true man
a great man
a dead man

i never understood people
who preferred tapping on keys
to gripping a beautiful pen
and scratching thoughts on
paper

tapping, tapping, tapping away
all day
has it's advantages
but in the end
it feels so
hollow
so

empty

but still
here i am
tapping
tapping
tapping
tapping
away
staring at my pen
glaring at my paper
tapping
away

Drowned in self pity
Negativity
Eats you up like breakfast
Tears away fragile tissue
Smears your head in thick mud
Dirt in your lungs
Spits on your dreams
Kicks at your wishes

But he's weak
He comes
He goes

No more

And when you find the strength
Peak your head over the high mountain
Down into the green, green valley
The valley, not of death, but the opposite
Be sure to remember his face
Never forget the horrors of old
For they are what keep you from that place
Another visit, another level of Hell
It's never necessary lest you're careless
If you forget that grudges aren't you
And they only **** truth
And that sharp words make no one
Except the speaker... bleed
This - this thing -
Unnameable but unmistakable
Unseeable and unkillable
It diesnt deserve your sugary disposition
Or you're homely offer of kindness
Just show it what you're made of
Smile a smile to cause blindness

on a long enough timeline
everybody wins
and everybody dies
everybody sins
and everybody lies

so now I'm just sitting
trying to graph out where I've been
to figure out when I'll be winning
this game that everybody loses
my hopes have been ground to dirt
and my love stomped and spit on
what I thought was there never really was
and so I'm left with an empty hug

it's cold now so I'm shivering
september's always been lonely for me
the coming cold keeps on hindering
the joy inside and dangling from a cliff
never dug myself out if so many holes
but this january proves september is nothing
taking me from shivering cold to smoldering human coal
but now that I've tasted the bottom
swirled the grass and dirt all in my mouth
i can say that I've seen the cold and felt the wind
I've stayed for a while at the coldest place I've ever been

Never believed
But now
I'm on my knees
And how
Did I get here
Without
Even noticing
Where am I going now?
I have no idea

Honestly
I'm ready
To drop out
And clearly shout
I'm through
I'm done
It's true
But I'm someone's son

Called out sick two days in a row/
Manager's a **** he don't even know/
Oh when it's all said and done, done, done/
All that matters is that we had some fun/
So just hear me out, take my hand, please/
Forget my wallet, never remember my keys/
None of that today, no we don't need it/

Outside the Sun hides behind comfortable tufts of white/
On the ground sits stacks and piles of fallen vanilla/
Days are wasted when you don't think twice/
But it don't matter when you've got someone to make you feel so right/

On the edge of post modern discomfort/
The sky looks twisted when you feel like ****/
Trying to speak but all that comes are little words/
Blue inside but the outs are burned, turned red/
Beaten down by the gentle pecks of the birds/
All I ask is for a little but of overhead/
Let me just stay here in my bed/

I just want another go
I just want to let go
I just want to see
I just want to be

Things seem so cheap
Things make it so I can't sleep
Things never seem to look up
Things always make life ****

I told you why
I told you I'd fly
I told you it'd end
I told you I wouldn't bend

But it's all good
But I'm alright
Because in this neighborhood
Everyone loses sight

You say you hate it
And you hate all of that
But what you feel isn't black
Only love is all red and that
Is what makes it vibrate
Along the shore, through the water
Everything draped in red and black
Because black and white couldn't cut it

Things seem so sickly so sound
At the same time, what an anomaly
Opposites truly do, they seem to attract
It's simple science, it's basic math
Just look up and down is right below
Like your heart as it sits beneath your pillow
Look me in the face and tell me it's true
Look in my eyes like you used to

Everybody's like oh hey it's John
When you gonna turn your light on?
Do you have a cloud to lay on?
Where's that feather pillow you punch on?
Do you know what path you've turned on?
Oh get over it come on, come on

When the sky turns purple turns red
Nothin seems right up in my head
Fly away, leave, go, but I've already fled
What was it that day you said?
About those balloons that were made of lead?
I can't think no more in my bed

Oh well, oh well, can't do nothing bout it
Wanna climb to the roof and shout it
This door has closed ain't no doubt about it
What a pretty girl if I've ever seen it
The way she talks, my inside she burns it
Owner of my heart, never thought I'd say it

When everyone feels
Entitled
To
Everything
In the end
Nobody
Gets
Anything

Wake up
Take a deep breath
And tell yourself
What you're worth
Is just the same
As the person
Next to you

At the end of the day
Everyone
Is the third wheel
No one
Deserves
The world
While people
Look on
With nothing
In their mouths
But their own
Withering
Tongue

Oh, Anxiety
You **** me
Over and over
With no warning
You show up
With open arms
I've got no luck
I see you every day
Wouldn't mind at all
To simply walk and talk
Without misstep or fall
And forgetting all about you

Anxiety, Anxiety
Where from do you come?
Why can't we
Ever seem a little smarter than dumb?
Killing my core and my head
Dropping my body as it turns to lead

Oh, leave it be
Let it go, carry on
You can see, you can see
Capable of some love and fun
Things are never all right
But they're always fine
You're never completely tight
But you always pace the line

You know what I know
And I believe it to be
What you make it show
Makes it all seem so free
Everything is dandy, dandy

Comical in your use
Of overcomplication
Phases and phrases
I never get all the information
You open your mouth to speak
And close it just like that
Never ceases to make knees weak
You can make the mountains flat
With your vibration
What a sensation

Nobody ever knows
What's coming til it slaps them in the face
Nobody ever cares
About your worries til they're sitting in your lap
Nobody ever realizes
What you're thinking until it's vibrating through
Their head

Take your life
Turn it upside down
You've gotta fight
Flip the switch on that frown
I know it's rough
But it's just your perspective
I know you're tough
Someday you love gotta learn to live

When Everything's black & white
Nothing makes sense
Get the **** out and burn yourself with light
It doesn't even matter
As long as you're outta that self imposed ditch

The Hills went driving
All over the highway
Didn't care much for timing
Up and down cracked roads
The lights overhead shined bright
She wanted to know (confusion)
He already did (premonition)
And so they kept on going
The tires, they kept rolling
The bright lights kept glowing

He loved her so much
Never would hurt her
Was fueled by her touch
But then they touched her
Swept away and they never saw it coming

She noticed first that they were levitating
A consciousness forever confiscating
They both felt the presence of the stars
Locked away in their messy little car
Before they knew it, they were in it
And before they could do it, they already did it
Changed forever and all I got was this stupid illness
Heading to the doctor to find out what the **** this sickness is
And it's all always the same old story
So I'll just end here for fear of being boring
But it's true
The Hills are anew

I was walking
On a normal day
The Sun was out
People were smiling
I was feeling good
Then I looked down
And the very ground began to shake

I crouched down low
My eyes darting left, right, down
A plane fled overhead
I shielded my eyes from the Sun
As I looked up
A flock of beautiful blue birds
As free and as carefree as can be
Mocked me as I struggled to stand up straight

Did you have a good life when you died?
One worthy of countless reproductions?
Did they make a film dedicated to your memory?
Did it begin with your first hallowed breath?
And end with your satisfied huff?
Did they cast a guy one hundred times better looking than you?
To play the character... Of you?

If not, then what were you doing?
Your whole life, gone, and they didn't even consider a film version of your first birthday?
Did anyone even know your name?
Did anyone even give a ******* were in the same room?
Did they know your middle name?
Why wouldn't they?
It's too bad because it could've been great
It really could have been a good one
A good life
But no
I don't know what you did with it
But now it's gone
****
Zap
Done

You're dead

Sitting in my room
A ****** is the moon
I stare back at her
Gone when I wake at noon
She's always gone too soon

Who do you run to?
When you just want comfort
When you just want to be cured
I just want to be cured
I just want to be cured

You see I can't really explain
Inarticulate, and never one to complain
But what you were saying is just plain lame
And then nothing since then was ever the same
Wish you'd take my hand til this problem is slain
I promise you now that I will take all the blame

it's hard to explaint the way it feels
it's like that feeling she just loves to steal
nothing's wrong on the highway, behind the wheel
our shadows grow taller and eventually disappear
so hold my hand and don't let your heart succumb to fear
just take off your shoes and jump in the water so clear

drops coming from the sky split and splash
everything going fast is bound to crash
lightning and thunder at night while i'm in my bed
like that time you got dressed and crashed through my head

wading through the water
think you'll never faulter
because it all comes together
through the stormy weather
when the waves crash, crash
it seems like it won't ever last
but it all adds up
yeah it all adds up

oh the math never burns out
you will never have to shout
i always understand what
it takes to have some fun
so let your hair come down
so let the rain touch the ground

should have come and gotten high with us
talkin **** like on the back of the school bus
you should have come and smoked with us
no need in the world to come and make a fuss

just wanted to know what was up with you
had me thinking and feeling like a fool
wanted to know what was going on with you
didn't you say you loved me in the hallway at school?

I'm standing on the sand
The grains sifting through my toes
I smile as I look out and raise my hand
What I'm looking at, wishing for, nobody knows
But I know exactly what I want, what I'm doing
I'm not some lunatic talking to himself and smiling
It's all because of what's happened and what's been brewing
You put me on your hex list, I watched as you were writing

But hey, do what feels and looks right
Take it as it comes, leave it as it goes
These things always start a fight
From one side to the other coast
Everything happens the same way
Someone says something and another hears it
Then it goes on and on and they play
Little by little, the truth becomes a tiny bit
A blip in the burning stratosphere

It's like I can't even talk right now
It's like my mouth is broken
While these old kids come around
Trying to cash their counterfeit tokens
But I just look away, I don't see it
There's no reason for me to be rude
Do what you're gonna, don't give a ****
Ain't no reason for such a sour attitude
Like the patch kids we used to eat
As kids watching cartoons and playing N64
Just stay there don't get outta your seat
For some reason, I feel like I've been here before

Looking back I was always afraid to look ahead
Swerving this anxiety like I'm on a busted sled
Knocking myself out trying to do the right thing
But all by myself I could never truly bring
The things, sprout wings, sit with the kings
But hey that's why I just open my mouth and sing

Drip, drop, drip
You fired from the hip
Third degree burns
Coming straight from your lips
I start to tremble at my fingertips
I'll never learn because I never made the list
And I guess you could say I got a little ******
So now I roam the country with nothin but my fist

Ever since, ever since
I stopped givin a ****
I just run around
With my heart in my fist

Last night I dreamed a dream
A dream where everything
Wasn't at all what it seemed
Peering through a ripped screen
I liked hearing you scream
Only you know what I mean

Out of everything in the world
Tonight I wouldn't trade it
For anything else
Because I think I made it
To the top of my mountain
Through the brush and thick trees
I hope I can drink from the fountain
You see, a guy like me works up a thirst
That can never be fully extinguished
Riding high and dry inside my hearse

What you never see
You can never truly be
And what you are
Can never take you very far
So you have to go out
Climb up on the building and shout
For the love of your mother
And for your father and your brother
In the name of all that is holy
You will always be the one true and only

Now I will be ******
If I ***** this up again
I like your pretty words
You ignore it like you havent heard
You've got to know what you're doing
But you like to play the dumb doornail
Coming over to me, your voice washes up
Always, never, your plastic words can't fail

I don't know if we're meant for this
But I think I'm ready to try it
Sorry I got so ******
Over such trivial ****
I'll keep my head on straight
If you promise not to be late

All of these Catholic girls
With their attitudes and high heels
They used to wear skirts
But since then, they've grown wheels
Making there way over to me
Smiling white and talking pretty
What is it that they can't see?
I was raised in whatever with a Christmas tree

I was born in a junkyard
Where the dogs come out to play
They were being taught by nuns
While I sidestepped Him in my own way
They don't teach you that Jesus can't save you
In a school where they take you for what you have

You're really sweet with your mouth
And the way you move your lips
I really want a piece of you
To put my hands on your hips
But I've seen the signs, baby
And they point the other way
But if I'm wrong, then maybe
I'll stay because my heart's made of clay

Now if you'd please give me a moment
Just stay there while I think about this
I have to clear my big head again
Because you've filled it with nonsense
So just excuse me, dear, excuse me, honey
Look the other way while I'm down on myself
Raised in a little house, never much money
And now that I'm older, I don't need no help
So please, please just be on your way
I can't help myself when I'm feeling this way

I knew what you said
I gave you my all
I should have listened
We knew I would fall
But I gave you my all
I fell for your hair
And the way it fell on you
I guess I was scared
But now I'm just blue

And I'm a fool for you
You never see me through
Written off and back on again
Back when a word you couldnt lend

Sometimes I ask myself
How do you keep going?
And I just smile back and say
This is my life and I can not stop.

swim deep
never creep
let them know
it's you
find it
take a little bit
you are only
good for what
you need

turn tables
switch sides
the Clark Gable
do it for the ride
eyes wide
mouth open
wind whipping
don't need a bullpen

Lay next to me stare into the abyss/
Hearing you breathing, a heart beat I did not miss/
Just relax babe while I set the record, play the hits/
      Drift away, lay away, they stay away, we have our fits/
                                                                ­ Tell me about your family, when was the last time you saw your little sis?/
You **** your shotgun skirt, lift your shirt and ******* to bits/
                                                          Puttin­g our clothes back on and you look at me, make it clear you're still a wicked witch/