I look at the fridge..
                                 ..empty.
I look at my wallet..
                                 ..empty.
I look at your picture..
                                 ..instantly I'm full.

I'm just a five
She's a perfect ten
I'm just a nobody
She's so popular
I'm just a loser
She's the hottest girl in town

I can't win her
I just know.

Anything can be out of order
even winds changes direction,
even big trees fall down,
even water dries up,
even sun will be covered by the moon.

Human is no different
life is full of uncertainties,
life is full of mysteries,
life is full of possibilities.

Everything doesn't seem right,
Everything is out of my control.

I always lose,
They always kick my ***,
         shove me away,
         ignored me,
         as if I don't exist.
They spit on my pride
but it doesn't shook me
I stand hard,
I looked up,
I believed.

They inspired me to be stronger
I'm fired up!

Everything has its time
maybe not now,
             not later,
         or not ever,
but still I believe.

When you thought you're just a kid
When you thought you're all alone
When you thought everything is gone
When you thought there's no home
When you thought this is the end.

I'm doomed.

Pride..
Ego..
I don't need anyone but myself.

Walking around the corner
alone with my shadow.
Listening to the silence
like a deaf and mute with no one to talk to.

I've been in hard times
struggling to survive on my own
with no one to lean on
like a bamboo standing strong.

But each day,
living becomes tougher,
my heart is so severed,
that it couldn't hold on much longer.

Until you came
Giving me new hope,
a reason to live,
a reason to love.

I don't want to alone anymore,
I just want to be with you always.
Please stay by my side.

A heart only beats
nothing less, nothing more.

Fake smiles, fake tears
no sorrow, no joy
no love I can feel
There's nothing but emptiness inside.

What do I have?
I don't have anything
but fear.
I'm always last of the line
having no one, alone.
They once believed in me
but I ******* up
now I'm confused,
what should I do
to clear things up?
**** this ****!

Call it whatever you want


I call it having fun.

This night,
I looked at the stars above
remembering the past
that we've been together,
those moments of laughter
those moments you cry on my shoulder,
those moments that our lips touched each other,
those moments that we felt like in heaven,

but that was just a memory,
a fragment of the past
and I am left here

alone...

I hugged you
I kissed you
I slept with you
but still we're just friends
and nothing more
no commitment
no love
nothing
but what if we start something
something different
something more than we could imagine
if there's just love
if it just exist between the two of us

but I think
it already been realized
the love I have for you
but I could do nothing
'cause we're just friends

Through these years I've been watching
those futile tears that keep on falling
but you're so far and unreachable
by a man who's nothing but trifle.

Through these years I've keep on watching
those teary eyes I want to save from dying
But I'm the one succumb in pain
to this feeling I can not restrain.

Through these years I've been passive
just dreaming of something elusive
now is the time to make a move
now is the time to make her my love.

Smiles so true
that even the skies blushes
Laughter strikes
like a dagger of wind piercing through
Covered by strangers
like a hero gushing forth

Those were fragments
of memories so glorious
Bashed by grieve and sorrow
Dazzled by pride and ego
nowhere to run
nowhere to hide
Remorse renders the heart

I had nightmares

but still

got my head up high

I've been told
what the future holds

full of nightmare,
fear and despair,
hatred and terror,
and destruction's reign

the gates of hell opened
and the sky rained fire,
the seas became red as blood,
and the righteous fall before the wicked,
the creations trembled before the burning hell

War will rise
between good and evil,
between angels and demons
the Heavens fury shall strike the earth
mortals vanished
in a blink of an eye

the end is coming
(salvation awaits)

I wandered the hell's path
I saw its fury
            that burned my life
I felt the flame
            that scorched my heart

I wanted to fight,
But I cannot withstand the pain
              it causes me
I'm just a loser who can't win
              over you

All this time,
           I've suffered too much
And I couldn't bear it
           any longer
I've been living like hell
           with endless agony

I couldn't help
           but scream
The searing pain
          inside my heart
For I'm just a loser who can't win
          over you

I saw you
with someone last night
but it's alright.

I have been wondering
Every story are just the same
There's the protagonist
And there's the antagonist
It's all just the same

I have been wondering
Every story are just the same
Protagonists always win
Antagonists are always the losers
It's all just the same

I have been wondering
Why everything goes for the protagonist?
And this little antagonist have nothing
Every story are just the same
They're all just the same

I have been wondering
Aren't all stories unfair?
It leaves a mark on our minds
There's no chance for everyone
There's no hope for everyone

Can you hear it?
The laughter of the wind?
Can you see it?
The dancing of the wind?
Can you feel it?
The happiness of the wind?
Can you feel it, can't you?
But why can't I?
Why? Why?
Feeling hopeless towards the world
How could this happen to me?
Seems like everything has gone away
Leaving me alone and cold in the dark
Can anybody hear me?
Why?
Why is this happening to me?

My mind has lost at the moment
When our eyes have met
Pretending nothing happened
But it’s not what it seemed
Obsession I can’t handle
But you’re the one who light my candle
You are my addiction
You are my direction
Sometimes I got the feeling that you’re looking over me
Was that just a dream or fantasy?
Silence is my enemy
When you’re in front of me
You make me feel the heaven’s way
But why can’t I say
I don’t want to lose you
But I don’t know what to do
I just have to find a way out
There has to be way that I could let it shout
I just have to look into your eye
Maybe it’s worth a try
Maybe those ears are willing to listen
To my heart that already beaten
To fall for you
Only for you

Faith is the weapon
to survive is necessary
love and peace is our comrade
unity and freedom together
creates progress and success
and this we offer to God.

Full blast like a speed of light
disappeared in a blink of an eye
stronger than the force of gravity
even exceeds to nuclear energy
mathematicians couldn't even calculate
chemist couldn't even analyze
physicist couldn't even solve
engineers couldn't even imagine
I wonder what it is
it's just another mystery

Why and how questions are made?
If some things aren't supposed to be answered
I keep asking myself
but I couldn't find an answer
Question?
Who are you?
Am I crazy asking you?
How can you answer me if your a question?
Answer me..

Going down the deep ocean
seeking for the only one
with a pearl of dazzling shine
hiding within the line

Seek, seek, and seek
until it reaches to the peak
Hide, hide, and hide
forever on guard

One may haven't notice
the pearl alone in crisis
seeking the only spark
hiding and lonely in the dark

Jealous of the truth
that could never be reboot
that is what is seek has been with the other
and stealing couldn't be the answer

Though pain could rise
enduring it with despise
this hiding won't last forever
but forever seeking to be together

As you walk unto me
I stood still
As you speak to me
I listened closely
As you look into my eyes
I looked down
As you hold my hand
I feel ashamed
As you opened your bag
I open my palm
You gave me this mug
This mug of friendship
This mug that couldn't have been better
This mug that would last forever

Simple day, ordinary night
walking through the pavement
daydreaming in the crowd
with all those noise,
silence rule over in my head
illusions is all I can see
as it takes over my mentality
with the reality becoming blur
still dreaming of a fantasy
being drown away
     from my reasoning
still dreaming of a hope
dreaming and still dreaming...
my prayer.. my dream..

You may haven't notice
you may haven't felt it
you may haven't look
     at it that way
but it is you I wanted
it's you that makes me silent
it's you that makes me whole
it's you that makes me smile
it's you that makes my world
it's you that takes my breath away
it's you the reason my heart beats
you may never believe it
but it is you

Sun rises and sun sets
And the light fades away
As soon as the shadow reigns
In the dead of the night.

Agony covers the sky
Yet stars twinkle
And the moon sparks
With gentle ray.

I walked in a path of darkness
Going straight into the abyss
It is something I couldn't resist
for it is the reason I exist

Everything was just a fantasy
Believing that I could be truly happy
For I was blinded by a false light
But now I realize the one with the real might