I woke up this morning
For I am not where I belong
I know this for I hear a sweet song
I see a puppeteer
He's joyful as can be
As he plays around with glee
I finally count to three
I now am forever me

The boys at my school are players
For one minute they have a girlfriend
Then next thing you they hate her

Then the next minute they are with someone new
It's not unusual to see a boy with girl after girl
Or boys who dump girls they get back with them
Because they are soon desperate

So players take advantage
They like preps
Populars and *****

They don't like normal people
That are nice
For they are
Players

It's the one thing
That's keeps me happy
Even though my poems
May be sad and depressing
They still make me happy
I was inspired by the great
Edgar Allan Poe
And now I let some people know
My feelings through my poems
For my poems make me happy
Even through the toughest of times

Life is like a puzzle
We can never figure it out
For when we can not find the right piece
We soon are covered with doubt
We try to piece everything together
But maybe we are better off
Not seeing the final product
Instead we put the puzzle away
And try to start something new
But we always will wonder
What was that missing piece
As I continuously think about this
I soon realize that the piece will never be discovered
So now I sit here and realize
I am not puzzled

I have decided to return
To this lovely site
For my depression is keeping
Me awake at night
It it drowning me with fright
So I have decided poetry will help
Me come up for a breath
I have missed this site dearly
Here young teens are taken seriously
Unlike in reality when we are mistakened for jokes
My depression makes me choke
Scared of my own image
But I have yet
Returned

Rhythm is a funny thing
Don't you think?
We move and sing to it
It's all set perfectly together

But why follow it?
Why not make your own path
Or music for rhythm is anything
Make a beat and move your feet

For rhythm is easy as can be

This ring you have been given
Has been cursed
For you are not the first
To have this ring upon your hand
For if it's removed you will be banned
From ever having friends
Or family
For this ring represents
The love you bring
So please whatever you do
Keep on the ring

Although I know our love is forbidden
My feelings feel so forbidden
We've tried to keep our ways apart
But this is only breaking my heart
I love you I do my feelings
For you are true
I want this to work
But our love is forever forbidden

I go to school
It's full of fools
Who don't know how
To follow the rules
They get everyone in trouble
When you just want to learn
They make your day bad
Which makes you either
Mad or sad
But that's just how is has always been
When you go to
School

J-ust another person
E-xcited to write
S-arcastic
S-ensitive
I- ntelligent
C-reative
A-nxious

My shadow is hardly like me at all
For when I look at it tears don't start to fall
My shadow has never had panic attacks
For it does not know the facts
It's a perfect thing
Unlike me for it is only my
Shadow

Even though there are things we need
There will always be things that we want
We get those by shopping
When we shop usually it's for ourselves
We hardly thing about other people
when shopping until
it's around the holiday season
So all our money just disappears
Just like a flash it's gone
So be considerate and and not selfish

I keep my mouth shut
Though I have much to say
I try to keep my cool
For just one more day
This silence inside me
Is driving me mad
Though the things they say
Is making me sad

Snakes

The snakes
Are know as fakes
They are everywhere
And they backstab you
They also spawn left right and center
You can't get away from them
No matter how hard you try
You can't escape
For they make you cry
Until you want to say goodbye
You can never escape
The creepy crawly
Snakes

You made the reunions come to life
Losing you felt like I was stabbed by a knife
Cancer took you too soon
I now look up to the moon in prayer
That one day I will see you there in heaven
You made me laugh
And then I cried
I was laughing then next thing I know
Everyone is saying goodbye
It is simple for you were
Taken too soon

I've always wondered
What was behind the door
For it's in a house that's
Supposedly haunted
I always go by the door and listen
I hear screams and crying
It scares me
And
Intrigues me
At the same time
I will always wonder
What's behind
The Door

The man in the window
Will haunt and taunt
And he will never stop
For he is the man in the window

He screams and dreams
That you will forever leave
For he is
The man in the window

Tragedies what art thou foul memories
That come back to haunt me at peculiar moments

Where I can not escape thou haunts and taunts
For I relive them each day of my life

These memories have left scars that I shall remember forever
Forever is eternity
But without love what is forever?

I feel trapped
For I'm stuck at school
I feel trapped
For I follow the rules
I feel trapped
For I don't belong
I feel trapped
So I write some songs
I feel trapped
when I'm alone
I feel trapped
When I dream of a throne

You tell me all these lies
But you say they are true
You don't see that
I can see the truth
You don't want me anymore
I see how you look at others
The same way you used to look at me

Have you heard something you wish you shouldn't have
Today I did I wish I could forget
But it was very serious
So my mind is turning
Hoping that this person is okay
And that they are sad by the end of the day

I've fallen down
I've fallen in
To the old me
To who I used to be
I have become
The person I wish I wasn't
I tried so hard
I tried for so long
To keep the past out of my life

But I've fallen down
I've fallen in
A portal has been opened
It's made me fall
So far to the ground
I've fallen in my past
I've found

That was the person I had hoped was long gone
Turned out she was waiting for my life to go wrong
Now that it has I've fallen in
I can't come
For I'm too deep in

I hear the wind blow
Through the broken windows
No one has been here in ages
I can tell from all the dust collected
I look down and see the old pages
That once were used to count orders
But now just lie on the floor getting colder
This old warehouse hasn't been used in ages
People no longer get wages for this is just an
Old abandoned warehouse

I sometimes
No I always
Wonder if people
Would care about me more
If I was just another dead girl
It's least likely for nobody cares anyway
So they could say go **** yourself and not care if you do

I sometimes
No I always
Wonder if people
Would see me for who I was
No just another nobody or a wannabe
They wouldn't see me for the intelligent and pretty and kind girl I am
It's basically they are ignoring the fact you are actually human as well.

I sometimes
No I always
Wonder if people
Would actually miss me
Out of the love and pain of their heart
Not just cause I helped them with homework or a problem

I however
Never seem
To realize
That no one would care
Except my parents and my five friends

I fail
To realize
That nobody except my family and five friends
Will see me for the me I truly was

I fail
To realize
That nobody but my family and five friends
Will truthfully miss me

I fail to realize
Because I shield reality
So it don't break me
If I see reality I shed tears constantly
If I see reality I see how terrible this world is
And all I can wonder is
If I died
Who would care
If I died
Who would see me for who I actually am
If I died
Who would miss me
If I died
Why was I given suicidal thoughts to begin with
Why was I bullied so much
Why was I hurt so much
Why did everyone break me
Why did I have to cry at everything
Why couldn't I have been tougher
Why couldn't I have fought longer
Why didn't I keep the ones that loved me close
Why did I push my loved ones away
Why did I make so many mistakes
Why did I turn away from God so much
Why did I doubt God
Why did I lose my best friends
Why did I gain friends worth more that I deserve
Why am I treated so nicely when I am a bad person
Why
Why
Why do I wish I were dead?
I have life so good
So why do I want to end it so badly
No matter how much I oust the thoughts away
Suicide
Anxiety
Depression
Low self esteem
No confidence

They come back stronger than I can handle anymore
So I want to just end it all
The headaches
The heartaches
They all come back

When asked if I am okay
All I can reply is
I'm fine
It's all I can do

But the only question
I want people to ask is

Why?

We accept them for their colors
Why can't we accept people the same
For they are black and white
But society can't decide whether
To hate whites or blacks