Well, pardon me, I did my best
running at my fastest pace,
My heart overtook my body as it flew to find you in this race,

Been looking for you everywhere,
I followed your trace and glare,
Thankfully it guided me in the right way,

No matter what, even if you disappeared and scattered everywhere, I'll start back and look for you all over again,

When my facades came crashing down,
I've been walking on eggshells,
but lately, they're starting to crack and look more like bombshells,

we keep on living in this back and forth hell,
that keep us bound together like two parasites trying to devour each other,

A note of affection from a betrayed lover,
A picture painted with loved but neglected and tarnished by time and ego,

I miss my old friends and I'm sorry whether I'm ungrateful in my life when they needed me the most,

Just know that these things and flick in a vocal pain,
I can feel deep down at the bottom of my heart,

so I don't have to make that profound sadness dictate my future and strangle me into submission to the point where I refused to make more memories because the old ones are taking up to much space.

This feeling of numbness and emptiness makes my skin shiver from within,
it turns into a cold mountain with a foggy and gleaming scene but sometimes it turns into a waterfall with a high volume of flow and plunge of thoughts and a swell between the high grounds,
it makes my mind blank staring at the wall without any guts between my lungs,

The tears started to fall between my lips feeling all those gnashing teeth,
you can notice it through my eyes and pale skin that the sadness started to sink in, I can feel those needless, you can read my lips releasing those vowels, and my both ears started to tangled,

I'm on a planet that designed to stress me out
you helped me realize that not all of us are designed to be happy or blessed, and my existence is like a winking light in the dark,
it helps me to decide whether I put on this coat or not before I go into the storm that waiting for me to die,

you'll wake up one morning with a cup of happiness but you
realize that your life is cruel so you decide to keep waiting until the end of the sunlight inside your blanket,
the day will come to your body and sanity shrinks, breaks, and fades into a small piece of crap that makes you feel unwanted.

He's already lost on his game,
now all he has is fear and guilt and the one to blame,
his mind and soul are already entwined, his room are filled with unusual wind,

He hates this feeling, the common clique of anxiety kicks in,
I saw you in the sea of smiles that you're drowning,
I wanted to save you but you're
nearly to die,

I hope your blood is thicker than the water,
I hope your brain is stronger than a boulder
I hope you survive until the end...

It's been a while since I saw you smiled,
maybe he's just tired,
of being here in a void full of despair,
and full of haunted coat that they wear,

please smile for me,
I want to see your smile like a flea,
again.
I want to see your grin as if the rain falls down your chin,
again.

I'm sorry but everything change,
even though I want to go back in time, there's nothing that will remain,
I hope we had a good time back then,

if things don't work out, I'll miss you,