Look deep into my eyes,
And feel my pain....

You think that's a smile,
But my teeth grinding
Its not the same
These scars on my body
Helped prove my name.
I'm a tree that's cut
Stumped,
But I'll grow again.
Don't dandle my ego
So when they oppugn
My character.
I can reconcile my name.
Display the calluses
On my hands,
Because I can't show
The blisters on my brain.
Thoughts so deep
Ideas bleed out my vain.

Look deep into my eyes,
And feel my pain....

I wonder if I was born
Into a "good home."
Would my life be
For the better
Or maybe I'm wrong.

Automatic assumptions
Deeming ones dealings
Right or wrong by his associates.
Tho, how can they judge family.

You may not consider
They I was raised as being
Substantial ones means of living
Were harsh,poor, impoverished
But, what material needs I lacked
I found that love substituted them.

Now I may not be raised best,
And I have been through stress,
But I can cope with the tragedies
Of this world, this life, this time.

I've been equipped with strength
I won't fold, crack, bend, or break
Under pressure or adversity.
What is a run uphill to the one
Who lives on the mountain?

So before you pit me against
Your standards your rules
Your regulations and your test.

Take a walk in my shoes
See if you can live my life without
Compliant, and go through my pains
And struggles of the day to day world.
Consider my options and take into
Account my life and my family.
Will you crack under the pressure?

Her beauty mocks me.
A graceful butterfly
Once blessing me
With her presence.

Tho, as life took its toll
I slowly lost hold and,
She swiftly flew into the sky.

Her beauty escaped me
Leaving me lost for words
And paralyzed with the fear
Of losing her,
Before she was mines.
Who knew butterflies could bite?

Cupid choked me
Her love revoked mines
Tho, I still think.
This lock and key
Belongs to this butterfly

All kids of today seem to say
"I already know, I'm grown."

So let them see the world
Not what they watch on tv.
Show them the struggles of life
So they know that its not easy.
Tell them that I'm hungry
Yet,my refrigerator is empty.

Life's not what they believe
So let them strive with problems
Then hope they see.
Turn them down profusely
When they ask for wants not needs.

Poverty equals suffering
There's a long road for change
But this kids must know
Life's not all fun and games.
Observe their wrong doing
Then proceed to say

"I only hold my tongue to let you learn. Your mistakes and pain will be your teacher. "

My words are not understood by most,
like twister to one who is color blind. Unable to Comprehend
But sooner will my heart split in half
then I stop conveying my emotions on
this page. For the sounds of screaming
and the thought of grieving runs through my lungs and kidneys.
It is my very blood it gives me life
The desire to understand this
Is the desire of most men today
How is it that screaming gives birth
To the laughter that spews out of me

If you drift through the day waiting for night to take you away,
Everybody thinks you’re okay, but inside your going insane
If you live with your pain, but can’t take it
So you go day by day trying to fake it
In hope that one day it won’t be a lie and you’ll make it
You know what’s wrong, but can’t say it
If you feel like your life is missing color
Like every day you’re just living to get number
You scream in your heart but your lips can only stutter
Then you realize it doesn't matter
Because they only hear you as a mutter
If you can’t look at yourself in the face
Or even mouth the words you really want to say
If days flies by in a haze, and you feel like you’re in a daze
You’d be amazed when I say
That You’re Not Alone

Now when I think of myself
She pops into my mind
Because without her there is no me.
So believe me when I say
That I long for the day
When her skin kisses mine
And the light within me finally shines.
Or the moment when
I look into her eyes
And she looks in minds.
Then, suddenly, tranquillity takes me.
She grabs the bull by its horn.
Making it show its true form
Just a masquerade from fear of shame.
You see this bull is a calf.
Needing affection and guidance.
Just time spent with him
Until he has learned to walk.
She nurtures my love
So when things tough
I'll be able to run.
Yes, she puts me on a pedestal
Raising me to the pinnacle
Of my emotional and spiritual well being.
But I fall off this cloud
When I hear the sound of me
Asking myself for her name.
A trick question bcuz I've yet to meet her

"PAUSE!"
Momentarily ceasing my reality.
Presenting me the opportunity
To dissect this somber situation.
Peering into a dimly lit room
I find myself sulking,
Pondering in a depressive manner.
What is my affliction?
I cannot truthfully answer this.
Tho, I am slowly
Digging this hole deeper.
Tho, I know I am alive
I ask "Have I died?"
"Play!" I say to myself
But my life is still paused.
Can I animate the corpse
I have become,
Or has this opportunity decayed?

I've seen some sad **** before,
Tears in my eyes,
Stomach pains can’t even **** before.
I've seen some sad **** before,
Children with problems of grown men
Fathers missing, Mothers dismissing
The struggle, the hustle, they won’t admit it.
I've seen some sad **** before,
If you don’t misplace my statements
You’ll find a thought in my mind  
That reminds of you that time…
Well never mind you displaced it.
I've seen some sad **** before
Leaders on the path of the destruction
Followers to brainwashed to disrupt them
The word of God, flipped, and used by frauds
False prophets with greed in mind
Money talks, but they lie.
I've seen some sad **** before.
Like my reflection in the mirror
I couldn't picture it though
My green eyes diluted,
I thought I wasn't suited to strive
Suited to survive without the hands
That wiped my eyes.
I've seen some sad **** before.
But I've realized the world doesn't cry
It covers its pain with lies
Well, I've tried, to live the dream
But reality is mean
So I take the good, the bad, and the ugly
For what it means
We see distant galaxies as they dream
I've seen some sad **** before.
But now I know it gets worse
That my reality is a dream
To the ones who've seen
The horrible things
My green eyes lie,
So my tears hide
The worse cry dries red eyes
When you realize
You haven’t seen **** before

Unique
Different from the rest
They're more than slightly upset
That my thoughts can't
Be viewed on their television set
You have your doubts
So go, put my words to the test
My knowledge, Truth
Thicker than any bullet proof vest
Stuck in the present
But I've already moved to the next
I find that they are
Vexed by complex ideas of life
It stresses us all
Tho, with the right plan we stand
We never fall
Not failing to achieve our aspirations
So aspire
Look forward to things that won't pass
Gun's and Butter
Butter melts away, but Guns Last

Day after day
I sit and think about my life
What if If this happened
Or I did this, and I realized
It didn't and I didn't
So why does it matter
Life it what you make it
Similar to a cake
It can be bad or good
But take advantage
before its gone

Tonight is the night
That I show you I could do it
I prove to all you skeptics
That harmony is found
In more then music.
That when I guide
Away from success
You can still see
My shoe print

Tonight I will display
The song that is my life,
God may have
Made the melody
Tho, these lyrics I write
I hope you can feel
My heart beating
As I transcribe
The words
That control my days,
Knowing with one
Mistake my
Breath can
Be taken
Away

Her beauty mocks me.
A graceful butterfly
Once blessing me
With her presence.

Tho, as life took its toll
I slowly lost hold and,
She swiftly flew into the sky.

Her beauty escaped me
Leaving me lost for words
And paralyzed with the fear
Of losing her,
Before she was mines.
Who knew butterflies could bite?

Cupid choked me
Her love revoked mines
Tho, I still think.
This lock and key
Belongs to this butterfly

Let the smoke feel the air,
Burning oxygen out the atmosphere.
My lungs expanding
Struggling to cope with invasion
This drug invades my body,

Leaving my thoughts on the ground.
My thoughts leave my head
I strive to catch reality
It slips through my fingers
Now I live completely in my head.

Blowing with the leaves
Peacefully being controlled
Invisible forces controls me

Leaning, and spinning
My thoughts make my lean
These thoughts leave me spinning

I twist off this cloud
Gravity bring me down
My mind lifts off the ground
The high of the drug has left me now.

I hope tomorrow never dies
Even though I'm tired of today.
Like seasons life is always changing
A little better a little worse
Yet never expecting the storm.
It rages with strong emotions
The wind howls out of pain
And the lightning strikes silently,
And all is calm until the thunder hits,
A car crash it is loud and unexpected
All the way to your bone you can feel it
As if it is your bone itself breaking
A terrifying sound for most it is
Yet some listen to it peacefully
Bcuz they no the storm is almost over
They look to the shining future
Unlike we who can only see the present
How I await for the storm to be over.

Our bodies make music
When we come together
We harmonize in no time.
Like coffee you smell to me,
And your skin mocha with cream.
Starbucks can't compare to you.
You send me to the clouds,
And my mind beyond the stars.
I don't know you send me,
But you are here with me.
What you make me feel
Is a sensation like your touch.

Locked within the prison that is my mind
My cerebral connects to my spine
And nerves endings tell my body lies
So that I may believe that everything is fine
Love lies connected between these lines
Although this heart does echo the most silent of cries
holding fast to any dreams deferred by time
and letting go of any ill feelings ive come to deny
This is a chance to confront any fears,
to cure this confusion,
this pain... these tears
to reveal the deepest secret that i've always known
that with patience good things will always unfold
that my reason of existance is still untold
that true love is eternal and never grows old
Love lies connected between these lines
Lines that merge my heart with thoughts inside
Inside of me is the truth
Truth Never seen only spoken
Spoken words never heard but inspire hope
Hope that is the accelerant to the fire of my life
Life may be filled with stress, but I try my best.
Best, better, good, bad, worse, worst
Worst case scenarios seem to chase my dreams
Dreams of happiness and stability, maybe even civility
Civility I've never seen maybe once or twice in a dream
Dream just dreams I hope one day I know what it all means

In King's dream his wishes were apeased,
But never he would believe
The the things that I have seen
The glory and the shame
Ignorant people still known by another name
Malcolm X inspired the rebel in me
To peek behind the curtain
See the behind the scenes
That the government does devious things
However that man said "..By any means.."
And by any means Barrack helped Martin
Fulfill his dreams
I devote my dreams to Wisdom and Knowledge
In hope that one day
People won't have to work to go to college
That the government would be about the people
and not the politics
In hope that the slaves be freed
You see we are all slaves to society
So like Martin I have a dream,
That I can say I'll bring to life by any means

Life grabs hold of me,
Hoping to control me,
To keep me down,
Keep me on the ground.
Gravity is my enemy
Tho, this love is my friend.

This struggle, this grind
This pull on my mind,
Stress and Tension find me
Can I avoid them this time?

I push with my actions,
Taking action in my life
Striving to evade
Those who pursue me
Working to lift this weight
This weight that is life
The pressures of life

Back to the thing called "love."
Again with the mystery
That confuses me and leaves
Dynamite placed within my mind.

It is funny how people say they
Want to "find" the love that's
Constantly talked about.
How can they "find" love
When who know's what it truly is.

Love is a ticking time bomb
Just not set with the time on it.
It jumps from 3 to 10 back down to 1
You never know when it will blow.

Oh the joy loves brings, but also
Love brings pain and suffering.

I am suffering in complete agony.
How long will I love but not be with
The one that I love in flesh.
For I am forever with her in spirit.

When will the waiting end,
Nights of loneliness cease to exist.
When will the joy begin again,
Or the anguish concludes its trip.
When will my heart stop bruising
My ribs, this bomb lay dormant again.
When will she return to me,
And these I hold stop leaving me.
O how I wish this bomb to explode.

Like coffee you taste to me,
Mocha with a hint of cream.
Your body is sweet like 3 sugars.
A head rush is what you give me,
3 cups down and waiting on the 4th.
What is it that you do to me?
My heart is beating to were,
It is chipping at my ribs.
The acceleration you give to me
My heart is what I give to you.
My body is yours to use or abuse
As long as I'm with you.
As long as you are with me.
Me and you were meant to be.

I see the sun rise, as my mind sets.
One begins thinking, if he could raise a son in this mindset.
Feeling shallow though, I’m lost in this void that has no depth.
Taking steps lost in the waters; while I try not to get my feet wet.
Fire motivates me; its burn feels the worst and the best.
I find myself in meditation searching for my breath,
Or shall I say spirit so those who don’t know can grasp the concept.
Since my conception I’ve felt thus world to be a reflection.
Looking for the man in the mirror, but he eludes my detection.
Ripples in the waters blur my connections.
At times confusion feels like a virus or an infection.
Clarity evades the elite, I’m no exception.
I’ve become vexed at memories of my own recollection.
Like finding solace in how the darkness holds me.
Not worrying about Lost Time knowing the matrix consoles me.
Black out drunk, casting demons out of my temple.
How I wish the world could be so simple.
Ignorance is bliss.
I often find myself stressed with my index fingers at my temples.
Six years ago, I never would have guessed,
Things would come to a head like a pimple.
Appears I lost part of my smile like a dimple.
Gone forever but never forgotten.
The only good this world showed me; now it’s rotten.  
I’m plotting to do better.
I won’t steal others joy.
My gains will no longer be ill gotten.
Your pain and suffering wasn’t in vain.
My brothers and I have grown and changed.
Though at times we find anguish in speaking your name.
These lions you’ve made have went from: broken, to wild to tame.
This place isn’t the same, I claim responsibility, and take blame.

With you is like, with Love
Your glowing orange,
Or is that just your aura In my mind,
With you I feel like I'm blowed
Out my mind
But the blunt was never sparked
So its you who had me feeling
Warm feelings drinking cold wine
Not enough time
To write what's on my mind
Because I know
My thoughts are intangible
And my dream are unimaginable

I Feel Like
I Complicate My Life
By Looking To The Future
For Current Insight
Yes I Do It
But I Don't Think Its Right
So At Night I Lay, Think, And I Write
I Lay Alone
Wishing I Was Next To The Girl
Who's Confused By The Poems I Write
Yes There's More Than One
But I feel This One Is Just Right
Tho, I Hesitate And Play It Safe
By Wrapping My Heart Tight
With Caution Tape
The Love Is There
However I Find It Unfair
That Cupids' Arrows
Pierce My Sides And Stay There
When I Pull They Tear
Can't Take That Pain
So I Keep Them There
Tho This Girl
Mends My Wounds
Brings Cool Air To June
You May Not See It In Her
But She See's It In Me
I See Her For What She Is To Me
What She Has The Potential To be
Potentially She Could Live With Me
Breakfast In Bed
With Sunny Side Up Eggs
Tho I Take My Steps Slowly
Afraid That She Could Burn Me
Afraid That She Could Begin To Know Me
So I Have To See If I Can Hide Me Gently
You May Not Comprehend
But I Know She Understands

GRIEF!
This is the emotion I feel
As I watch these "boys"
Playing follow the leader
Mislead to thinking
They have a destination.
When they pursue
Nothing more than a dream.
More than false hope.
Less acceptable ways to cope,
With the pain they've found.
More drugs than I can name
Less reason they're all the same.
They just try to contend with life,
But soon they will see
A "boy" misleads them,
And the dream that they chase
Could never be attained
Without the direction of a Man.

I can feel your thoughts,
You can read mines
Intimately, caressing
Each others mines,

We lose ourselves,
Lost in past emotions,
Old flames that flickered
Until they diminished,
Listening to whispers
That promised forever
Screaming and shouting
"We couldn't last forever!"

Yes our words say it all
Most don't comprehend
Tho, you understand it all
These lines numb our pain
Not ******* or novacane
The things we could never say.
Lust, love, heartbreak, and pain

Present to me your words
So I can know if your
What I'm looking for
Try to decipher
The code that lies
Beneath my words.
My heart is hidden
Deep within the verbs.

Looking at these pictures of you
Wondering what I should do
Keep you in my heart,
Or try my best leave you
Should I take you in as mine
Your always on my mind
These thoughts of you are dim
I try and let the light shine
So supisous of comitment
Becuase your lips seem to be forbidden
I can't conceive my life without you
Tho, our invovlement seems to be contingent
Digging for emotions, this treasure is still hidden
Confused about this life, I only know I need forgiveness
I know about this pain, and the things I have to live with
I know you and I are constant, but We as one could be inconsistent
Please tell me that you know, that real emotions remain a mystery
That I love you for who you are, but I hate we don't have history
That these words I write are real, but spoken words are synthetic
That I take these shots of pain, only to clear my vision
That if I could stop this cycle I would surely end it
That I have no choice in what I'm doing, until its finished
That when I whispered that I love you, it was a proverb to my ignorance.
That I'll never leave your heart, even when you leave my vision.

I love to be misunderstood
Tho, my words stand for me
If only they understood.

I speak what I feel
All that is real to me
Love, Life, and Knowledge.
I only utter what is real
And what I view as Truth.

Truth is Knowledge.
If you know what is wrong
Reality, will crush you in the end
Your heart, is in collusion with
What you know

Truth is left to conspire
With Reality against your thoughts.
Leaving me to exercise my right,
And inhale it all keeping my at ease.

Back in the day,
If I had a problem I'd hit her up.
Now times progressed
And her name has changed,
But the formula is still the same.
When them girls wit no names.
Cause me hurt and pain
Her voice tames my heart then
Clears the thoughts out my brain.
Her perfume opens my nose,
a unique fragrance of her own.
Like smoke her aura fills my lungs.
Her name may not last,
Yet her presence is always felt.
This more then love,
And we're more then friends.
Everything about her entices me
From her smile to her body
I want it all.
Her lips entice me while,
Her body entreats me for pleasure.
Yet her mind is last to know.
So much I can say about her.
Tho, her name is all I know.

I gaze out my window,
And see poverty at its greatest.
Minorities co-existing, mingling,
Scraping up change to make pennies.
My stomach groans at witnessing this.

It sets a fire in my soul,
Momentum starts to burn.

How I yearn for the end of this struggle
Yet its all I know,
Leaving me with no place to go.
Striving to live since birth
This pain is my way.

This pain is my way
It sets a fire in my soul
Leaving me with no place to go.
Scraping up change to make pennies.
Momentum starts to burn.
Scramble my words.

Why have love,
when there's heartbreak?
Is a brief moment of love worth,
A life with a broken heart?
The words I speak have puzzled
Most of the world.
Two feelings more intense
Than death itself.
Love controls your life
It is the puppet master,
And you are the puppet.
It brings light as radiant as the sun
And darkness like midnight.
I'd rather had love and loss love,
Than never loved at all.
It is a sensation compared
With ones heart beating.
Knowing love and having loved
Is the beauty of life.
It pollinates the flowers
That brings happiness.
Love brings one happiness.

If you think your is pain great,
And your anguish is too strong.
If you think you don't have
What you need to go on.

If you think the dark
Is way past your knees,
Or you don't have the strength
To do what need.
If you think the fire in your heart
Is slowly diminishing.

Let me tell you what I know
With hopes to soothe your soul.

I know that you can do it.
I know you can go on.
I know that in the end
You'll still be standing strong.

I know the pain is bad,
But I know that you are great.
I know you won't give in
Too a little heartache.
I know that out the dark
You'll soon see the light.
You just have to stay strong
And make it through the night.

I remember waking up a few years ago to my life ending.
Screeching still in my ear, and it's bone chilling.
A fatality to my soul like God was trying to finish a villain.
While my cousin getting High in the bathroom.
Mind you my momma dying in the next room.  
Sister had to wake

These nights are cold
Summer Days no longer keep me warm
The beauty of The Sun
Has long left me torn
The Wind whispers through my window pane
No one knows its name
Tho, we all know the game.
Yes you and I have experienced its pain.
Scented candles are lit
They burn with a blue flame
Smoke fills the room
Our Minds Spins
While our love begins to rotate
Trapped In this trance
We're stuck in this state
Thoughts revolve around the phase
Will this last
Or is it just a phase
Our present problems present a problem
I hope it's not to late
Give me the date
The time where the truth lies
Black and white
No greys
No lines

Feel Winters pain
Cold Winter nights
Bone chilling breeze
Heartaches Hard times

Turn off the lights
Trip into your mind
Think about the thoughts
You thought you left behind

Summer colors fade
Spring flowers never bloom
Seasons you await seem to meet their doom

So Fall into Winter
Your numb once again
The ice on your cheeks
The snow left on your hands.

The trees are naked. The flowers are gone
You cannot forget what things once was
You can't forget your Summer love

I love to be misunderstood
Tho, my words stand for me
If only they understood.

I speak what I feel
All that is real to me
Love, Life, and Knowledge.
I only utter what is real
And what I view as Truth.

Truth is Knowledge.
If you know what is wrong
Reality, will crush you in the end
Your heart, is in collusion with
What you know

Truth is left to conspire
With Reality against your thoughts.
Leaving me to exercise my right,
And inhale it all keeping my at ease.

Now when I think of myself
She pops into my mind
Because without her there is no me.
So believe me when I say
That I long for the day
When her skin kisses mine
And the light within me finally shines.
Or the moment when
I look into her eyes
And she looks in minds.
Then, suddenly, tranquillity takes me.
She grabs the bull by its horn.
Making it show its true form
Just a masquerade from fear of shame.
You see this bull is a calf.
Needing affection and guidance.
Just time spent with him
Until he has learned to walk.
She nurtures my love
So when things tough
I'll be able to run.
Yes, she puts me on a pedestal
Raising me to the pinnacle
Of my emotional and spiritual well being.
But I fall off this cloud
When I hear the sound of me
Asking myself for her name.
A trick question bcuz I've yet to meet her

In the day I think of her,
And at night I day dream of her.
My nights are restless bcuz of her.
Her scent never leaves my nose
And face is never far from my mind.
She intoxicates me with her presence
But my days darken as she leaves.
Into a dark abyss I slip without her.
She is the light at the end of the tunnel
Anyone with eyes can see her
But I am the only one that has her.
She is the Sun of my solar system
I'm naturally attracted to her
And can not pull away from her
I can not exist if she is not there.
Blind I will go if I can't see her
Lost I am when I'm not with her.
I know I love her and she loves me.

More time lost looking for love.
Am I lost for love,
Or lost in love.
I don't know what to think.
Since I don't know what it is.
What is love?
Is it the warm feeling inside,
Or the smile she gives me?
People do anything for their love,
And do things to hurt their love.
If you hurt when your love is hurt,
Then hurting your love
Should be hurting yourself.

When all noise has ceased
And the air is clear.
My mind keeps working
Incessantly spinning gears.

So let me speak
These words I hear
Let me hope
You may comprehend.
Heed my speech
Give me your ear.

This life I live
This life I love
I serve my heart
I serve my love
Take pride in fault
Proud of mistakes
Fear only God
This life he can take.

Sit and watch slowly
As this rose blooms firmly
A color that is glowing
And petals that will show me.
The way to alleviate your pain,
And love all that remains.

Let me hand you this rose
And love you long.
Brighten your day
So I can see you display
Affection and kindness
Your love I will never miss
Because it will never leave me.

So turn to me Miss
And give me a kiss
Give me your hand
So you can understand
What I'd like to do to you.

Let us start on the bed
As I remove your pants
Then spread your legs
So I can put it in.
You scream You moan
I change the song
I turn you around
Our worlds spin now
So wet So sweet
How I love to eat
Your head goes down
You taste your treat.
We fight for the top
And roll on the floor
I hold you down
You scream for more
I dig in deep
You grind your teeth
Your toes start to curl
I touch your rose
Its wet and fertile

So let us grow, and let us go
To the ends of the earth,
But let us first
Find Love.

My imagination...
Is filled with sweet fragrance
Crushed rose petals, lemon peals, plant shavings
Elated I stand with happiness on my face
As I give myself a glance of the things to take place
Visions of me drinking frequently from your private streams
Dancing in your meadows, and climbing up your trees
Digging deep into your earth,
Making mud out of Passion and dirt
Traversing your peaks and valleys
As you scream to me spiritually
Your foundation quivers
Yes your knees shakes
Time and time again
I've been to this place
Tho, the pleasure never subsides
This gold shines in the night
It takes the Sun's place
I journey from late night
To early in the day
The universe synced with my being
Celestial Lights guide my way
I explore your caves
As the stars show me the way
Love gives warmth, I give love
Let me warm your place