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782 · Jun 2013
Illegal Dreams
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
I heard that dreams were illegal
So i find that so many people,
Escape to an alternate reality
Hoping that one day,
It becomes there reality.
I heard that dreams were illegal
So I cant hope to see you
A life sentence is the right sentence
Because I'm dreaming to be with you
Contractions and convictions
Feeding at the criminal inside of me
Because I can't fight this distance .
I heard that dreams were illegal
So these sirens are at my feet
Red and Blue lights are all I see
Tho, I'm running to see you
I heard that dreams are illegal
But I'd stand in front of the judge
If the crime is to lay with you
What could I possibly say or do
As these thoughts run wild & recklessly ,
I heard that dreams were illegal ,
Time has passed wonderment of being with you
Is something I can no longer endure ,
The complexity has my mind racing
Heart beating faster each second of every minute ,
I heard that dreams were illegal,
Facts will lay were they may ,
I'm around but i can't come your way ,
Only time has been patientI've been patient with time ,
Demented as my behavior becomes more & more irrational ,
Saunteredly moving the sky becomes gray ,
I paint your face wherever my eyes lay ,
My propitate ways deny what is not pleasing to me
I heard that dreams were illegal
So that view of sunshine you see
Is affiliated with doing time
It is less than freedom
But more then slavery
So let us progress into the abyss
So when they finally disclose
The recipe for happiness
We'll know that we are free
I heard that dreams were illegal
So I hope that what I see
Is really just my reality
Tho my high hopes
Sink low when I realize
Im Dreaming,
782 · Jul 2013
Gears
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
As I stare into the vast darkness of the night,
The gears of start to rotate in my mind..
Slowly intertwining with one another for one purpose.
Oh, how I wish my thoughts were as organized as these gears.
Thoughts of mine are distorted and
never finely placed or have to do with a time, date, or place.
More of the feelings that give my mind life,
And the ability to comprehend the emotions of my fellow man.
Yet, as I write this I stand with my feet firmly in the ground
A tree that will not be uprooted,
And my mind is not close to the earth or near any dirt
It is above the compounds of moisture in the air that are called "Clouds".
How unorganized my thoughts are and separated my being is,
But I remain with my feet on the ground and mind above the clouds.
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
As the wind spins the daffodils
My head starts to fill with reflections of you
Looking at the sky, wondering if I,
A mere peasant, could come close to you
I see you as Royalty,  
My heart no longer cares for me, Only you
A velvet color bleeds upon my chest
I sense you are different from the rest
Tho, this blood sticks to my skin
Reality is it comes from, within me
You slay me, constantly causing dismay
My heat is shaped for you, As if it is formed of clay
I am loyal to your eyes, I wear a mask
You can see through my disguise, only in the day
At night animal instincts arise, my howls crack the moon
How I yearn for you, I search for you, my heart cries to you
This piece you've given me won't suffice I need all of you
Capture your beauty into my life, forever a picture last
Tho, I dream to bring Kodak to life, if only for a night
When the beast preys on the innocent ones,
When the Sun is gone and the Moon has risen
Cover me in shadows and release night from prision
Endure my afflictions I will, If your willing to wait with me
Wait with me until your realize you love me,
These hues of colors are bright, Yes happiness
Will find us, If you stay with me
Until the waters run cold
The heat from our love
Is left to keep us warm
Just stay with me as the wind spins the daffodils,
And the plot thickens. Stick with me
When all is gone because or love must go on
Even if you don't know it yet.
757 · Dec 2012
Reflect
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
Reflecting on the past,
Helps build a better future.
But why dwell in the past
When its only the future
That can be changed
If we focus on the present,
And make a positive effort.
We will have a positive future.
750 · Jun 2013
African Revolution
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
It's crazy how I am posed as a threat to the American society.
It's crazy how I fit the description of any crime. Because they profiled me, by my race.
Because my pigment depicts the actions and I'm just their next hit.
I'm just waiting for the blow to the head that will exploit my brains
Scrambling them into pieces on the street.
It will reveal what they fear
I guess brown pigment signifies a corrupt mind.
Mind you, that my homicide will make the world a better place
Because there plans are to get rid of the "filth"
Now you tell me who's corrupt as they wash their blood stained filthy hands.
Don't worry, because these ****** think they're on a mission to save America.
The tactics are changed, so don't be fooled the goal is the same as 60 years ago.
They fear my intelligence, because before they believed I was completely illiterate
But now.
They feel fear when they see me
Tremble when they hear me speak.
My articulation shocked them and left them on their knees, begging.. For their superiority back.
They label me as a thief, because that label has been jacked.
It's just unbelievable that fear has left my brains shattered on this concrete,
But are my black roots too strong for defeat?
Do they fear the strength in what they once referred to as a disease?
A curse by god, a lifelong flaw, it seems quite odd wait a second...pause
I’m an upstanding citizen by the standards of society
Though if they see my skin, like Christ three times they’ll deny me
Counterfeit Christians and let I not mention the leniency in religion.
Let us not stray I’ll get back to the beginning,
It seems quite odd they expect us to forget rather than forgive them.
Mentally weakening the dreams of the enslaved black beings
Sparking wars of race within a race
Willie Lynch thought he perfected his methods of slavery
But methods of our African ancestors taught us to bend, but never break
In a centuries time the change will blow your mind
From being chained and put in line, to inspiring culture in ignorant minds.
So raise your fist and clench it tight,
In hopes my brains don’t meet the concrete tonight
By Jay Bryant and Zhane Gay
733 · Jun 2013
Live and Learn
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
I look at past mistakes
With no regrets.
You see I respect
Who I have become
The lessons I've learned.
My demeanor has changed.
I've sophisticated myself
With suffering and heartache
Yes I've caused plenty of heartache

I look at past mistakes
With no regrets
Nameless strangers
Names I strain to say
Those who drained my days
Their names won't go away.

I look at past mistakes
With no regrets
These holes in my heart
These girls have left
Stones in my kidney
Grow, I can't suppress
Tho I suppress names
So many names
Well only a few
But their weight
Dominates me.

I look at past mistakes
With no regrets
I've grown from the pain
Blood, sweat, and tears
I learned to work for it
I learned to work through it

I look at past mistakes
With no regrets
I tripped and fell
But avoided
Running off the cliff
That came next
I've learned from my mistakes
730 · Dec 2012
Lipton Tea
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
I drink lipton tea
And sit and think about what we could be
Soul searching like a ghost
Girl let me hold you close
Come with me quick
Before my pain ends this note

I drink lipton tea
And sit and think about what we could be
When financialy I could be the foundation
Me and you could multiply to fill our nation
Or seclude ourself from the world
It could be just me and you baby girl

I drink lipton tea
As I sit and think what we could be
Mentally we could already be
Bcuz I live with you in my dreams
In a blue painted house
With a black painted gate
I work from 5 to 9
And always come home on time

I drink lipton tea
As I sit and think what we could be
So at the end of this rhyme
We could get lost in time
Hoping the nay sayers never find us
So at the end of this rhyme
You can see what I see in me and you
The love we can make and things we could do
730 · Feb 2016
Do You Love Me For Real?
Jay Bryant Feb 2016
Do you love me for real?
At times I hate myself
I guess I need to learn to deal
With complications I cause myself
I couldn't care less about wealth
Just what's real
I feel you feel my words
When I'm speaking or you reading
I could lay with you every night
I stay with you every night
I've know I've done wrong
I'm living my life to make it right
I'm sure you've left me in your head
Just stay one more night
When the morning comes
Hopefully I'll rise with sense like the sun
I know loving you is fun
I know that your the one
Though with all that I've done
Even though that I've won
I can't help but wonder
Do you love me for real
Or will this relationship plunder
The thought hit me fast as lightning
It's screaming at me loud as thunder
This love is o so exciting
Though the thought of losing you frightening
I may plunder into the gutter,
and hit the darkest point of my life
like when I lost my mother.
718 · Jul 2013
Stop For Me
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave
I said, Ohh... I remember when you use to be mine
I said, Ohh..... Everything use to be fine
But then the green to red
You chose him instead
After You said Over and Over Again
Our Love Would Last To The End.
Now He Left You Again
Dropped Your Heart Out His Hand
Just Like You Left Me,
Oh The Irony....
(Chorus)
He Let You Go
Now you want me
But I've Changed This Time
I've Changed My Mind
You Say Your Heart Wants Me
But I Know Its a Lie
Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying To Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave
Now Lets Take  A Look See
At Before You Left Me
I Gave You Everything
Even Put Hot Water In Your tea
Then You Got Greedy
You Wanted More Then Me
You Found Him And
Thought You Found A Diamond Ring
When He Really Came Out A $.25 Machine
(Chorus)
He Let You Go
Now you want me
But I've Changed This Time
I've Changed My Mind
You Say Your Heart Wants Me
But I Know Its a Lie
Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying To Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave
Now You See Me In Your Dreams
Your Hearts Missing Me
You Want Me To Love You
But I've Learned Not To Trust
To Not Love
I'm No Longer Loves Fool.
I Won, You Lose
(Chorus)
He Let You Go
Now you want me
But I've Changed This Time
I've Changed My Mind
You Say Your Heart Wants Me
But I Know Its a Lie
Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying To Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave
708 · Feb 2013
Making Love
Jay Bryant Feb 2013
Taste sweeter than honey
Something better than money
Velvet to the touch
The feeling like you about to..
Sensations and red tinted rooms
Sheets wet, the bed is too
The pleasure of the Love
And the feeling of making love
Still feeling like your gonna....
Body shaking and legs go numb
Stairway to Heaven the climb has begun
678 · Feb 2014
Last Stop Motel
Jay Bryant Feb 2014
Their hearts are racing as their eyes lock, the car’s parked in front of The Last Stop Motel. They both know the plan, but their lips won't tell, they just stare into each other’s souls as they exhale. 1 black bag reveals a vial filled with their desires an hour of love and an eternity of mystics. One hour filled with passion, lamps crashing, to the floor, moans mixed with laughing. His **** swelling inside her and smashing against her walls, as her body slides abruptly against the wall, Faint sirens in the distance, but they feel its fate that they end it. The crime sprees and hiding deep within the trees, where the police can’t find them but their families can’t either, so he hides himself in her so deep she wants more even though that it hurts. The pains of life and pleasures of ***. Ooo she loves it when he ***** on her neck, she says he does it the best. Because when she can feel him inside her its like they connect. The cops draw closer as she rides far away, Her hips are moving in a circular motion and she gives it all she can, because she doesn’t when the potion is going to bring her to end, Sweat drips off her body on to him, he can taste the lust on her skin, he lifts her up, and sticks his tongue. Licks his name all over her flower, and grips her *** with so much power. She’s on the fast track to ecstasy, and neither one of them knows if its been close to an hour. And it doesn’t matter because her life right now is trying to hit her peak and she just might right now as his finger slips in between her cheeks. He prods around the **** hole as she pour out her soul all over the sheets. He flips her on her stomach she tries to say something but he interrupts with don’t speak. They lock eyes again and see that desire again so he know she longs for him to go deep. He slaps her *** and spreads her cheeks then licks her ***** all the way up and between her *** cheeks. Slaps his **** on her **** then rubs in some spit and jams it in softly. Wraps her hair around his hand pull backs and pelvic ****** forward and makes the bed creek. He gets into the rhythm then synchronizes with her heart beat. Thump, Thump, Bump, and Bump. Her insides are so good it raises him off his feet  So sweet like honey bees and this love seems to make time last. Even though he continues to **** her fast and slap her ***, until he feels her walls tighten around his **** and nectar pushing out of it. Her legs quivered and her tone is not none known to man the great elation of the ******* science has yet to understand. The door bust open as he bust over her ovaries, the swat team staring thinking how lucky is he. Then They drop in to darkness falling asleep both knowing this is how it was meant to be.
676 · Feb 2014
Clouds
Jay Bryant Feb 2014
You send me to the clouds,
And my mind beyond the stars.
Lost in this galaxy with you,
Yet I'm only in this universe for you.
So high you take me
Is this love or something more.
Love is concentrated feelings
And emotion that two share.
But it is always brief never forever.
Yet there is nothing more than love
Except for the love of a friend
Friendship last past grave.
It is found in the heart of many.
So I love to say you are my friend.
Poem from 2010
674 · Dec 2012
Elevate Me
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
Elevate to the 9th Degree
Thoughts fill the cloud
Then it rains out me
I fall through the air
Then drip down the leaf
Hits mother earth
Then bring life to a seed
Seeds of Revaluation
Seeds of Solution
In this day and age
These seeds are a nuisance
Words hit deaf ears and I fear
That death is near
Words of safety
Are words that plague me
I open my mouth
But they doubt
So they turn the other cheek
When I shout the truth
Wisdom is my sin
And if I lived it again
I would have did it again
674 · Dec 2012
Moonlit Nights
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
The moon lights the sky while cars past by
The trees blow in the wind
My stomach drops again
Building blocks block the clock Time stops
This distance hits me in an instant
Then my mind locks
Descriptive videos
Showing the funeral
Of all that is innocent
The ones that lived and died
Kind hearted minds
But once again were stopped in time
So a resistance to change the past
Won't last because the future won't come
Effort to persevere the present is persistent
So in a minute a month would have lasted
Because we can't me move forward
And we can't go backward
Our extortion of those who have
Abundant misfortune
Has finally found our worth
They've bought back their turf
Less than pennies we're worth
Our actions have hurt them
So our souls are worthless
670 · Feb 2014
Cold Blooded (Extended)
Jay Bryant Feb 2014
Echoes of piano keys, and the heartbroken whales of a goddess
Fathom the sounds, be honest
The truth is desperate, because lies are an endemic
This world has grown fulsome in tears, as the years wither away
Names ring in the ears of victims’ families’ each day
Faded concepts cause lifelong dismay
Justify the concoction spilled on the ground each day
Gallons of salty tears, and warm blood
Mix together in cold streets no love
Blind eyes and Deaf ears completely disappear
When despair is near,
When revelations take place, no secrets just faith
No escape, because hope is from a land far away
This land is filled with despair, but we’re all scared to drift away
To let the tides pull and push our dismay away
We’d rather suffer each day, than plant roots in a new place
Modern day slaves stuck in the Puppet Master’s game
Mentally we haven’t evolved since the Stone Age
Instead of attempting to change tomorrow we reminisce on the old days
On the old ways of humanity the insanity filled with greed, lust, and vanity
You see this is centuries of planning at a slow place
Playing their hand smart until they pull that one Ace
So keep your Poker face strong and your house full
Open your mind, let it be your tool
These ratchets are the setback stealing minds of young fools
“Spare the rod, spoil the child.”
I say this not to be cruel, but to teach what was not taught in school
Life is lived at your minds pace, so any measure of time is a waste
These signs represent the end of times, but the media tales you everything is fine
The media has failed you with their lies, impaired your mind,
Hides the cries of innocent victims most of them not nine, this world is a sick one
The nervous system of this country is numb,
We can’t see the truth, because we’re blind, deaf, and dumb
Yet Helen Keller had the compassion we could never
It seems all ties to reality, that is life, have become severed
It rains everyday no need to check the weather
Do you really believe Chemtrails are making things better?
These snakes and wolves are starting to get clever
As these sheep sleep peacefully,
I keep both eyes open hoping they’ll never get a piece of me
We’re all slaves and our souls are weighed equally
So I sit and meditate looking for peace within me
Violence can spin me, until I get dizzy, and throw up until my stomach is empty
It’s not envy, simply, just justice bubbling, it’s my guts rumbling
On the path to enlightenment I find myself stumbling
It’s quite puzzling, how can I love the ones who only show hate towards me?
I find myself voicing my opinion but they only ignore me
664 · Jun 2013
The Key
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
This rhythm echos through me
Vibes soothe my mind
Smooth lyrics
Leave me lost in time.
This beat moves through me
Moscato Fills my glass
As this feeling
Fills Me.
No Longer Feelings of Love
Tho I do Love
I am no longer in Love
I Love Her
Tho I also Love Her
She is either here nor there
When I need her she's never there
Tho, my feelings are always there
No one ever said love was fair
Well in Love love
Because
Other Love
Is Always Love
They keep me tight
Never letting Me Pop
Letting My Stitches Pop
They keep my screws tight
My marbles stay locked in placed
The Love my friends give is always tight
656 · Jan 2013
Slow Thoughts of Justice
Jay Bryant Jan 2013
Take it slow
The wheels turn
As the shotgun barrel burns
Society loses concern
For the ones who died yesterday
There's more dying today
Hope shrivels and withers away
Joy and Justice have descended away
Somewhere some place some how some way
My pen bleeds the blood
Of the victims slain in the mud
My words hold a grudge
So my views will not budge
,The majority lies in a secret sorority
Notorious for the notions against life
A hell bent flight with no oxygen light
This page is the white light
The ink shoots through the tunnel
My thoughts conspire in a huddle
Dive through hoops
Jumping over hurdles
Tho I try to take it slow and move like the turtle
636 · Dec 2012
Words Of The Wise
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
Words slowly flow from my mind.
Uniquely filling pages with thoughts,
That I myself have created.
They are hard to comprehend,
So people are slow to understand.
Confused and bewildered people are
Looking at the meaning of my words
Maybe to die does not mean death
But a broken heart instead.
Thinking outside the box
Is an escape for some
An escape from a cruel reality.
The reality of life cruel and long.
634 · Feb 2014
Courtney
Jay Bryant Feb 2014
Our friendship is more than love.
Unbreakable even by distance,
Like a gold and diamond chain.
It is forever changing it is the earth
Yet always strong it is a mountain.
A mountain covering the clouds,
And soon to reach the stars.
It is constantly growing.
Never shaking like an earthquake
Or twisting like a hurricane
It is me and you it is strong.
Poem from 2010
626 · Jul 2014
Happy Birthday
Jay Bryant Jul 2014
These years seem like days,
Can't seem to shake this pain,
Because I know things will never be the same.
I claim to be numb since you left me
Tho, I've grown in to a man since you left me
Sister gone so who's next to meet death,
But I'm here and I'm blessed
A man on his quest,
I'm alive, but I can't say my heart is beating
Feeling like the living dead.
Don't dwell on the words I've said
Even though every last one I've meant.
Happy Birthday and R.I.P. Momma
622 · Dec 2016
Prison
Jay Bryant Dec 2016
Yelling free my Negus.
They just be trying to eat, and make a living.
Now the 1% making a killing,
because my brothers stuck in private prisons.
We dying in these streets,
Crying behind steel doors.
Use your mind while its still yours.
Knowledge makes a man unfit to be a slave.
A quote the government still ignores.
They adore our culture,
Steal all they can from us like vultures.
Savages that only care about annual profit averages,
And the status quo.
Just know we gone make it through this sadness,
Learn your history so we won't repeat this madness.
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
As the wind spins the daffodils
My head starts to fill with reflections of you
Looking at the sky, wondering if I,
A mere peasant, could come close to you
I see you as Royalty,  
My heart no longer cares for me, Only you
A velvet color bleeds upon my chest
I sense you are different from the rest
Tho, this blood sticks to my skin
Reality is it comes from, within me
You slay me, constantly causing dismay
My heat is shaped for you, As if it is formed of clay
I am loyal to your eyes, I wear a mask
You can see through my disguise, only in the day
At night animal instincts arise, my howls crack the moon
How I yearn for you, I search for you, my heart cries to you
This piece you've given me won't suffice I need all of you
Capture your beauty into my life, forever a picture last
Tho, I dream to bring Kodak to life, if only for a night
When the beast preys on the innocent ones,
When the Sun is gone and the Moon has risen
Cover me in shadows and release night from prision
Endure my afflictions I will, If your willing to wait with me
Wait with me until your realize you love me,
These hues of colors are bright, Yes happiness
Will find us, If you stay with me
Until the waters run cold
The heat from our love
Is left to keep us warm
Just stay with me as the wind spins the daffodils,
And the plot thickens. Stick with me
When all is gone because or love must go on
Even if you don't know it yet.
622 · Dec 2012
Comprehend
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
My words are not understood by most,
like twister to one who is color blind. Unable to Comprehend
But sooner will my heart split in half
then I stop conveying my emotions on
this page. For the sounds of screaming
and the thought of grieving runs through my lungs and kidneys.
It is my very blood it gives me life
The desire to understand this
Is the desire of most men today
How is it that screaming gives birth
To the laughter that spews out of me
612 · Oct 2017
Untitled
Jay Bryant Oct 2017
I see yo heart looking for me.
You were on the straight and narrow.
Baby you went crooked for me.
Happiness you took it from me.
Though all I remember is all the times you was pushing for me.
Told me you was living for us.
Baby girl I'm dying for you,
Because every second that pass my soul is crying for you.
I see you from a far,
But when we're near my chest pounding I get to acting like you a star.
My brain says my love not up to Par.
Then all my thoughts go back to the day you crashed your car.
611 · Dec 2012
Rose
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
A rose is a gift of affection
Beautiful in every aspect,
And endurance is its asset.
Withheld from nourishment
Yet, It will not wither away.
When you behold its beauty
You cannot believe in its pain
Its pleasures ****** your brain
With enticement and excitement
Paving the way. Tears of Joy,
Are met with tears of met
When you touch the rose,
And the thorns have came.
They dig deep in your flesh
And make you feel
You have nothing left.
What a 360 this rose had made.
If only you knew its other nam
611 · Jul 2013
Love And War
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
I find that I'm at War!
My enemy has ambushed me.
I wish to fight back, but I must retreat.
My opponent knows my weakness
She carries it in her hand.

My heart, my weakness, her ally.
My heart has betrayed my trust.
My heart insinuates surrender.

I place my faith in my mind.
Tho, my thoughts are susceptible
To my hearts line of thinking.
I cannot win this war.

The odds are placed against me.
As each scenario runs in my mind.
I find myself running out of time.

I'm hurt I've lost a leg to a land mine
Passion took away what I stood for.
The war was lost, she has my love.
605 · Jun 2013
Life and Girls
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
I'm loosing my mind, I wish I could get my life tight
Times is hard, but its harder to get my life right
What do you have left when it goes wrong, not right?

I look to sky
My confidence is on the ground
Where's those girls you ******
When you need them around
Where's the ones you love
When hate is what you've found

The time is here, the time is now
Tho, the last time I mentioned time
Things didn't work out
Like a stain on my skin
Just rub it till it comes out
I guess hoes are in
Conservative females are out
Even the optically impaired
Know what I speak about

My eyes have seen it all
My mind reads it all
My Heart, Hmm I can't tell it all
Tho, It feels a lot
When I talk to these girl I call
I try to stand strong,
Love makes me fall
But I won't fall in Love
Because I love them all.

I love the ones I respect
Not just the ones who's legs I've stretched
Lusting for their essence not love just ***
Tho my heart grows weary to see who's next
Not next to lay with, Next to just lay with me
No ***, All respect, Longing to spend the day with me
These girls, This world, My Heart , But No Girl
Who's next to bring sunshine to my world
Jay Bryant Feb 2014
Whenever, Wherever, Whatever she wants.
She can have her way like that fast food chain.
She's chained to her lover, and wouldn't pick to be chained to another,
Because they have one another.
Prisoners of love hoping for a life sentence.
Sentence me to a life time with her and I want try for an appeal.
Her lips are appealing to my mind,
They're telling me yes so why not bump and grind.
Poem from 2010
597 · Jun 2013
Mars Meet Jupiter
Jay Bryant Jun 2013
I feel that I am trapped by my dreams
Trapped in my dreams,
These things I need
Well it seems I need,
I need a vision of my future
I see my past in front of me
My brain traps me
This bed traps
This women laying next to me..
But, wait its just a dream
Please don's ask me what this means
Mars meets Jupiter
But only in my dreams
Define for me the definition
Of the things soon to be
It doesn't seem soon to me
What are we to be, is she to me
I do not see the answer
I only see the truth
The truth is coded in my viens
These hearts beats share dialect with my brain
Thinking of her but is she thinking of me
Who can seee the innner me?
Life lays in my bed, but she is mean to me.
She whispers to me my past, my pain
Tickling her tongue with their names
Pounding at my bones hoping they break.
My past, My pain
Why won't it go away?
Visions haunt my pupils
I can still feel the pain.
Reoccuring, memories of suprressed memories
I remember when I compressed those memories
Left them deep within me..Now they lay in my bed
Like an old friend, smirking, "Suprised to see me"
The things I fear, well things I feared
Nothing left to fear, besides those memories
Fate giggles at me
Death Laughs at me
The furneral its in the past so dont ask me
I dream of my future
Please let me catch my future.
Mars meets Jupiter
I see this women but only in my future.
Dreaming of my past
I can't forget the future
Visions burn my pupils
My bed is empty
I'm alone
But not in my future
572 · Jul 2013
#9 Dear Girl
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
To the girl with the legs and the thighs
That distracts the minds of young men. Not knowing what older women know
That these men are not concerned
Nor concentrated with her opinions
Caring about nothing on her mind
Only what's between her thighs
Her ****** snatches their minds.
So they try to play her emotions
Toying with the way she feels
Fooling her deceiving her heart
Leaving her inebriated in thought
Thinking that she has what she wants
Not knowing that the game has started
A game of male and female, Confused?
She's distracted forgetting her teaching
Yes her mother tried to teach her well
She didn't learn about the deception
So enchanted by counterfeit love
She agrees to spread her legs
Believing she's making love
Tho, after her passion
He leaves her cold
No longer giving
Her what she wants
He's gotten what he wants
Pain penetrates her like nails.
She feels weak and fragile now
What can I say to this girl now?
570 · Jul 2013
"Relative Thinking"
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
I reside of the dark side of the internet
Wisely compiling knowledge
On how Mother Earth is being taken hostage,
On numerous projects that’s create statistics,
Promises of peace that seems far from realistic.
Numbers that count every human life
Without putting any real value on a humans’ life
You tell me, what life & its’ people have
Done to you…Well….
It's done the same to me too
Along with many others
But don't give up
My sisters & brothers
Look out for one another
This doesn't make sense
To fight & belittle ourselves
Don't you know?
That we originate from wealth,
Why must we endanger our health?
Be Labeled at risk….
When already
We're the number 1 target
On their list
I didn't come here… “To preach”
Leave that jazz to the bishop
“I Came To Teach…...”
This infection of deception that’s going viral
How do I know? Look in your bible
Read up on the world
Don’t sit or stand idle
Your life is in your hands
To survive you must understand survival
Is life worth freedom or freedom worth life?
Is it worth the pain the tears and the sacrifice?
By Jay Bryant and Grayson Bell
566 · Dec 2012
Thoughts Run Deep
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
Thoughts run deep
From my head to my feet
Everything starts to sink
Thoughts run deep
Tho, I'd rather suffer
Than suffer defeat 
My life is my choices
I can conquer my instinct 
An animal I was born
A man I have become
I've grown in stature 
Most importantly in wisdom 
The truth leaves me numb
I must suffer to overcome
A wise man's affliction 
Is knowing the world's dumb
Thoughts run deep
From my head to my feet
563 · Jul 2013
The Struggle
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
I gaze out my window,
And see poverty at its greatest.
Minorities co-existing, mingling,
Scraping up change to make pennies.
My stomach groans at witnessing this.

It sets a fire in my soul,
Momentum starts to burn.

How I yearn for the end of this struggle
Yet its all I know,
Leaving me with no place to go.
Striving to live since birth
This pain is my way.

This pain is my way
It sets a fire in my soul
Leaving me with no place to go.
Scraping up change to make pennies.
Momentum starts to burn.
Scramble my words.
559 · Mar 2014
Black Bird
Jay Bryant Mar 2014
The Wings of a black bird curves,
As he’s deterred by the winds resistance
Contemplating its exist, but his will to go on is persistent
You see, he doesn't know what’s to gain
Or if he’ll find truth in those old sayings
Disputing myths and pointing out counterfeits
Depicting things in the distance, like he has a sixth sense
Reading the fine print on prescriptions,
Vulture’s find their addictions from the God’s
Because they have plenty of victims.
More than ****** or *******, Crack is wack, Mary Jane causes no pain
Medicines that aren't natural **** humans like its casual
Causalities building faster than the words of Socrates
The FAD of the F.D.A. approving poison as food like aspartame.
Preachers teaching blasphemy, Reading scriptures inaccurately,
Tickling the ears of those that pay a dollar to hear
That Jesus is coming there’s nothing to fear
So they believe they’ll be long gone before destruction is near
Death is at the door, but evolution is around the corner
The revolution will have to hold them
No true solution to control them
You see we are the caged beings
They lock our brains in
Books of lies, and entertaining T.V.
558 · Jul 2013
Clear My Mind
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
Its time to clear,
My thoughts again
Betray my mind.
Betray my skin.

These thoughts of love
Leave me at wits end.
Please, end my faith
Or cease the martyrdom.

It could be complications,
Maybe some hesitation
My fist clench,
At the pure vexation.

My mind hates you
Because, my heart loves you
I'm not with you in flesh
But, I'm always thinking of you.

Stonewall these thoughts
I'm thinking of you
My mind hates you
Because, my heart loves you.
555 · Jun 2014
Spinning and Spiraling
Jay Bryant Jun 2014
Spinning..Spinning... I'm Dizzy
Ready to fall,
But I can't see the ground.
Voices in my head,
But I can't see a crowd.
Momma Momma,
Have I made you proud?
I made it to twenty-one,
But you can't see me now.
Can't fight this feeling
Can't hide this frown
Should I bite my tongue
Or rep my town

My Life
Spiraling...Spiraling
Down through the cosmos,
My life's odor is foul like halitosis
My heartbeat screams through the Galaxies
Paying my long distance
Soul searching fees.
In hopes that I can find you before my spirit leaves
In hopes that I find the right moment,
And I happen to seize it.
Just take my hand and squeeze it
Walk with me
While you tell me everything
Your pleased with,
I pray to the most high
On my knees quick
I have this stabbing pain
In my heart,
And the Dr's can't seem to ease it
I'm begging for peace of mind
I'm beating vocal cords
Making supplication to the nation
Wishing my agony
Would finally take a short vacation.

Sometimes I feel empty
Like my torso is Vacant
Though I've learned to live with it
So I appear to be complacent
You can't walk in my shoes
Our lives aren't adjacent
Your life's problems
Are only a day of my obligations
So you don't "Feel......Me"
That phrase is tasteless.

I wouldn't wish this
On my worse enemy
I know they can't take it
Can't stare in the mirror
At the reality I'm faced with.

No this isn't karma
That philosophy is basic
I don't want be here
But My Momma told me I can take it
My sister said in this life I can make it
So i'm climbing this tallest mountain
Just to tell them I made it.
552 · Feb 2013
Fairy Tales
Jay Bryant Feb 2013
I once believed in fairy tales
That in the end it would all end well
A good thought this is true
But what is one to do
When he see's he's been a fool
I once believed fairy tales came true
Now I know they don't but Nightmares do
Hearts break like glass plates
Heartaches and pains like artheris on winter days
Storm Clouds bring rainbows but they also bring rain
Falling upon the forgotten taking away there
Anguish finds us all even the mighty must fall
Hearts break like glass plates
They gave me the key, but its a combination safe
Locked doors hide history and more
What lies hidden beneath the floor boards
Deep within the basement
All the time that was wasted
All the love placed in different places
Yes this is a Nightmare,
But when day breaks
It still eats at you
Yes this is a Nightmare,
But what scares you most...
Is its True
I used to believe in fairy tales did you
546 · Apr 2014
Late Night Confessions
Jay Bryant Apr 2014
Eyes redder than the blood in my veins
I came with hopes and dreams, but only left with pain.
Who's to blame for this layer of filth on my skin you call shame.
A smell so putrid it's blocked out by my brain.
Take a walk in my shoes if you doubt my claim.
Gun to my temple so I don't have to aim.
I praise the most high but I'm still going insane
******* in my ear when I hear her name
Love her to death even after my grave
Ambitious like a stripper working late night to pay her tuition.
Who's to say its wrong if she's just using what God's given.
Educate her on life if you believe her views on dignity aren't right.
Could she stop even if she had an epiphany tonight.
Survive life without a bite to eat, or a place to sleep
Dignity is expensive but talk is cheap.
532 · Dec 2012
Blank Pages
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
A blank page is more then it seems
I deem this conundrum
Worthy of my dreams
This artist mind of mines
Spins twine elaborate thoughts combine
In this blank page I confide
Free from the feeling to hide
Judgement is mine
This blank page takes the time
To understand the riddle I write,
I ride this train of thought to the end
Something simple to begin
As this locomotive pushes forward
My motives coincide with my dreams
I award myself for assembling
This strategic scheme
From the bottom to the top
I designed these things
I'm not of this world,
I'm a higher being
529 · Mar 2013
My Report
Jay Bryant Mar 2013
I stand medicated yet firm in my statement,
These ideas become adjacent
Numerous problems I engage with
My hands find my hair Grip, Pull, Twist
So I throw on some smooth issshhh
Like Poetry over Heaven’s Melody
Sounds like seduction when I’m fussing
This music soothes my soul
When my belly’s filled with the Devil’s Pie
This music makes me whole
When there’s something missing deep down inside
When I get vexed I get down to ride,
Metamorphosis, in a moment’s time
Fear becomes a myth and death only by suicide
This comma, this dream, my life what does it mean?
In my time I’ve seen treacherous things
Scarred for life like your eyes were bleeding
Numb to the pain, but never blinded by what I see
Night terrors in the day, all that’s left is it to pray
Sometimes I seem to lose my way
Equilibriums shot what could it be?
They shot MLK and JFK, have they shot me?
I’ll cut off my hands, before a chip cuts off my soul.
Defecated times of my life, but I was born with goals
So I have to get this **** right, tonight
All have sinned, and fall short
So a few lines of courage I’ll snort
Sit here with my wine, and write this report
From personal experience, statistics, and public opinion
The world has become susceptible, and subdued by evil influence
To scared, squeamish, and sick in the head
To have the courage to say what needs to be said
They’ll regret it when they’re dead.
528 · Dec 2012
This love
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
Inspired by the gleam in her eyes
This love starts to grow,
But this will sure be my demise.
For the love has grown
From a cub to a lion
It has matured,
But has not grown old
Nor reached the golden years.
This love is young
This love is innocent
Not yet convicted,
For crimes it hasn't committed.
This loves is not,
A fugacious attempt for happiness
It is a lion waiting to roar
As cautious as a serpent,
And innocent as a dove
This love is mines,
And I am yours
523 · Jul 2013
Your Opinion Of Me
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
When you think of me do you think of what you feel or what you see? Do you just see the tattoos on my skin or can you feel what they mean to me. I am not a statistic or a numeral. I can not be put into any category for there is only one of me. Yet, two parts of me (Ying&Yan;;) My flesh that deceives you with a smile and a cheerful expression, and my soul which cannot tell a lie but can only cry and fantasize about not knowing the truth. "The truth shall set you free." if only these words were true to me.
521 · Jul 2013
Can We Fall In Love Again
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
Can we re-ignite the fire,
That once consumed our soul.
Can we bring to life
The emotions we felt so long ago.
Can we hold strong
To the words we once said.
Refill the rivers
That our love once fled.
Can we bring to light,
The things that are now dark.
Dig deep down,
And illuminate our hearts.
Can we reverse,
This pain we hide inside.
Or has the seed
We planted, withered and died.
Can we fall in love again?
519 · Jul 2013
Past, Present, Future
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
The love i give to her. Once again i think of her
If only she of thought of me, I wonder if she thinks of me?
More than bruised by my past, cut deep. Tho, I know this love is placed deeper within her.
I envision her not just in my future, but happily living with her until the end that’s forever.
Finding myself presently wishing she was present with me. Or that her presence was abundant in present day and time.
Previously my days were spent wishing i had more time with the girl I was previously with.
Feelings for that girl were prevalent in my heart, but they didn't help the mend cracks at all.
Tho, she looked past the fractures and fought to find how to mend my broken heart.
Ripping past infractions and infringements pitting me against her clean out of me.
How these thoughts of her entreat me, tho, I won't let myself be defeated.
Time strives to lead me away from her to break my devotion to her.
I will not abdicate my rights to her, so I endeavor and think of her.
If only time would past so I could meet her and forget my past.
Meet my future so I can my abandon my past.
I know if I meet her this love will last.
511 · Dec 2012
Let Them Learn
Jay Bryant Dec 2012
All kids of today seem to say
"I already know, I'm grown."

So let them see the world
Not what they watch on tv.
Show them the struggles of life
So they know that its not easy.
Tell them that I'm hungry
Yet,my refrigerator is empty.

Life's not what they believe
So let them strive with problems
Then hope they see.
Turn them down profusely
When they ask for wants not needs.

Poverty equals suffering
There's a long road for change
But this kids must know
Life's not all fun and games.
Observe their wrong doing
Then proceed to say

"I only hold my tongue to let you learn. Your mistakes and pain will be your teacher. "
510 · Jul 2013
A "Good Home"
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
I wonder if I was born
Into a "good home."
Would my life be
For the better
Or maybe I'm wrong.

Automatic assumptions
Deeming ones dealings
Right or wrong by his associates.
Tho, how can they judge family.

You may not consider
They I was raised as being
Substantial ones means of living
Were harsh,poor, impoverished
But, what material needs I lacked
I found that love substituted them.

Now I may not be raised best,
And I have been through stress,
But I can cope with the tragedies
Of this world, this life, this time.

I've been equipped with strength
I won't fold, crack, bend, or break
Under pressure or adversity.
What is a run uphill to the one
Who lives on the mountain?

So before you pit me against
Your standards your rules
Your regulations and your test.

Take a walk in my shoes
See if you can live my life without
Compliant, and go through my pains
And struggles of the day to day world.
Consider my options and take into
Account my life and my family.
Will you crack under the pressure?
507 · Feb 2014
Breathe
Jay Bryant Feb 2014
Time stops when I'm near you,
My heart races at the thought you.
My love for you is forever present like oxygen.
Taken for granted at times yet,
You're always reminded of it when you forget to breathe.
My breath grows shallow when you're in my arms.
Slowly it lightens until its mere shadows of your own
All that can be heard is our hearts beating.
My heart beats with yours until your heart stops.
I can hear my heart alone but I feel a light thud against your back.
Is my heart beating to loudly or yours to softly.
Poem from 2010
506 · Jul 2013
Dreaming
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
Closer,
I need her closer to me,
She seems to pull away
Except when I am dreaming
Her presence is always fleeting
If only this could be something more.
Evolve in to something meaningful
Well to her, because it means to me.
What gives me the gumption?
When I see her I hear a song
Not full of words just melody
Words are meaningless but,
Feeling means everything.
I feel her, she feels me.
Our love fills our life.
And we live happily.
My perfect reality.
Is just a dream.
I live for this
I live for my
Dreams.
504 · Apr 2016
Questions to the Darkness
Jay Bryant Apr 2016
  *
Twenty-four hours in a day,
Though these nights feel longer as I lay.
Like an orange I wish I could peel off my face.
I count each breath, while my heart begins to race.
Coffee and lectures get me through the darkness.
This ride of emotions got me looking car sick.
Knots tied in my throat. This Boy Scout’s lethargic.
Steady sipping cough syrup to numb the harshness.
Combing through empty bags for crumbs,
Long periods of sobriety make me feel like a lunatic.
It’s crazy how you can feel homesick for years.
A *** at heart, my home is flooded with tears.
I’ve seen the light I always feel my death is near.
Headlights glaring and I’m stuck staring like a deer.
Dear world,
Will you miss me?
Will the Grimm Reaper kiss me?
Shrouded in darkness could this be the abyss I see?
On my knees praying it’s the sun I see.
On my knees praying I see a son whose just like me.
Dear Darkness,
Will you ever leave?
Am I walking through this life blind,
Because of you or because of me?
Will I see the light before my son sees me?
Is this pain that ails me hereditary?
Is it necessary?
Dear God,
Will you ever bless me?
Cease to test me?
Am I Job?
Will ailments continue to infect me?
If scientist dissect me will they find out why my heartbeats?
Dear Son,
You are my future heartbeat.
I will walk in darkness if it helps you see light.
It’s not all about strength in the psychical.
You can’t always see might.
It’s the fire in the dog that controls its fight.
I have no questions for you.
I only question If I’m doing right. *
502 · Jul 2013
O.B.E.
Jay Bryant Jul 2013
"PAUSE!"
Momentarily ceasing my reality.
Presenting me the opportunity
To dissect this somber situation.
Peering into a dimly lit room
I find myself sulking,
Pondering in a depressive manner.
What is my affliction?
I cannot truthfully answer this.
Tho, I am slowly
Digging this hole deeper.
Tho, I know I am alive
I ask "Have I died?"
"Play!" I say to myself
But my life is still paused.
Can I animate the corpse
I have become,
Or has this opportunity decayed?
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