They're cruel and mocking
Lying deep within
Cracks that shake my very foundation

They push everyone away
Lock my hope
Lacerations in abundance

They're not what define me
I choose to be and do better
I choose to smile

When everyone's gone
The foundation isn't left empty and alone
For that which plagues me comforts

My demons though wicked and sadistic
Love me and refuse to be denied
They're not what define me but a part of the very foundation itself
Alas, even when I'm all alone, I never truly am
For my demons though cruel keep me company

To the shed
Lock away faded scars
Sealed away with a weak smile

To the shed
Dark  and humid just like back then
Reminisce in the silent shadows

To the shed
Albums to heavy to lift
Yet to fragile to throw

To the shed
Agonize and weep
Smile and laugh

To the shed
What lunacy lies there?
A tiny yet amazing sanctity

Inside beaten boxes and dust covered duffles
Lie cherished memories and never forgotten friends
In the shed
Are treasures most will never understand

**** people, literally and figuratively
Be yourselves because nothing's promised in this life,
Not life,
Not death,
Nor happiness nor agony

So live life to the fullest,
To please the only God y'all should give a **** about;
Yourselves

Be happy,
Be sad,
Be in agony,
Be in love

But above all else,
Continue to be human because you only have one life
And no amount of regret or wishful thinking will turn back the sands of time

And time itself is fleeting,
Ever more reason to enjoy life while you can

Sweet, tender lullabies
Of glass dreams
And bitter ends

Don't they pull at the strings
To spit in your face
The sadness of reality

Reality
Unlike fairytales
So raw and unapologetic

To heed the false lyrics
Or succumb to bitter truth

Won't you be herded
Why choose to fall into despair
To choose agony over sweet, sweet dreams of aspirations

The Great will fall
The Failures shall rise
And what once was, will never come to be again

Lines are being drawn,
Sides being chosen
As unity self-destructs for rebirth;
What is true?
What is a false illusion?

The righteous, the evil, and all the in-between,
None will matter as Humanity's worse is dragged out unto the daylight

No more secrets
No more denial
There's no where to run

So I'll embrace this shitshow
This sick joke of reality, with open arms
I'll draw my own lines and choose my own side
Not for victory, do I take a a steeled step forward;
I will not fight for self-righteous falsehoods
But for my own freedom to simply be

Simply being and letting be,
Something that the world seems to have forgotten

Oh won't you save the dying star
Twinkling weakly
The light begins to fade

Is God displeased?
How is silver less than gold?

A falling angel from the heavens
Is the star meant to be forsaken?
For its inability should it be forgotten?

When at Earth it smashes
Who is to blame?
God?
The Earth for its natural gravity?
Or the failed beacon for falling?

Lights flickering
The bulb ain't broken
Powers still surging

Hope, love, what is power?
To shine through the dusk

A crack or two
The bulb's still holding
Flickering though it may be

Is it the sun within
That keeps it lit?
Or perhaps the beat inside that keeps it pulsing?

Though there is no source
Perhaps that brings upon the flickering
A purpose or possibly even a sin
What will it take to keep it steady?

Lies
They're nothing but empty words
A faux smile that even you fell for
It's nothing but lies

The internal screams
The blistering hate underneath
You want to cry, to scream
You do not know what love is
All you know is power and survival

Embrace the devil within and succumb to the truth
You do not want acceptance
You want annihilation

The guide and savior of the Lost Lambs
But who saves you?
The comfort and messiah of the broken
Yet who shall liberate you?

Liar
Your strength is nothing but a weak reflection
Your true might lies within the shadows
Cry and scream! This too is fine
Abandon the smiles and gentle touch
You need not lie to yourself
It's fine

Liar
You preach love and try to live by the word
Yet you cannot deny the self loathing
Beneath the surface smoldering, suffocating you
Embrace the pain, the hate, the rage
This too is love
But above all else, stop lying to yourself

A forgotten relic
Only recalled through fear
The anxiety and terror is it enough?

To establish power
Fear, weakness, and hopelessness is essential

Fear salvation
Fear hope
Fear the light

Tis all a lie to give a false God
There is no salvation
Nor any hope

What is integrity
What is honesty
What is honor??

A lie
A dream
A false illusion

Cry from the nightmare
Cry from reality
Cry from life

Love, thy double edge blade
Pierces the depths of my soul
It sets the world a' blaze
The warmth that thaws even my frozen heart

Yet, thy blade destroys the equilibrium
It makes me impulsive, reckless, fearless of the abyssal darkness
How can one not be consumed by the temptation of the warmth?
The flames that light up the night, are also the flames that consume all reason

Oh love, thy embrace is as wicked as it is salvation itself
Is this madness?
Is this real?
Why does the beat of my own heart surprise me?

You wicked fiend, although bittersweet
I'm grateful to feel such warmth
Oh love, my double edge blade

What causes it?
For reality and delusions to get warped into one

Is it the crippling solitude of the darkness?
Is it the heavy weight of abuse?
Or perhaps the decay of never being seen

When does the soul die?
Does it die when shrouded by abandoned night,
Does it die when no one sees the life that beats?
Or perhaps does it die, when there's no love to be found

A slow descent it is,
One stained by unseen tears, unheard howls....

Is it madness to succumb to the one true love,
The one that accepts all,
Understands everything,
But still embraces you

Ah', the pain, it turns to pleasure
How it aches with life
I no longer feel cold....

I feel nothing but bliss, so please, my new friend
Don't abandon me
You and darkness are all I have left