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Javier Garza Oct 2015
Love is a dungeon. Through trial and error do many find the way out and see the sun shine so bright that it warms their souls. And a gentle breeze kisses their face, a sign that they're no longer alone. Others, however, plunge in deeper into the abyss. They take the wrong turns and end up deeper in the dungeon. Eventually, they're submerged in darkness, feel the sharp claws of madness, and the cold voices of the lost and forgotten. Millions roam the massive prison, yet they never find one another; only walk further and further to Hell as it awaits them at the bottom to liberate them of the cold betrayal of being unloved.
Javier Garza Oct 2015
Amongst the masses I smile
But that smile doesn't reach my eyes
Surrounded by my friends
I've never felt more alone

These silent pauses where my eyes get clouded
Are the times when the truth begins to leak out
Are the malevolent thoughts that wreak havoc upon me seen?

Sitting here with those close to me
The feeling of isolation sets in
Just how lonely I've let myself become
My eyes analyze and dissect all,
Is someone dissecting me?

Who am I truly?
When I cry in the dark
And laugh with company
Which broken shard is truly me?

Philosophy defines me well
Perhaps it is this great mind that thinks too much
Why I'm broken and abandoned
Why I try to act on instinct
So that I won't be alone

Many facets reveal different aspects of me
Some see someone strong and brave
Others see a broken child child weeping for love
Which broken edge is who I am?

Beating hearts all around
Warmth radiates off of them
Their own demons locked away
They too hold fake smiles
I see the cracks
I sympathize when I see they too, have broken shards
These shards unite us all
As well as keep us trapped in the hell of solitude
Javier Garza Oct 2015
If I fade,
Who will notice
If I die,
Who will care

These wounds that bleed,
Oh can't you see?
They aren't scars,
But gashes from which I'm being drained

If I cry,
Who will wipe my tears away
If I fall,
Who will pick me up

These lies I weave,
You just can't see
Fall into this façade,
And you will let me decay

If I scream my demons out,
Who will listen?
If I drown in crimson stains of mistakes,
Who will save me?

These monsters that lacerate my being,
You just don't see,
The dark that lurks behind my eyes;
You'll only see when the little old me finally dies
Javier Garza Sep 2015
I just bear through and endure because after the dark storm that tempts me with false promises of sweet release, I realize that after the dark storm, the clouds part to reveal the sun or moon and shine light and hint on a beauty that says that it gets better.
Javier Garza Aug 2015
My life is just an extended poem. I'm a philosopher, artist, poet and a being with secrets hidden. When I decide to open up, the richest words come out, the deepest lines are said.
Javier Garza Aug 2015
It's how I feel all the time. As if I stand alone even when I have friends who care and will defend me, I feel as if I can't trust them. That even though they'll expose their soul, heart and darkest secrets, I can't because they simply won't understand, care, or see how I feel. I'm in a prison and my cell is my mind. My warden is the solitude that seals the pain hidden behind the silver scars I have. Each tear shed is just a sign of weakness I must hide from all because if I show that I'm human, feel, care, love, hurt, and cry, everyone will be disappointed and look down at me. That I can't shred their image of me. That I am strong enough to be their Savior, when in fact, I'm slowly crumbling in the dark. And the only proof of it would be hidden within my art, poetry, and silver mistakes.
Javier Garza Aug 2015
I have a shriveled and bitter soul of an aged being, but the heart of child
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