I won't speak out of term
This pain sealed within I will hide
Just to make you happy, just to keep the peace

I will not show weakness
These tears  I shed, I'll hide from the world
This I do to show you strength, to appease you

I will not rebel
This poet and artist will remain to the shadows, dormant from all
Just to not catch your sinister eyes
Just to not be hated

I will not be happy
This homosexual will remain dead
Just to not cease to exist
Just to be noticed

This life I will not cherish
I'll seal the casket to fall asleep
Just to escape the searing pain that you give
Just to at atast, obtain peace

You dig them up from the grave, you send them to break my resolution
You always bring on the streams of pain

Never once cared to show love
You're a rusted blade that digs deeper with every insult

You bring down my masks
Show the true face behind the smiles the laughs
Breaking down my walls is what you do

Never once did show pride in me
You cut through the stitches
Reach the veins to slice them all

You make me back to that little boy who wanted love
******* me down
You take my strength away is what you do

Always bringing rage in the end, its all been about you
As you burn deeper into my bone your thirst rises

Rage is what you instill in me, leaving behind a shadow of resentment
You put out the fire which I worked so hard to light up is what you do

Never bringing hope, always at the bottom  of the darkness
You're just another rusted blade
Another cursed scar

All I ever wanted was to be protected
To have someone who could defend me
All I ever did was fight on my own
A war of all against one

Always thought I needed no one
Didn't think I could be so weak again
But seeing you proved me wrong
Where were you when I needed you?
Did you not care that your son fought the world alone?

Wore the mask each day
Told the lies to everyone
Until even I believed them
But the nightmares came,
Where all I had was myself
No one to show me what it meant to be a man

With no role model,
I found my own path
I pretended to not care,
But instill cried when I heard you never wanted me, you left me for them

You as much as my mother both broke before I could even stand
You took away my parents
Left me to myself
Stole the arms which were meant to hold me when the storm came

Well the storm had passed
And I still needed you
But now, it's I who doesn't want you
So leave again
You're a stranger
Nothing but another disappointment
Just a long forgotten nightmare

Lost myself, fell from once mighty throne
Became a fragile glass boy
Yet I never gave up
Kept on fighting
Even if in the end I made mistakes

Always hidden, mysteries that held power
Lost it all as my castle crumbled
I became human
Yet I still fought this war
Belligerent as ever, I strove to win
Although I only ended losing almost all that I love

Always smirking, confidence on display
All faded away
As the truth arose
It was all fake, lies I made to stay strong,
Still cried when I accepted the truth
Still stood as tall as possible,
Awaiting the next challenge,
Even though I failed

Once feared and hated,
Others began to sympathize when they learn of my silver scars,
The weakness was on display
And I began to seek help
Let those in who loved me
Put each broken glass back together
Still cracked, but strong enough to stay together

When will you learn to keep your mouth shut?
Continuously you shout and spit on others.
Don't you see that that which you hate the most is what you really are?
A ****,a  loner, a bully.

Ever wonder why you're so alone?
It is because all you do is lash out and sting those who love you.
Anyone wishing to get past your barriers, you strike without remorse.

Finished crying out your eyes?
Bending to the will of the blades?
Confirm what we all know.
You're weak and a coward.
Too selfish to see beyond yourself.
Happy now that you have no one?

When will you see things as they really are?
You are nothing.
Only a broken waste of space.
The ones that you love, also loved you.
An ungrateful *****.
Do you honestly believe that bleeding will keep them here?

Are you finally pleased?
You lost everyone that could possibly love you.
Now that you have nothing.
Not even the blade to comfort you.
What will you do?
Dying would be too easy.
Not enough punishment.
So live a life that is dead and filled with agony.
You brought this upon yourself.

Favoritism, what a great way to treat kids
Pick your favorite, forget the others
Make them hate themselves
Let them cry alone in the night

The twinkle in the eyes,
The twinkle that shows pride
How that mere thing can be something for which a man yearns the most
He'll never have that twinkle
He'll never make anyone proud

Pretend they don't exist
They start to believe it
They begin to bleed just for someone to notice
No one loves enough to stop the bleeding

Insult after insult
They hide the bruises
The cracks it makes on the soul
No one sees them drown in their depression

Parents leaving when children start to die
Returning to find the undead
The gods of the past
The protectors of the young
They are not God
So ask Him for forgiveness

Notice who they've become
See their marks
See that fire that makes them fight
The pain didn't shatter them
Just left them forever scarred

You ruined my childhood
Set the road for adulthood
You showed no mercy
Expected me to feel no pain

You messed up my thoughts
Didn't care that this war was pushing us apart
You had no remorse
Thought I wouldn't suffer

Favoritism was your way of raising us
You had no idea the blade had taken me
Wanted me to not complain and agree
Wanted me to live without a heart

You drank most of my life away
Couldn't see my pain and blood stained shirts
Alcoholism was your answer; you led me to my crutch
Blood is the price paid to not feel pain

But now the years have made you weak and soft
Think that you can treat me the same but expect more
Don't you see that the gap is too wide now?
You've taken my innocence, heart, and soul

Stripped me of my humanity and yet you expect and angel
The least favorite and strongest of the three was always me
Now you hope for your son back
Your pain has molded me into a monster

Keep on denying me, lie all you want
All you're achieving is losing the only only person and ever knew and loved you
You're lies and secretes will come to the light. you've lost your son, you lost his love

Now you demand love and compassion
Don't care for the struggle I'm suffering
You fear what you've created, you fear me
And its my turn to be selfish, it's my turn to end my life
You brought this on, you're the one to blame