Coffee won't cure the ache

And pills remind me of us

Just be kind tonight

Let me sleep inside your arms

Spare me
I am too afraid of the blood
Too afraid of the pain
Until our words stop fitting each other's
I will wait
Numb and tired
Of this gray piece of time
Until our eyes becomes hallow
Like four shallow tunnels
I will cry on your shoulder and plead your name
I will wait
When *** is the only pleasure
Pointless pleasure
The single perfect treasure
I will give it up because my head will be cleared
And it will all be clearer than the last day
Because nothing will remain for us
Aged and withered away
Until then I will wait
And as a child I would wait
For my tooth to fall out
Patiently
For it to happen naturally
It dropped into my hand
With no disturbance at bay
I loved feeling the root decay
Funny how things happen in that way

A feeling of failure fell over her shoulders as the medicine went down. It went away as quickly as it came when all that needed to matter didn't need to matter

          right away

Ignorance is bliss for those who don't see, and if they saw

what a dissapointing sight that would be
          Unapologetic
                   As long as no one was around

          Pathetic
                    Let the medicine go down.

A feeling of failure fell over her shoulders as she saw her future like
steps
below her
feet
One by one          Your day will come          Just follow your dreams

Dreams of success so sweet
                       "the day will come for me"
Her body like fluff in the chair

Then a familiar comfort of mindless bliss caressed her everything

E a s y

          So she didn't need to care

Cotton candy clouds
Fill my throat with cement
I want to be the moon
I'd like to be somewhere else

When birds sing into my window
I float in an ocean of sheets
I would drown in them if I could
Alone alone alone

When the day becomes golden
I wish I could love it for myself
I'd hide it from the world
Alone alone alone

When dark streaks of clouds illuminate
And the streets becomes calm
I'd like to be as smooth as the warmness in the breeze
I wish I was the moon
I'd like to be somewhere else

If I could bury me down into the earth
If my toes became roots
My arms, strong branches
My soul would not be still

I would fly into the godly skies
Clouds of yellow, gold and rays of light
And I would compress this all
With my two bare hands
Alone alone alone

My tears cover you like a storm
Washing you with burden and guilt
They soak into your skin, your eyes are stones
So many times I scream into voids
My words are wolves rabid, needing to feed
Needing to bite
And they would chase you away for good

I can't seem to ring you out of me
Or the words you forgot you said
It all weighs down on my breaking heart
Your words meant nothing as I bled
If only I could pull the emotions right our of your eyes so I could read them like a novel
But they are not mine to keep
When change comes so quickly
It won't always set us free
So we will hold our breath and hold our hearts
Because there is a dark heaviness in these words that we speak

Something strange happens in my head
A worm that digs thoughts deep
Deeper, twisted thoughts that I dread
I live for all your faces
The ones that only I see
Then I imagine all your faces
For a girl other than me
And I want to apologize
For this and for that
My mind is toxic, the worm is sick and
I know you love me, I know it's true
But I want to apologize
For being the one who tied you