A lot of things I fear
I'm going to see it through
My blood, sweat, and tears
It ain't going to be in vain
The chaos will end too
Once I let go of the things in the way
So much I'm not proud of
But I'm moving forward now
Time to never look back
I've had enough
I'm going to smile instead of
Always wearing a frown
It's a wonder the way I looked
Before wasn't stuck in place
The world is mostly bleak
But I'm going to make the most of it
Put what matters first in my life
I know the heavens has the key
To dispel the darkness
And in return bring on the sunshine

The pressure is on
I feel torn
No where to go
Can't step to the flow
It hurts to ponder
Wonder
Why I turned out the way I am
I try the best I can
But it seems like it's not enough
I act tough
Though deep inside I'm unaware
Just exactly why I'm scared
I walk this road all alone
Trying to find a place to call home
My thoughts over reach their bounds
What comes around goes around
Karma has a way to unfold
It's justice prevails I'm told
And I have experienced it first hand
It something I don't quite understand
But it's still there to judge me
Only darkness I can see
Can't escape this spell
I'm living in hell
I cry out to release this pain
But it just won't quite go away
Something is haunting me from the inside
I just feel like I want to cry
Curl up in a ball on my couch and die
My heart weighs heavy with despair
It seems like I'm lost out there
In my insanity I cringe
I can't seem to escape this sin
All along it was my insidious Hyde
Torturing what's left of my mind

You asked me to love you
It was that look in your eyes
It told of a shattered existence
Lonely and afraid
Oh, how I knew the way you felt
I felt the same not too long ago
It was lust at first sight
But once that was over with
We didn't have much in common
Life took on a new meaning once
Our daughter was born
I had to pull up my pants
And become a man quickly
But I failed utterly
Nothing I did seemed right
You knew all the answers
And God forbid I spoke my peace
Years collided with one another
And I blinked and our daughter was three
Even after years of being together
You never gave me much credit
So love faded
And I became ill with contempt
Resentment
And anger
Not a pretty picture for our daughter
I just wish I was in love with you
But unfortunately I don't think I ever was
You moved your things in
Never asked me if you could stay
Just assumed everything would be okay
And you would live your life forever with me
I made you feel comfortable
As comfortable as can be
We made passionate love
Hot
And heavy
Steamy
Sticky
Love
But
I was no where near a commitment
You seemed like you didn't care
Then you got pregnant
Two fools who were unaware
Things changes
I have changed
You seem like you're staying the same
Demanding
Controlling
*****
Trying to tell me where to **** in the woods
I don't think it will ever work out
Between us
So I must let you go
I've kicked you out three times
Each time accepting you back
Because of some ungodly reason
Each time I felt sick
Because I knew deep in my heart
That I really didn't love you
Now this last time we're threw
No more games
I have to let you go

Moreover,
It is difficult to love
Without strings.
I'll do anything
To feel a part of,
But in your eyes
Is that enough?
I'll bring you the stars
But is that going too far?
Am I grabbing at air,
Only to find you're not there,
No more?