have you ever been betrayed?
it's a silly feeling
it's one where you can't decide
if you're happy you had so many memories with them
or
where you're puzzled,
because you don't know
if those memories were even
genuine

"are you mental?"
are you mental?
are you mental?
are you mental?
are you mental?
are you mental?
are you
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are you-
am i?
am i mental?
well, darling.
let's find out.
a game, perhaps
you ask if i'm mental?
are you?
that's the real question
questions,
questions
you were a question
you were a blink of an eye
so am i mental?
or am i extraordinary?

where do you
place
lavender,
between right or
left?

one day
we stayed up
'til 3:45 am
talking and
sending stupid pictures
and then you said
good night
and i couldn't sleep

i
i guess
i’m not her
i’m nothing to you
i’m nothing to them
i’m not her
i guess
i

you're clever enough
to make me fall

the soft glow of stars in the background and
the sweet scent of lavender with traces of
ink?

the night's sun
was bright
but i can't decipher
if i'm looking at you or the moon

i keep forgetting you exist
the memories we shared are still prominent in
my soul

i drew something on my hand for you
just so you know
but in the midst of all of the things happening
water washed stars away
and disease washed me away from you

i would love to say that i'm not held down by you
but chains don't fall off so easily, do they?

how are you so bitter
but so sweet at the same time?

the quiet squeaks of her sneakers against the floor
and the green aroma of flowers covering her
tracks

how do you
describe
the glittering eyes
of sequins
and
pink skies

maybe if a hand reached out to
save me
i wouldn't be in so
deep

the essence of
fresh pastel pink
and the voices of opera singers
covering the distant
background

one day i'll
remove my chains and
leave

they said
"can't erase what i wrote in ink"
but i wrote in
tears

digging through the
closet
and finding
old memories and
feelings scribbled
in short sentences
and stanzas