you ever get that feeling
here you’re
unsafe?
it’s quite confusing
but yet unfusing
where you feel as if
you’re floating
but you’re about to fall
you ever get that feeling
where you’re
unsafe?
i do
don’t you?
it’s quite weird
i can’t tell
is it the fact I’m next?
i can’t put it into context
it’s not much fun
yet so silly
unsafe?
i can’t quite tell,
are you unsafe?
are you?
i whisper
i can’t
i don’t
know
you ever get that feeling
where you’re
unsafe?

the spice of cayenne
and fragrances of
depression
but in the background
sounds of
happiness

i can’t breathe
his cold eyes stare
into mine
i don’t want you
i cry out
helplessly
oh but darling,
he whispers
the heart wants
what the heart
wants
oh but what if
i don’t want you?
i murmur
i can’t breathe
his cold eyes stare
into mine
i cry out
helplessly

dear angel,
i've been meaning to ask
how do you survive
in this hate-filled world?

you and i
but this time it's only
me

sometimes she wonders why
there's so many scars tattooed across
her flesh
and so many bandages in the trash can

you turn your head towards me
your blue eyes
pierce my soul
constricted pupils
cause my heart to jump
you always jeopardize
my feelings
but i know you
and you are a blessing in
disguise
yet i
i
am a pack of lies

lately, i just feel
irritated
but i can't let the facade drop
i'll stay 'happy'
i'll stay 'calm'
but it's never going to work forever
this
this i already
know

the countless whispers
asking for me
but i don't want to leave

my revelation :
i'm sorry for what thing i've done
whatever it was, whenever it was
honestly, i don't even quite know what i did
to make you hate me so much
so what i'm the youngest?
so what that you think i'm acting 'quirky' or 'funny'
i'm not
i never was
the only thing i was ever acting about
was being happy

a flicker of a star
a glimmer of the moon
a fragment of love
a remnant of hope
a shred of picture
a sliver of memory
never to come back
because you left
us
to be in the pearly but
twisted
galaxy
you left
me
to be in the
star-speckled
heavens
i will miss you
when
no one else
does.

one time
the sun exploded
and you couldn't look at me
anymore

i assumed that you meant everything was okay
and looking back
everything was not okay

once upon a time
i wanted you and now i realize
i didn't need you

the soft glow of stars in the background and
the sweet scent of lavender with traces of
ink?

the night's sun
was bright
but i can't decipher
if i'm looking at you or the moon

have you ever been betrayed?
it's a silly feeling
it's one where you can't decide
if you're happy you had so many memories with them
or
where you're puzzled,
because you don't know
if those memories were even
genuine

sometimes i can come on too strong but
i wish you would stop shying away