amanda

amanda Dec 2020

onus

i stopped asking
why you hurt me
and started asking
why i let you

amanda Dec 2020

i didn’t want goodbye

if there was a word
other than
goodbye
that meant
choosing myself instead of you

i would have used it

i hate that this
is what i need

amanda Dec 2020

until you

i’ve always known
how to be
a fantasy

i didn’t know how
to have one

lili

you taught me
how to crave the taste
of someone

and to be honest,
i still do

amanda Dec 2020

goodbye

if sunsets
have taught me
one thing

it’s how to expect
the sunrise

as sad as it is,
i don’t cry over
goodbyes anymore

and that includes
you

we served our purposes
in each other’s lives

amanda Dec 2020

up, up and away

like a feather
falling gracefully toward
your lips

every time we got close,
you blew me up, up and away

you had to know
it was only a matter of time
before a breeze would
come along to carry me
up, up and away
from you

amanda Dec 2020

wanderer

tell me how
she has a soul so large
it fits into nothing
but a suitcase

covid’s been hell
for all of us

but especially for those
of us who feel lost at home
and most at home when lost

amanda Dec 2020

no one

you always said
no one deserves me

i just never imagined
you could ever be
no one