the way i love you
makes me doubt
that i ever loved them

i didn’t know
how to love you
when you first made
your name known—
my heart was missing pieces
from him

two years later
and i’ve carved your name
into pieces of me
that i didn’t even know existed

you like the way
my charm
traps everyone
in my palm

i like the way
you’re not
everyone

i ask you
if i can breathe in
your air

and normally that would feel
like your lips on mine

but we aren’t normal,
are we?

so we stand
just close enough
to feel each other
exhale

sometime past sundown
i want you
to want me
too

is it dramatic to say
that i’d rather
one perfect year
alive with you
than sixty more
without?

it was never going to be fair
that his brand of magic
is just intangible enough
to entrance me

and just tangible enough
to make her
his sidekick