amanda

amanda Aug 2020

for the first time
it doesn’t feel like
i’m falling in love

you and i
are just walking into it

hand in hand

amanda Aug 2020

his smile
wouldn’t be one
that i’d ever get to kiss,
but his eyes—
those eyes taught me
that there’s no such thing
as a wrong turn

just detours
and scenic routes

amanda Aug 2020

the night

i looked down
twenty three stories

tears in my eyes
legs shaking

every intention
of falling head first

you see— i was just so tired
of having to land
on my feet

so many people
are so tired
of having to be so strong

amanda Jul 2020

why i no longer hate your girlfriend

i may have despised
for the longest time
that she was your sun

but you’re my moon

and i guess what
i’m trying to say is—

every one of my nights
would be darker
without her light
all over you

i wouldn’t have him
if he didn’t have her

she’s a hot and necessary evil
for my hot and brilliant
best friend

amanda Jul 2020

size zero

it’s a shame
that running from
healthy relationships
doesn’t burn calories

i’d be a size zero

amanda Jul 2020

now

i had no idea how to sew
the first few times
love asked me to stitch up
my own heart

~~~

you should see
what i can do
with a needle and thread
now

...

amanda Jul 2020

2 and 4am

2 and 4am
look the same

the unrelenting dark—
the fear that this night
won’t give light to day

2 and 4am
look the same

but 2 and 4am
are not the same

2 hours closer
to finding direction
in the east

just remember, my dear,
the sun has never
not come up

just. keep. spinning.