amanda

amanda Jul 2020

and i know the earth
had to be spinning
because the sun was setting
on you and me

but at the exact moment
your hand touched mine

i think even the world
stopped and stared

amanda Jul 2020

inhuman

if you can smile
as you pull the knife
out of your back
and choke down the blood
you coughed up,

does that mean you’ve grown
strong enough

or inhuman enough?

amanda Jul 2020

semantics

when i came out of her,
i was her daughter

when i came out to her,
i wasn’t

i won’t forgive you
for this one,
mom

amanda Jul 2020

steel ******* bars

family can feel like a prison

the trick is—
if you make your personality
so big

you can burst right through
the steel ******* bars

i’m disassociating myself
from my family

and i’m going to be
HAPPY

amanda Jul 2020

the sea

i’ve always been attracted
to men who admire the sea;
i’ve found that such a man
is more likely to admire me

i’m chaotic, deep, unpredictable,
and always under
the influence of the moon

amanda Jul 2020

muse

you may never have asked
to be my poem

but i never asked
to be a poet

there is a lot of guilt
associated with
writing love poems
for a man who
doesn't want your love...
but you don't know
how to stop...
because your heart beats
in iambic pentameter

amanda Jul 2020

ethereal

adj—extremely delicate and light
in a way that seems too perfect
for this world.

not a poem—
just the definition
of him