amanda

amanda Jun 2020

ironically

those who dare to
take up the most space

often think

they deserve the least

your container is lucky
that it gets to house
your heart
your mind
your soul
***
to everyone feeling
a little stressed
for bikini season--

you're ******* perfect.

amanda Jun 2020

jet bridge

what if this time
when you step off the jet bridge
and into the next chapter

what if this time
you don't stop by baggage claim

you have this tendency
to carry your past
like a dead weight

when you start over this time,
i want you to consider
letting it go
and truly starting over

amanda Jun 2020

the world

i've cried oceans for a man
whose words moved mountains
and whose eyes challenged the stars

and as i stand here
and look at the mess we made,
i think...

we really could have had
the world

preston,
four and a half years later,
your name on my phone
still makes my heart
beat out of my chest

my first and favorite love

amanda May 2020

r.t.s.

at the end of the day—
it doesn’t matter
how meticulously folded
the envelope is

all i can see
are the big red letters
stamped across the top

RETURN TO SENDER
...

i appreciate
the gentleness with which
you continue to
return my unrequited love
every single day

but gentle doesn’t mean
painless

amanda May 2020

tongue twister (explicit)

if a girl ***** a guy
she doesn't even ******* like
just to **** with a guy
she ******* loves
who is *******
a different ******* girl

who is really
getting ******?

inspired by the popular
american tongue twister
about a woodchuck

amanda May 2020

what doesn’t drown you...

if you stop thrashing
for long enough,
i swear you can hear the ocean say

i’m trying to make you a swimmer

so that you have a reason
to come back
...

i often think life
is trying to **** me,
when in fact it’s just
making me strong enough
to stick around for
a really ******* long time

what doesn’t drown you
makes you a swimmer

— The End —