My silence comes with a thousand words

I hate you! For holding my hands!
I hate you! For the tender kisses!
I hate you! For whispering me promises
I hate you! For reaching my core
For stealing my heart!
For convincing me with sweet lies!
For gazing through my innocent eyes!

I've never been hurt this way,
This much
This time
Of all my entire life

I hate you!
I loved you!
I..... still love you.....

I have fallen for you
I have...
I have fallen for a lie

....I could hold your hands
Hug you
Have conversations with you

....I could go out with you
Kiss you
Have amazing moments with you

....Those are the things we can do and
....I can thank the stars for it

There are things that i really want
That is out of reach
I've felt it too many times
Times where i got desperate
Many times that i learned
To be excited to those people who got what i wanted
Cause watching them experiencing it, just somewhat feels good

I am me
I can freely choose to my decision
I can feel cry and be happy based on my reactions

Life and Death are both ferocious
They cause bad and good things without any precautious
You may be lucky and happy without a frown
But a moment will come that makes your world upside down

The thing about life is that it goes and it ends
But the thing about death is that the end is the end
A tragic moment that you may never forget
But filled with love it will not make you regret

Love and Birth are a special thing to praise
A new born child with all the love to embrace
A mother gives light for a life to become bright
And a father guides you to become someone who you might

Together they stand still
And supports you with/without ill
They are my superheroes that gives you flight
To a whole new world and a direction which is right

Peace and War are both impossible to resist
It depends on the people to wherever they want to exist
But peace and war comes to an end
To start over again and refill those moment to become an end

Life and Death and Love and Birth and Peace and War on the planet EARTH, is there anything that's worth more than peace and love on the planet earth

Life is full of surprises
It may shook you
It may anger you
Or it may give you happiness

But sometimes it may also give you pain
Pain that gives you pressure
Pain that gives you ache
Pain that will physically hurt you
And Pain that gives pleasure to somebody

But the pain that hurts the most is the pain that comes from the people you love
Destiny is a very tricky and a very playful thing, sometimes Destiny will be our friend and sometimes it will be our enemy

Now to the pain that comes from our love ones
A pain that comes from it is a very hurtful and a very offensive attack that can cause your world shaky and devastating

It will bring tears unstoppably impossible to pull back
It will make you feel like being tortured
and it will sometimes drive you crazy

Especially, when you gained that pain from a  backstabber that makes up different stories and excuses just to get you down

That pain, if you felt that kind of pain it's the pain that you feel from the inner part of the heart, the pain that connects and destroys your whole body

The kind of pain where you feel lost
The kind of pain where you feel alone
The kind of pain that don't heal quickly and easily

But you can either fall back or fight back, it's your choice but the best is to stand still and fight back

There is also a special way that will make you feel better
It's the kiss and love from someone that loves and understands you

Every body has its weakness
Everybody has imperfections
But everybody is not born to be wild,bold, and strong to cover those weakness

Everybody don't get the chance to  shine
There is always somebody that's always in the bottom no matter how hard they tried

Life really is full of surprises
It may be good or bad
It may be lucky or unfortunate
But always remember

We are the captain of our fate
We control our future
We control our self
We control our choices

If only trees can speak

It will gossip the untold

And unfold mysteries

For it sees the passing storm
And feels the calmest wind
It will become the greatest storyteller
That makes one wonder into the unlikely
Thoughts of the world

Sometimes
A one's fragrance
And
A one's presence
Is what we need
To get to start working again

Kept my pride at bay
To win your trust.
Im loosing dignity for you

Withdrawn my right
And questioning my worth.
Im loosing sanity for you

Attempted to reach for the stars
And thought outside of hundreds of boxes.
Im loosing quality time for my self because of you

I tried to gave you everything
And i recieved nothing but misery
Im loosing a lot of battles for you
But i am not further allowing myself to lose me

I am finally choosing to lose you.

Swords, surrendered
Will, outpowered
Questions? Unanswered
Purpose? Lost

If my hand were to hold a love potion
I'd drink it myself

And so i screamed back at the sky
As it roared the heaviest rain
Tell me, was it all a lie?

The moment he looked me in the eye?
Was it all a joke?
'Cause all im feeling now is goodbye

Was i running for a race
Bound to lose in disgrace

Will that kiss be the death of me
Bedridden inside an empty yard of grave?

A big burden i've felt
with great pain and suffering
as i walk down into the path
down my memory lane

I always thought freedom is losing you
Instead all i feel now is imprisonment

Bars would be the series of my mistakes in a life i have chosen, a life i thought would be bliss without you, i was wrong.

If words expresses what i feel, those words would spell i miss you.

I regret having a memory of letting you go, i wish it's still me and you

I took the hand of a false prophet
'Cause I know i found happiness
Even for brief moments
Tomorrow i might suffer the consequences
But since then, i know pain
Like i know my own name
Might not be a friend of mine
But a company is a company
And it is so much better than being empty

A radiant
A beauty
A passion
For the many

Shine me blessing
With the reflection
Of everlasting

Ice Age, Cold Days, Winter Time
there's this thing that dont change
we devour naure as we live for our benefits
we keep living and believing as if there's no consequences
where did love go?
when it is needed the most
where did inspiration go?
to our natures thomb?
many battles are celebrated and mourned
many pecies are filling the earths grave
many glasses are opened and made
but why cant we all take time to heal
our mother nature's wound

I make people laugh
jokes to tell
happiness i spread
the joy i give in

but

deep inside me
i feel miserable
this melancholy i feel
the negative aura i ranged

this grammar is wrong just like me

i make people laugh
but i feel miserable
,they dont even care

All i can see is red
In a nightmare about you
Myself advised me to love you
Myself warned me to hate you
And all i did was watch me
Fall deeper for you

All i see is regret
For not loving you enough
And for loving you too much

I caused myself pain
And love not like anyone else's
It was worth remembering and forgetting
It was a nightmare worth dreaming

The gleaming stars shine
Into the surface of my skin
Sitting by the roof
Wondering.
Millions of thoughts i could think
And one only surfaced
It's face and it's beauty
It's the galaxy that i see

Twinkle twinkle little star
You're my wonder, yes you are
In our world you are afar
But in my heart is where you are

Im Jack, you're Jill went up the hill
Where i confessed my secret
Jack was down and he was sad
Cause jack, he got rejected

Humpty dumpty sat on a wall
Feeling all lonely, like jack in his fall
All of his trustees and all of his friends
Tried to help him but failed in the end

As Incy Wincy Spider
Climbed up the water spout
Down came the rain
And washed his effort out
Out came the sun
That dried out all his tears
The one who's heart is broken
Went down and cried again

I dont need you to promise me
Your everlasting love
One timeline can be timeless
One happy ending can feel endless
One lifetime could easily feel lifeless
But im holding your hand
Walking in the rain
Warming each other seamingless

A true king in any world
Leads not by forcing others to bow before him
But by inspiring others to stand with him

Paint me
Paint my pain
Paint it all away

Brush them all
And let this sorrow go away

Use them colors
Any kinds and brands you desire

Just paint me
Paint my pain
Paint and cover it all the way

Im out of ink
Im out of battery
And i cannot write one poetry
Atleast after this

Twas my last color of hope
Twas my last energy of will
One can say recharge
One can say reprint

But what is passion
Without the captain's certainty
What is passion
When one gives up about its own

Nothing

I can feel it
This pain
This sorrow
This color of grey
Is tainting my innocence

This feeling is new
Perhaps it's what they all call
Heart Break?

A poet is nothing without poetry
But poetry are nothing without readers
Which means
Mines are nothing

Rain or Shine
Ill shower love with mine
To bloom you like rose
And dancing petals will rose

Sometimes you just have to listen
Where the heart beats tries to lead you
And follow it

Have i ever written a message
With much doubts and erases?
Yes i have.
The feeling of thinking in advance
To what impacts it might give
Thoughts unwinded
In a midst of expressing something
Like writing one step forward with 2 steps backward
Fearing every verses
Clearing every noise
Just to concentrate
In making the right note
And right tone
To impress
To express
To channel
Every thoughts that you thought reached perfection
In the end
You composed
The imperfectly message
After a hundred and 3 scratches

As tasteless as the words may seem
Just put some sweet compliments in it
Dash some bitter poetry with it
To get that bitter-sweet talks to it

Savor every letters
As read back and forth
Be filled with it's extensive use
And relish every spoken truths

Sprinkle a lot of emotions
And spread those feelings widely
That will surely give a kick,
A taste
A punch
A spice of one's spoken poetry

My heart has become
A town for ghosts

All the stars that i see brightly
Outshine me almost everday
Giving me shades
Turning me to gray
I only shine the brightest
When im in my shamest
Anger filled my bottles
Locking my wings away
Shadow my old friend
Here i go again

They said my blood is tainted
With the color of disgrace
They said my blood is magenta painted
I should never show my face

They say it with their mouth
Im poisoned
They show it with their faces
Im not accepted

They frown upon me
And i doubt myself everyday
What is this misery?
A question i hope answered someday

I lost you
And finding you
Is like getting back to all i suffered
But in the end
I found something
Me.

And Somehow that was all i ever wanted.
It was everything

Sometimes, i wonder
Which star could you be
Then i looked at you
And realized
You are actually my star.