you
keep me together
-
my mind plays these tricks
holds back the truth
and underlines the lies
it's so easy for me
to remind myself, I'm not ok
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you don't know what to say
-
nothing you say can help
so...
I tell you
you're not worth my time
I tell you
I'm not worth my time
you hold me tighter
because 4 years later
you have learned these words aren't mine
you know I am here hiding behind my pride
still, you kiss her ugly frame
god how did I get this lucky
to love and be loved
by a man who loves
both sides of me

eyes open a bit more each time I wake
mind savors the extra space
don't let it end
it's so nice to see the colors of the world

im running out of patience
waiting for peace of mind
anxiety, selfishness, depression
stuck like glue
lifetimes it feels trapped being blue
except when I'm with you
your arms hold all four of us
unafraid of our shade
you love my demons to death
they look back at me with confusion
they always told me you would leave
you only held tighter

you tell me
is it really as simple as a yes or a no
doesn't seem that way  when I look into the iris of your soul
you promised me a lifetime
now look at the shattered truth of our reality
you left me in a puddle of my blood
waiting for your promises to come true