He took pride walking into enemy camp now a days he prefers to be alone writing and listening to music. He'd like friends but thankful for the few loyal ones he has. He could be himself open up vent without his feelings being ignored or belittled since he was okay being vulnerable while others seen him as weak and preyed on his because they assumed he wouldn't do anything. Trying to relax is hard so much on the mind. Overwhelmed too much at once thinking about dating, after being in failed relationships learning to be alone. loving yourself after feeling unworthy devalued being with the wrong person.
Failed friendships all the gossip when he told them straight up. Everything came around when he called them on it they had the nerve to be upset trying to flip the script. He valued them and they trashed him that's what hurt the most.
He worked hard flustered they hired the lazy guy over him. He hung in there toughed it out worked harder asking if he was in the right place or was it time for him to move on. He love the community of people learned so much because he was open to learn and grow.
His dreams made sense to him while others caller him crazy. Saying no one like him can do it so it made him want it more. He never wanted to give up, who he was to be accepted told himself make the most of things even if they ****. Make it better, don't settle for less make the most of what is given.
Always willing to adjust to the encounter adapt to the situation. Pondering the next move brainstorming ideas

He was in love with her and didn't want anyone else. She called him a player when she was the one making the rules to her game. He wanted her to be his one and only. Turns out he was her one of many not the only one she was involved with stringing them along.
He forgave her accepted her flaw and all turns out it was not meant to be. Love was his drug addicted and could never get that fix to be satisfied the more he tried she got more distant. He couldn't figure it out trying to understand make sense of it all.
Eventually he walked away learning only he could make himself happy and not leave it in the hands of others. Even though he loved her he wasn't responsible for her happiness. He had to wise up protect his heart since it was being tormented by someone who didn't match how he felt or put forth the same amount of every.

Tool a while to talk about it always thinking about it. Thinking it could've been done differently while noticing he had no say, no control the first time around. When did it go wrong how did things end up so sour. He was too involved and got frustrated with the situation. Or he gave his trust not always assuming the worse.  Later to be told he didn't care called selfish for respecting boundaries.
He had their back even if he was on deck waiting around in the background. He always asked what the problem was trying to provide a solution and thinking things through first before over reacting. He didn't want to make a scene and wanted to know both sides of the story to make sense of it all.

He had a test that would dictate his future. He didn't want to fail struggling to get the next level. Moving forward with his life not going back bouncing back all the road blocks and detours. He didn't like to fight he would put his head down and plow through.
He didn't like to let others down it got to him surprised he had a support group. All his hard work and efforts not expecting anything but trying to get a full time job going. He was open to change but the transition got complicated in the process.
He started to share his plan with his mini circle of friends.

It was his moment making the most of things trying to make it to the next level. The struggle within falling back into bad habits instead of compromising. He learned quick that things wouldn't go his way. Never got the out that played out in his head.
He rolled with the punches now older realizing that everything changed and happened for a reason. Before he'd fight for a lost cause. Now he searches for meaning and purpose. He worried for others while they continued to be self destructive.
Once he got stuck in his bad habits no one cared or looked out because he didn't want anyone to knock him for being different.

Training for a fight that may or may not happen. At the park working on drills and conditioning to go the round and the distance. So many outside factors causing a fuss. A job opportunity that seemed promising but hasn't been a pleasant transition. Trying to move up to the next level and maintain keep building up. The idea of starting over is overwhelming.
Giving up the old for new trying to remain the same but everything changes. The mindset and body something are containable while others are a lost cause. Stuck on them wondering how and why things turned out the way they did. Not going back but staying away from that insanity.

He stayed single because his family would never approval. He didn't like being put in that situation where he would have to pick a relationship or family. It wouldnt be fair to his partner since his family was very judgemental wanting the best for him. He was always getting criticized but respectful when he had something to say.
If he could say anything without them being triggered. He knew they had something to say but never gave them reasons to talk. He was always privates person. He didn't care to be involved, most of all caught up in all the drama.
He did want their approval but learned he's better off doing his own thing. He wanted to be there but never felt accepted had to alter himself which got old. He wasn't like them got tired of pretending things would be alright after being uncomfortable for years.

He didnt have pull going against the odds never in his favor unless he's doing favors. Overtime life took its toll on the go. Slowed down hard to find that moment and go. Didn't say or do anything gave them no reason to talk. Hard to open up didn't like being manipulated his feelings and emotions used against him.
He knew to not get involved, do his own thing let them talk. Relapsing feels like the world is collapsing.

He didn't want people laughing or talking about him. He was private yet the people talking did worse. He wanted to find love so he waited. While others had meaningless relationships and kids that got stuck in the middle.
Not a parent but those kids come first their needs. Its about them now so some need to get over themselves. He would observe see the double standard as they try to justify their wrong doing.
He made a mistake they would prey on him like if was plotting. They tried to hold his flaws over his head especially when they've done way worse.
He wanted to be around family but they act like they have it bad and mad about something. Taking it out on family instead of confronting those who wronged them.
He was thankful to have a room and somewhere to stay. He didn't make a fuss or say anything. Some trying to pull rank talking like they pay bills when all they did save up.

He worried for the new child. The parents didn't get along always trying to gain power and control the situation. He loved family but he was tired of hearing this couple argue break up and back together these unhealthy patterns became the foundation of the relationship.
He looked out for his cousin but learned to fade out not get involved he would hear more lies he got tired of more lies. He valued him but felt devalued being around with someone that never had his back unless he needed a favor.
He had his own stuff going on why would he take on the burden of others. He was trying to be supportive to the people who never supported him back. All they did was make a mess cause drama he was done cleaning up the mess he didn't make

Most of this in the mind some days are easy some feel never ending. He tried to do what was right while others didn't work cheat cut corners. He was denied another interview more road blocks. Conflict with family was the worse because he had no problem saying sorry or admitting he was wrong. Family would never see things his way and quick to be mad hold a grudge.
He didn't sit around angry because he was working a job that never gave him the results he desired s so many road blocks and detours in his way blocking his path.  He was holding back writing was an outlet to deflate his ego

In a field where the wind blows quietly with a green fence as he threw his softball at a stump it rolled back. Took in the scene at peace feeling at ease away from all the chaos and insanity. At peace with nature feeling all the insanity fade away no more bad memories and pain the silence empowering gain.

He was trusting to the wrong person it all came out. She was triggered ready to make the **** shot. He surrendered just wanted peace it was never ending no pretending. He didn't care to prove himself even when provoked. Walking away from all the sadness not letting them knock you rebuilding yourself up. From a crowded path to being a trail blazer scared to drift but journeying onto new leaving the old.

That dream so real don't want it to end
Able to enjoy work being a regular
Being in charge takes its toll over time
Wanting to be normal not complicated
Be able to be free not on a schedule
He was in the shower thinking about life
The water rising his burdens away
An argument played out in his head
He knew it wouldn't play out accordingly
This moment would arrive unaware
A fuse would burn out not able to speak
Made him uncomfortable imploding within
Unable to comprehend words
Didn't like confrontation from control freaks
All he wanted was to be upbeat and chill
Made out to be the bad guy and monster

Closer to seeing this event happen going down out of town. Away from home to experience the journey new encounters seeing into that world that culture onto something new hard to read signs to clues. Still feeling like an outcast not belong anywhere. So much haze proving himself. He worked hard gave his own didn't complain glad to be part of something. Even if they prejudged him made him out to be someone he's not. He didn't care for politics all he wanted was to finish and do his job right without burden or frustration. He stopped drinking relapse was the worse idea. Drinking with people who assume and expect the worse for problems they made. He took the blame while they were quick to blame someone else.
He reminded them they were blessed they had someone who loved them and kids that make them out to be the world telling not to ruin or mess that up for themselves. He didn't have much but made the the most of things and thankful for all the blessings. He was grateful and tired of holding back minding his mouth because his honesty usually got him in trouble.

In the chop getting a haircut can be therapy. Cutting away the old a fresh new look
And the new could grow in change over time
From your old shop to other locations
Not the same hard to trust with your hair
Paying the tip the barber accordingly
Thankful for their skills willing to go back
Reference new customers to help business
Hoping to be a regular for generations
Making a fuss about doing it invested in them
Broken trust never going back there again

He worried it didn't happened more determined than before. Did his part and more just in the background. He wanted to be a lead but everything was harder than it should be. He didn't always agree but did respect the decision made. His family at him up wanting to be there to be around. Everything was tainted had to be a struggle so much conflict for expressing concern. They don't know your story quick to make assumptions. Trying to think your life but dk your experience. It wasn't a priority in his eyes why did they make it out to be drama. Even if he had done it or if it mattered to him they wouldn't care or give a ****.

He wanted the answers but ended up with more questions. No solutions just more up in the air problems that would eventually end up in his lap taking on what he could handle. Praying and laying in bed with music playing singing helped his find closure and peace. He thought he could make a different looking in the mirror seeing an older man who was tired. Seeking meaning and purpose seeing his opportunity go to another person. He was denying the truth but happy for the person.

He was too old to be mad and beefing with everyone. He did distance himself from things been working on being a better version of himself. Some still think he's that person they met long ago. He did make mistakes he's been wrong learned the lesson and forgave himself learned to no expect much so he won't be disappointed. Knowing if he wanted it he would have to work for it and earn it.
He's thankful for the people that accepted him. He was tired of altering himself to be accepted. Not this person they made him out to be.

I've overcome obstacles in touch with truth
The girl who got away overrated
Heartbreak that makes you numb and stronger
Hate blocks passion so overcome be better
Be more not settling for less
On my way not waiting
On this lonely journey
Find your way to the top
On the bottom gets old fast

Told not to cry
Everyone tells lies
Told to be real by fakes
Don't know what to believe
All the hate and greed
Happy thoughts to escape
Never attended piled up pain
Looping thoughts stuck in the cycle
Seek of change everything the same
Open or close not satisfied
Ready to fight nothing to hide
Expression becomes a mission
Needed to said or mention
Not looking got attention
Nurtured talent neglected soul
More complicated than easy

Never coped always on the go
No time for pain working too much
A busy job that's soul *******
Another draining failed relationship
With the wrong person not compatible
Who doesn't want anything with you
But doesn't want you with anyone else
Never the man but the go to guy
Hated on for doing it right
Taking time to care show interest
Not BS wasting time finishing strong
Others quick to point out the flaw
Feeling less after giving it all

He went for it and come up short every time this time it might actually happen come true. Thought he was out because they found someone better on the side lines staying loyal and true. Felt like one part of the crew something real something true. Wasn't the best but always there on deck showing nothing but love and respect ready to work and get it done.
Didn't like to say anything that's why writing is important became his voice. No one seemed to care or listening his only choice to express his thoughts and feelings. Changing his mind wasn't a debate but he was always open to learn and grow. He didn't always make it right away when his time came he felt better about not being rushed took time to improve and grow reflect and change things that needed to be worked on

The emotions get deeper as the feeling tug at his heart. His heart hardens as he protects himself from those who oppose him. Make him feel like he was doing wrong when all he wanted was to do his job with out conflict.
Be with his family without judgement or being treated differently head to another standard while others get away with doing the bare minimum. He didn't talk smack or feel it was necessary to put others on the spot. He wasn't perfect or anywhere close to being so.
He let go and realized it wasn't worth it anymore letting go was easier than being part of something that was tainted. No longer pure it lost meaning and value. It made him worse instead of better it was best to let go cut those losses and move on.

He stayed in the AC because the heat would get to him. He worked around people invisible use to being in the background behind the scenes. He wanted to be a lead but knew people talked and would undermine his authority. He didn't know what he was going to do or where he would end up but he was determined to make it. Listening to music wiping everything to keep others safe sanitizing everything that others had touched. Not use to the mask but still cleaning it up. He thought about family so much conflict he didn't feel like he belong but did worry and care about everyone. He would show no feelings or emotions to protect himself. The tough love from family made it hard to express himself. Talking to him like he didn't know or expecting him to be someone they remember but no longer that person anymore.

He didn't like to let people down but when he did he felt bad. He tried came up short hated when people he cared for looked at him like he didn't matter or he was useless. The worse feeling ever some things were out of his control he had no say. He quit flirting with drama avoiding others troubles. Fading out everything becomes a blur not the same anymore.
Just because we don't see eye to eye or agree doesn't mean there is hatred not forcing it anymore. Wasting a lot of energy with someone who's not putting forth any effort. Had an opinion because it was asked not a debate. One sided mind trying to shut you and your world down.
This life is not an option can't just pick and choose when to be involved. Full time or nothing use to selective minds trying to throw a monkey wrench in this dream.
Set goals and doing the work to be told you aren't doing it right. Can't live for two barely getting by as one.
Didn't have help working for this didn't happen right away staying strong trying not to fold growing. Refuse to close this heart off let it go cold. Working to survive while others hate trying to bury you alive.

Life my change embracing this opportunity
All those long hours filling in the void
Had to go through the steps to be heard
Can't cheat doing the work for years
Cut corner been going through the motions
Ready for the next level not skipping steps
Taking them one at a time the process
Everything will be fine over time
Keep working for what's mine
He never said anything out of respect
Feeling he needed to get it together
So many act up and done nothing
Talking loud doesn't make them right
Knocking others doesn't justify anything
He was done feeding into the carnage
Quit focusing on the negative vibes
Doing the things that matter
That needed to be done consistently
He didn't care about what others said
He knew what he wanted out of life
How he felt not letting others influence his behavior
He was worried it would never happen
Many things might actually fall into place

He finally passed his test and got an interview things were on the ups getting better. He cut away from the older crowd because they act like his world evolves around them. He didn't like them being selective about being involved in his life. If he opened up to vent it wasn't for them to feel superior. He thought he could trust them with his feelings but he was wrong.
He became private now everyone tries to pry. He got tired of everyone ignoring him showing no interest in his life. He'd listen to everyone's problems trying provide solutions to be ignored.
He has a support group of all the most random people but he could be himself around

He was moving on not looking back trying to live. Instead of hiding, running away. He stood his ground and standing alone taking on the world. His life had so many twists and turns. He had trust issues after his so called best friend got with his high school crush. That would be left open hard to find a friend worthy of the title. The girl he loved was a ****** but he did love her unable to shake and believe the turn of events.
He would work towards his goals always some kind of road block and detour to make his dream a reality. He had an open mind when it came to education but his heart was closer off and on reserved focused trying to get right back on track. He didn't like conflict but always dealt problems but never made them right both never could come to terms or a mutual agreement.

He walked into the shop and had a deep conversation with his barber. He was able to open up and vent talk about things while getting groomed at the same time. They exchanged words while his barber encouraged him about everything happening and coming together for the big moment. Every encounter and experience it all came together.

He loved his family while some tried to make others look at him differently because he didn't **** up or change who he was. He was already open minded and embraced change. Things didn't always happen when they did he was happy and thankful. He didn't always win told himself be better. Keep working harder one day someone will give him a chance. He never stopped or slowed down. Giving hid all worked hard more determined since the first day. He was told to quit it wasn't worth it and told why give your all they aren't going to do anything with you. He gave his all even if no one cared, he knew it mattered he made a difference.

He looked in the mirror and asked who are you? What have you become? He felt close but slipping trying to find balance restore himself without being self destructive. He realized letting was hard but told himself its for the better. He Told himself don't go back to those bad habits. Be better it failed before you know the outcome. Things wont change all he wanted was to be himself and feel part of something not lower or deny himself to be accepted.
All he wanted was to get along coexist not pretend to be someone others made him out to be. When he belonged he felt himself grow and kept pursuing more. He wanted to change tired of settling cheating himself. He over thought but made sure it was worth his time the steps it took

He couldn't hold back the joy the tears. It finally happened the moment he had been working for years the day had come. He was always a sub feeling in the void now he would get a permanent spot. He didn't think I would happen he got cozy going through the motions. From day one he was told never get comfortable. Keep working, keep busy you'll get in.

He didn't expect anyone to change but they wanted him to be someone else just to be liked to be accepted. It wasn't worth it and he didn't like the idea of denying himself to be part of an indecisive group. He'd rather do his own thing than be dissected like a fixer up project.
He wanted to let go but remembered all the nonsense. They told him full of double standards, all the criticism from two faced individuals. He wasn't angry just puzzled because they thought less of him and thought they had say and control of his life

He couldn't hold back the joy the tears. It finally happened the moment he had been working for years the day had come. He was always a sub feeling in the void now he would get a permanent spot. He didn't think I would happen he got cozy going through the motions. From day one he was told never get comfortable. Keep working, keep busy you'll get in.

Breaking free not going back
Didn't talk about anyone
It's okay to disagree and take a stand
When there's no reasoning
One way thinking and twisted logic
Open to listen and understand
Not being told what to do
All these demands not a follower
Just because no one argues
Doesn't make you right
Choosing peace over chaos

Went out for a few hours and celebrated it was nice to get out of the house but the party cup is being retired hard to focus with a hangover. Trying to be human but sometimes it. Its not fun with an arguing couple or with a friend that's in a failing relationship.
Called delusional for calling them on the act
Sensitive for not taking their craps
Seen as ignorant for having an opinion
Cut them off moving on now they talking
Trying to turn others on you how they see you.
They called him ****** or a hard *** for hiding his feelings protecting his heart since he's been hurt many times before.

He wondered why were they talking about him. He analyzed the situation not the person. He respected what they felt and thought because he had his own things going on to be worried what others were saying about him.
He thought highly of them while they made him out to be crazy for speaking up.
He loved to be involved but since it required him to give up who he was deny himself he couldn't do it. He was making moves in silences behind the scenes. He couldn't be the lead because everything became his fault. He couldn't handle the pressure all he wanted was to work hard get his part done.
The mind is everywhere can't please or make everyone happy. He didn't put his happiness in the hands of others. He down played his ego moving forward was hard since it kept pulling him back. He knew he had to grow and change with the seasons change life was ambiguous. Everything happened late for him it was inevitable

All he needed was one chance
An opportunity to seize the moment
Gave his all came up short
Thankful for the strangers
Who believed in him and supportive
While he worked hard to prove
All the doubters and haters wrong
He didn't talk just put his head down
Plowed through with no regret
Didn't like his place changed his role
Open to change and grow

When your down they don't expect much from you. They don't think about you. Once you speak up and rise they start talking bad about you. You never said anything you asked a question had a difference of opinion. Moved onto new doing his best to be more and do more with his life. He was happy for them now they are angry with him. Anything he said was never good enough why be around why pretend they value and respect him. He never said anything about anyone. To hear they called him ignorant because he didn't know it would happen. He was working for it since nothing is given.
Called sensitive because he cared always investing his energy in others once he decided to chill. They called him intimidating all he wanted was to be left alone but still making an effort to be social.

He didn't give into the personal attacks they expected him to overreact or make a fuss. He never said anything about anyone. They gave him an ear full. He was sorry he couldn't live up to their demands and expectation he moved on with his life. Thankful for the talk and motivation.
He didn't always fit in but he gave his all took pride in whatever he was doing. He was anxious and more determined. To get it right do it his way since he didn't always have a choice or a say. He found joy outside of work ready to take step make moves in the right direction pursuing everything that he neglected without others interference/influence he knew the hard part was starting and staying on track.

From having a safety net to free falling not use to change got use to the comfort zone. Change doesn't happen in your bed use to stand out hard to blend in behind the scenes. Seen miserable people told himself to never lose his smile. Humble had nothing working for everything told he was trying to hard. Easy to stand out the standards set low. Some get mad because doing the basics raises the bar. All about maintaining focused on the task at hand over the drama.

His heart was free from the burden
Learning to love again without the hurt
Life makes you tougher over time
Falling behind trying to catch up
Most of all enjoy the journey explore
The right company to share the moment
In a small town wanting to do something
Be free clear of all the insanity imposing
Over all the over population feeling crowded
Not always liked but respect others
Free from all

Monty had been wanting to explore the world he was tired of being a hermit and work his life became a routine. Be spontaneous didn't get attached people come and go.
He loved to train MMA but it wasn't gun with all the gym politics they didn't take him serious. He worked with the fighters that would compete when he talked about it with the coach they showed no interest. His team mates made him

Don't like to argue with anyone already an internal struggle with trying to do what's right. Easier to write it down than speak it words wont come out losing the train of thought searching for the words. Mouth goes mute have to force it up project loud or wont be heard so many words.
Trying to get along not force things to work out especially if they aren't meant to be. Open mind and heart hardwired different from the rest.

He could feel his brothers pain and torment as he talked about those who wronged him. He would tell him don't talk about them they aren't worth it. Don't waste a thought or let them Rob you of your peace disturb you by robbing you of your sanity. The brother would claim it didn't bother him but his tone/demeanor would change.

He made eye contact it became a staring contest. He starred cold showed no emotions. She stares back with a look of confusion. An awkward silence filled the room. The days are coming to an end. He was working for two locations and she would be leaving soon.
He wasn't big on change but as he got older he started to change with the seasons. It didn't bother him till it actually happened. He was cool with things he didn't want to hold them back. Especially if they weren't happy.

On his podcast he opened up showed emotions writing was easy but saying it was a whole other story. He usually offended or ****** people off with his honesty. He couldn't say or do anything a feeling guilt and robbed of part of himself.
He held onto so much it became a distraction. He couldn't focus trying to figure it make sense of others. He didn't understand where all this hostility came from.

Focused on work jumping more hurdles want to be free to live life not worry about others the pressure of the world. Made out to be someone else so others can act the way they do. He didn't say much but seen as stuck up. If they asked his opinion people would end up offended or mad. He has social skills so many talked bad behind his back. He dealt with the fake personas and got tired of trying to please others. Anything he said was never heard all his efforts never good enough.
He focused on what he loved and what made him happy since everyone was so complicated to him. The more he resisted the more tension came. He broke free from everyone that treated him bad. The ones who made him feel like he didn't matter. Once he broke free he felt better like he could breathe without all the burdens pressure. He couldn't live up to their standards but he didn't expect anyone to lower themselves.

He was cool with everyone never said anything about anyone. Focusing on work making it easier for himself. If others benefit that was a plus. He was hard working with little time feeling everything was a crunched trying to beat the clock.
He like to be alone since some people didn't always seem right for once he trusted his gut. Didn't say much but did listen and observe.