No one bother with him so he decided to do whatever made him happy. They made him out to be the bad when did nothing wrong. He showed them love and respect while they made him feel like he didn't belong or matter. He didn't take it to heart because in the end he was alone with or without he would live his life to the fullest. Without others trying to influence him or talk to him like he was an idiot. He didn't always know but open to learn so he didn't have to rely or depend on anyone.

He was a late bloomer it wasn't too late but only beginning. He had experienced everything too soon and fast failed relationships. Over the years expired friendships that came to end. He chose to chase his dreams. While some got married and happy others divorced. He loved family but they didn't let him shine while everyone worked average joe job and bitter. He worked but didn't let it bug or bother him. Made the most of thing with what little he had. He was thankful because he knew what it was like to be broke. Helped others because he got help when he was down. He said he'd never be that way again. One day he'd make since everyone around him never seemed to want it. The problem was he never thought it could be him. Blindsided by outside factors that had nothing to do with his goal or dreams dealing with others frustrations because they thought coming at him or knocking him down would help them bounce back.

He was tired of arguing he didn't want to empower negative people feed their egos. They talked and ran their mouth as he walked away because they'd never own up and would blame him. He took responsibility for his actions and said sorry but never forgiven he changed by not repeating those actions.
He didn't like the burden of the world on his back he couldn't hold it or carry it anymore feeling crushed not able to breathe. He loved people didn't expect anyone to change expected them flaw and all. While anything he did would annoy and irritate everyone such a huge causing so much pain causing him to go numb and shut down. He hated that feeling just to be liked and accepted.
He wanted to be himself but couldn't because it felt like such a rip off and being cheated his living life to fullest ever since his brother passed away.

He faded away didn't care to live up to the hype. Struggling with his situation not taking on others frustrations. Always giving his all it was catching up to him. He wanted to shut down more determined than the rest another loved one distracted sending toxic vibes his way.
Not always right didn't have the answer.

He started to hate doing favors because he got ******* over in the end. He was glad to help others but they never helped him without an attitude or guilt trip. He was respectful to others.
Most of his peeps didn't take him serious or seen him as a joke. His frustrations high on another level. He was honest and truth most of the time threw BS his way. It was infuriating most of a insulting.
He showed up and wanted to get his work done and be left alone. He was mad the people he help talked about him. Now he's doing both jobs he wanted to quit walk away since everyone else didn't care. Why carry the burden when it wasn't his fault or problem.

The love was genuine while the were lies. If he wasn't doing favors he wouldn't be included. He did his best to mind his mouth feeling provoked taken for granted. Doing his best to do right while the rest chose to do wrong.
His moral compass being challenge by masses.
Everyone beefing mad at one another so anxious for change not motivated to so. Not everyone is right an argument becomes personal unsettled scores trying to be seen as an equal while others plan or the upper hand.
Instead of being a face love it blind going against anyone who doesn't agree or mean anything. The conflict everywhere need to get away not worth staying anymore.

Another chapter, A day in the life of the wild one. He met someone but she wasn't the one all they did was waste one another's time. He worked to build his future as his past crumbled behind him there was no going back. He didn't know what to do outside of his soul ******* job. Tired of being yanked in many directions his limbs ripped off his body numb to the pain.
His head hurt the aches feeling destroyed and his defeated heart pulsing. Tired digging down to find energy conserve strength while being drained lifeless. Trying to stay positive in the toxic environment finding hope over feeling doomed

He was over his phone no one called unless they needed something. He didn't care for texting anymore people got bold with messages but would never say it to his face.
All the frustration dealing with others it ****** he had to be watered down. Tired of being quiet and smiling because others had their unsatisfied egos that needed to be stroked.
He didn't have the time or energy to make people who made him miserable happy. He bit his tongue because he knew opening his mouth would make things worse.
He didn't talk or think about those people showed no feelings or emotions focused on his life and work.   Departing due to conflict of interest living life his way with others influence. He took their loathing remarks into consideration. He had changed so much over the years now others expected him to be someone else some false persona he couldn't live up to. He knew his worth while he bounced back from struggle setback and failure.

He had a dream about a co-worker it was weird to him. She came into him but he didn't feel or see it that way. Always supportive of others she would get engaged to someone. He was happy for her wishing her the best as she would leave to a new job. He didn't like change it was it was hard for him.
He was loyal to people most come and go like the seasons he was disconnected hard to adapt scared to rely and depend on anyone. He would have to work harder to it all himself. He hated how he waited and held back. He learned to not force things but let them happen naturally it was different.
Time changes everything from what he knew mostly being open to change and growth.

Before he could see it feel it from the bottom of his heart. Everyone left when he came. He didn't make it right away but it was his time to shine. He failed the first time it made him humble. He missed it but it came back around so he was meant to have it. He never assumed it was his but never though it could be. Now it's happening got use to getting by when all he wanted was to do great things and feel accomplished while making the most of things.

He was stubborn his broken heart healing over time. He didn't want anyone else but he couldn't wait around. Learning to love himself doing what he loves back to the basics. He gave it up for the wrong person who denied him and was quick to replace him. Without reason or an explanation all they did was waste another's time.
He respected himself getting older he couldn't sleep around be with just anyone.he he quit drinking everyone would expose themselves other than drinking there was no connection.

All this pressure feeling like why can't that be you. Others didn't give any effort but expecting more. Giving everything nothing in return such a burn. Helping because it's right incompetence picking a fight.
Held to another standard not trying to get played with these made up rules double standards.
He worked hard didn't take crap from anyone. Did his work and extra too much drama didn't care to be involved.
Some days they loved him others he got the 3rd degree. After a while he stopped caring getting involved. It was exhausting to give his energy while they didn't even try. He never talked about them but they had plenty to say. No one asked or was interested. Everyone had a life to live no time for critics.

He was new to the scene and always dealing with everyone even though everyone har plans of leaving. He never complained but did hate hearing it. He didn't want anyone to leave but did respected their decision learning to look out for what's in his best interest.
He felt selfish but they didn't help themselves and he didn't feel the benefits. He was dumped on his own to figure it out on his own. The closer he got things got distant. He didn't want them to go but it was hurting holding on. He wanted them around but that chapter in his life was over.
It wasn't about him but thought what would it take to make them stay.
He couldn't get close or open up hiding in his feelings. Hoping his emotions wouldn't get the best of him. He would get mad and irritated because that life wasn't fun or the same anymore.
He felt like the joy was gone or things lost value had no meaning. Left alone on the outside looking in once inside it was whatever. All the weight and burden fell on him.

He didn't want the responsibility care all the burden all the slack. Picking up his guitar coming up with lyric melodies coming together as the world came apart but rebuilding itself. People leaving never feeling permanent.
Couldn't fight the change occurring. All these weird feelings and emotions learning to cope. Deal with them without losing it over reacting. The music soothed his heart his soul burned without burning out.
The vibration of the strings echoing through out his body. His raspy voice wanting to sing hold a note find a time. Trying to connect relate to the melodies.

She's a friend nothing more
Soon to be a memory moving on
Keeping a distance staying strong
Can't get close to anyone hard to do
Come and go without reason
Different seasons trying to adjust
Hard to adapt no say or control
Feels like time is running out
On the go continuously hanging on
Ready to let go without a safety net
An endless fall in unlimited space
Feeling consumed limitless pressure
Hard to breathe clouded judgement
Wanting to be there missing out
Not there mind missing everyone

Stand alone writing it down
Use to take on the world
Pick and choose those battles
Not always going to win the struggle
Learn more from losing life lessons
Not always defeat but personal growth
Respect goes both ways not one
Love yourself don't deny it
The right people will accept you
All the wrong hate on you
Try to change everything
Never satisfied with themselves
After destroying your being
Instead of taking time to understand

Family don't always get along in conflict challenging one another's standing. Arguments get personal pointing out flaws talking bad about one another. They try to turn everyone against you. All the anger within all the frustration.
Learning to shut it down when there's no reason or compromise. So many lies all these terms conditions and circumstances

Kept a distance to heal from the hurt
Takes a long time to recover
After my whole being was rejected
Denied by the ones I love
That hurts most deep down to the core
Because they don't have my heart
Or see the world the way I do
Seen them as an equal with value
Viewed as a joke not taken serious
Told how to act just being me
Who to be instead of living life

Seen you as a brother the drinking consumed you.
Thought I knew you all the shady acts manipulation
Tried to help wasn't any better just as bad maybe worse.
Trying to hit on his girl blamed her for shooting him down
Gave him stuff for being in interracial relationship
While sneaking around doing the same
Judged for his clothes being labeled
By the hater who's wearing the same brand
Friends to foes someone unknown
Close to distant not bothering anymore.
Use to talk now whatever doing our own thing

Made mistakes part of being human
Said sorry hardly ever forgiven
Things will never be the same
Rise about the pain not consumed
Time takes the hurt away
Only if those words could be taken back
Had good intensions left with a failed outcome
Growing apart instead of closer now divided
Sober living the toxic pushed out
On this lonely road moving forward
Sad to see them go holding on to fading memories

We can't hang because you do dumb stuff on your girl
And try to blame me for your actions
I tolerate your girl because of you
Never talked about your girl ever
She always talking about everyone she's no better done worse like cheating and you still trust her
Saying its over never again then going back
Easier to stay single than get caught up in the mind games
Over all the lies and contradictions not responsible for your happiness
While you drain everyone causing chaos frustration

Trying to enjoy life without feeling challenged or accepting defeat. Trying to do right while everything around fails goes wrong. Conflict with cousins not laying down but standing this ground. Spoke up now it feels like the world is done with you set you aside not bothering anymore.
The job expects so much in very little time. Committing to a job that's worth it always free feeling consumed losing it all to be one way use to being the wild one.

He was tired of making time they used him and faked interest in his life. After getting what they wanted they didn't care for him anymore. He was tired of being scammed. He had their back they never had his in the end. He didn't lie being lied to feeling disgust. The taste of betrayal was sickening made him alter his trust for others. He welcomed all now he screens before opening up.

He worried getting his degree would be a piece of paper while he did the same job. He just wanted to learn and apply the principles not learn all these new social ways of living. He was open to change but things didn't turn out for the better more labels and boxes that kept him out. When he was in the mix lots of contradiction and confusion.
Told to ask question, now everyone is easily offended or upset for trying to make sense.  Staying loyal and true within rubbed people the wrong way.

Was tired of being used over the scam
Once he opened his mouth
No one bothered with him anymore
He was willing to help always doing extra
Once he said NO he never hear from her again
He question her logic
She tried to play him for a fool
He said no to covering a shift
He didn't do favors for lazy people
After cleaning up doing others jobs
He had no sympathy or remorse
Being over looked was common
When he finally made it still doesn't believe it happened or real

Letting trying not to obsess
Can't fix the wrong
Trying to be better
Made mistakes but learned
Tired of feeling weighed down
Moving forward can't wait around
Caring too much for others
While others shut you out
Trying to be myself without guilt
Over the intense hostility
Didn't do anything wrong
Keeping a distance getting bad vibes
Not saying anything to make it worse
The bitter ****** express says it all
Trying to make it to the end of the day

Talking about drama
Making more for yourself
Doing all the things
You said you'd never do
The same mistakes in a loop
Doing wrong trying to justify it
Hurting others blaming them
Doesn't make you right
Talking loud ignoring others
Doesn't mean you're right
Making others look bad
Doesn't make you better
Caught up in lies not credibility
The truth will expose everything

He walked up to her asked her to dinner she wasn't sure turns out, she just got out of a divorce trying to figure it out. She had to get her priorities in check. He wasn't trying to rush anything but was interested. He didn't get close or open up he would make assumptions which he was wrong about. He was wrong and apologized. A new perspective and mind set on how he did things.

The struggle to fit in he walked away
Always writing to rid the pain away
Honest with them not telling lies
Hide the truth with cover ups
Treated different for being loyal
Doing what's right from the heart
Clean head on his shoulders true
Others causing a fight walked out
Feeling attacked standing this ground
Ready to speak up didn't want drama

He was the bad guy because he had an idea. The funny guy wasn't laughing anymore. He had love and respect, but they had no regards for his feelings. He did all the grunt work with a smile burnt out from it all.
He didn't replace them but they were quick to fill his spot. Sad to see them go but he couldn't wait anymore. Racing the clock feeling like time was running out. Against all odds like always.
A So called friend tried to get under his skin. Trying to get a reaction he was quick to flip it call them on the crap. Show no emotions or feelings a stone face. Blocking out the pain protecting the heart.

A coworker plotting against you when you help that ungrateful person. As they go out of their way to get under your skin but they get mad that you fire back.
Always respectful and mindful but not backing down. Would walk away but this being came ready to start it while finishing them at their own game. A huge waste of time bothering letting this person act a fool that's on them.
He was tired from doing everyones work he cared more than most. Felt taken for granted he wanted to make a difference be the change that was needed.

How is that a friend someone who tries to get under your skin. Talk about sabotage that's messed up. He minded his mouth but when he spoke up it usually got him hated.
The frustration dealing with people who dumped their work on him. He got it done but didn't feel like a friend or things are done professionally. He made the most of thing did his job and went home.
Doing what he could with his limited time. Trying to make a difference leave things better than how he found them. Stood up alone feeling provoked.

Not a parent but would provide and be there. Sad how people have children and not there to provide show them love. Letting others do their job then have the nerve to complain.

They gave him **** because their life ******. Making everything personal because they can win an argument. He didn't care to get personal.
The problem grew as he thought about it. It faded away as he opened up so many came at him wrong he had thick skin as they tried to get under it. He didn't worry because he knew it would come back to them.
He got a text it was insulting the person didn't have the courage to say it to his face. Freedom of speech be ready for the consequences.

The struggle within was real encountering others make things more complicated sorry there is conflict at home. Not taking or dealing with your frustration.
All the blessings making you an ungrateful ******* who is quick to throw shade at others. Everyone has problems but focused on my own

Dk you like that family or not. Don't trust you not going to open up. So you could lie and twist these words use them in your favor. Hard to share be yourself when they think.
They know you but have no clue about your life. Breaking free breaking away feeling grid locked not able to move.

Wide awake with these thoughts
Wondering will it happen or too late
Struggling socially usually witty and funny
End up being socially awkward instead
Have a mindful mouth that gets provoked
A private person don't impose your ideals
Asked for help got no response
Did what was best without guidance
Now sharing a negative opinion full of criticism
That the moment passed things got done

Not always going to be liked
Faced criticism the world goes black
Taking on chores more than most
Being ******* without any emotions.
Feelings catching up building up
Not sure how to feel thought about it.
Giving your all its never enough.
Staying clear overcome the fears.
Drinking the pain away to be numb
It won't go bad memories remain
Doing the job taking on too much
Or doing too little getting by bored
Looking out with the truth
Got nothing but lies in return
Feeling burnt out want to cut the cord
Never associate again not a friend
Better to let it die and end
Dealing with drama a waste of time
No one cares or does anything about it
Quick to point out the problem
Not provide a solution so much talk
Talking about one another's faults
Instead of one another to make it right
Doing the same the nerve to complain

The plan failed from college to reality from books to working an average joe job. His mindset was not the same for normal people he would ask questions so he could know. While everyone was use to the chain of command. He observed never felt threatened or challenged.
School was another monster around things that growing up was bad is now good all of a sudden justified or socially accepted. He was mind blown.
That world was another side trying to make sense of it all

Helping its the right thing to do
Giving your all feeling accomplished
Than have more work dumped on your lap
Like a reset you did nothing start over
Being discredited doing the work and extra
A new plan giving up on this leadership
Doing the minimum feeling cheated
Trying to make it through probation
Thought it would be better its worse
Made work fun now it's just nonsense
Wanted to make it better for others
Now its taking it's toll so much frustration
Questioning the role if this placement is a match
Still doing it on another level
All the hype running out of time
Beat the clock to get it done

Talking to you like you're an idiot
Trying to project their BS on you
Listen to them talk in the end
They are wrong they do you
Know your story or what you've done
Your struggles within all the obstacles
Overcome hardship working hard
Plowing down the ******* of life
Mental anguish burning up peace
Thick skin for rough times taking it
Long periods of pain and pressure
No coping or closure onto the next

Not wish bad on them
All the pain caused
The frustration over time
Not wishing bad on anyone
But it will comeback to them
Just trying to do my thing
Not going through anyone to get there
Using these skills not people
Focused on the work no drama
Don't care for politics hate gossip
Over caring the load of others
Dropped once something better
Comes along easily replaced
While waiting saving a spaces
Once it's filled quick to return
Tired work out feeling burned inside

Sharing his pain to feel better
Making things worse feeling bad
Letting others they aren't alone
Letting go was hard had to be done
There was no going back missing it
Crumbling within tough times
Not letting others in feeling
Nothing but love full of loneliness
Giving his all with writing the words
Giving life to bottled up emotions
That are messages for others to relate
Letting go of the weight draining life
The glowing soul going dull

He was on the outs glad everyone was getting alone. Didn't care for their approval since anything he did was never good enough. It wasn't his life or his problem anymore. Having other ideas kept him out not a fan of being told how to act or who to be. The idea of being watered down infuriated him.   Being rejected didn't bother him but all the expectation of others they didn't have his back but wanted a favor. It was insulting the nerve to insult a person and assume you are cool with a person.
It was easier to avoid and ignore a person than bother wasting your time. Sad how the hidden agendas are for their own personal gain. Smashing others ******* people to get their way.

They don't mess with you or bother
Unless they need something
Look down on you treat you like ****
Like you don't matter feeling invisible
Trying to be the guy make a difference
Being the go to guy getting it done
Don't pretend to be friends
After dumping your work on me
Covered for everyone can't miss work
Everyone calls out filling the void
Dealing with the burden of others
Helping getting ******* over
Can't win find balance feeling drained
Everything thrown off on the edge
Trying to be centered be composed
Sick of it all the toxic spread
Wasting time with the wrong people
Just want to get away

Seen them as a crew now they want nothing to do with you
Made a name for yourself old peeps bad mouthing slandering you
Trying to discredit all your hard work and effort
Told you it couldn't be done but doing it
Said it couldn't be done to excuse their laziness
Made so much progress not falling back into old drama
Bad habits dealing with people stuck on the past it was long ago
Let it go not there or that person anymore
Acting like nothing happened they know what they did to you
Wishing you the best as we depart

He took a chance and failed
Didn't want to disappoint others
Did the business then it went sour
All the favors never returned
Helped a friend it was an act
Manipulated by a two faced fiend
Hard to trust anyone heard all the lies
Actions that spoke otherwise
Not forcing it or pretending it's cool
Tired of listening to tangents
Feeding a useless ego that crushes others

That macho BS among men
Some act like they don't need help
Others try to do it all too much pride
Some are just there making the most
The situation changes more crap
Making right others mistakes
Sometime you matter filling the gaps
Once they get their way set aside
What they want taking credit
They don't need you feeling robbed

He was free from everyone's nonsense
Sick of the double standards the lies
Told how to act and who to be
Not doing it being apart of it anymore
Wishing everyone would get along
Made out to be the problem
Against the wicked glad to break free
Better to be alone than around phonies
Not going to fake the shadiness
Accept the wrong justify it as right
Pretend things are well
Keep the peace after being insulted
Accept the two faced people
After being talked about
Not going to respond fuel the fire
It's easy to stay away than accept
All the hurt pain and frustration

He didn't want to argue, but he was tired of being disrespected. He wasn't materialistic he valued people even if they didn't value who he is. All he wanted was to be himself without being stripped down told; how to act, and how to be. He did his own thing stopped seeking approval walked alone.
Tired of others using numbers to come up with false narrative. They did worse but he didn't care to judge them or hold it against them.