Kenzie

Kenzie Aug 2014

Hide.

I never saw it coming
When I didn't believe in pain
I never saw it coming
Because it hide behind my brain

I never saw it coming
When I practiced smiles in my mirror
I never saw it coming
When I felt inferior

I never saw it coming
When I forgot to have friends
I never saw it coming
When I liked to think about ends

I never saw it coming
When I was self irritated
I never saw it coming
When I self medicated

I never saw it coming
When I couldn't drown the lie
I never saw it coming
When I begged myself to die

I never saw it coming
Because I lied for a long time

I always saw it coming
I just really tried to hide

Kenzie Jul 2014

oxygen

breathing itself
having to fill a cavity inside your chest with temporary oxygen
even this reminds you
that you're not whole.

Jul 2014

Helen

a brief conversation (10w)

Are you okay?

No

Oh,
well,
have a nice day...

Jul 2014

Olivia

Untitled

If I looked you
in the eyes,
I would see
the end of everything
we ever had.

If I heard your
words, I would
hear the start
of a war.

If I put a gun in
my mouth, all I
would taste is
your name.

Kenzie Jul 2014

Blankets.

I just find it incredibly terrifying
That this blanket
Of cold souls and sadness
Feels so warm
Covering my skin
Like it is a blanket
That smells like home
Like I have missed it's presence
Like it makes me denser
Like it makes me real

this sadness is defining me

Kenzie Jul 2014

Worth

To be heard or to not be heard
I have often debated which is worse
Do you want your words to sink in?
To perhaps leave a lingered curse ?
Do you want them to be gone?
To leave no footsteps as they traverse?
I advise pick sides wisely
But maybe think this first
*What really
Are your words worth?

Kenzie Jul 2014

Lonely

keep shouting
into this
empty void
and
when you hear
the echoes
it will feel
like
company