youcancallmesierra

youcancallmesierra Jul 5

never met somebody like me
the rawness that you feel
it's not what you're used to
genuity seems so surreal
when you spend your life
inside of a simulation
of intimacy and understanding
to the point of derealization
you dont have conversations like this
actually you never have
validation and comprehension
not walking away feeling bad
like you just laid out all your guts
for absolutely no reason
but this time you put yourself on the block
and aren't walking away weakened
and that's all good for you
i can reach that deep anytime you need
but i'm realizing that while i can take you there
but you can't do that for me

(it's not your fault,
i've been trapped
here for a very long time)

Jul 3

Thomas Burge

Waiting for me

I know you're out there
Waiting for me
I just don't know where
But I'll find you one day
I guarantee
I've wrote so many poems for you to read
Described the art I'm waiting to see
Hoping you wont make my heart bleed
I know you're out there.............

Waiting for me

youcancallmesierra Jul 3

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i wonder
if i threw away my phone
and locked all my doors
would i finally be at peace

if i held it all in
and never spoke again
unless it was necessary
would there be solace for me

hard to know if it's a fantasy
or all that it would take
to escape from my realities
i'll keep it on the back burner and see

i'll try and do it the "recommended way"
and if it doesn't work
i'm doing it my way
it's not so wrong to want to be free

its easy to be so good at judging
when it's harder to understand

haven't been much inspired but yeah. i'm really considering all my options, and all i want to do is protect my peace.

youcancallmesierra Jul 3

(why) can't you see what i see?

if you ever wanted to reflect
i'm not the kind of mirror
you want to stare into for too long

your distortions dont work here
and that's why you're nowhere to be found

youcancallmesierra Jul 2

unnatural remedies

much regret
i fill my cup
then fill another
and call it a night

i'm tired of being afraid of what could happen
what i would give
to operate in the realm of reality
to purge myself of emotion and impulsion
to make a better life for myself

and its not that i can't
it'd just be easier if i didn't care

youcancallmesierra Jul 1

barbed wire in my stomach

i think i'm gonna be sick
i thought about it
and i realized something new
i've been doing that a lot recently

in the moment you can push on
but in hindsight every aspect can be magnified
individual actions scrupled upon
like never before

disssecting a microcosm of a major failure
who's i don't know
but i am realizing just how broken i am
and how much you never gave me
compared to how much you have to give

i wish i hadn't given it my all
not when you couldn't imagine what that's like
i'm having new realizations
but i keep asking who am i
i didn't have the chances to get so far
as to understand one singular thing about myself

hope you can appreciate all you have
and all you'll never feel