tired of the same **** problems
i just wanna be yours
fix me like i can't manage for myself
i won't fight your cure

the power to manifest
has really messed
with my ability
to trust myself
like is this a game
was that a test
or am i reading too deep
like an idiot
are you really real
or are you just the best
thing my brain could muster up
in a fit of rest
do i want too much
or am i trying too hard
what do i deserve
or am i already too scarred
i'm trying to do what's right
and become what's good
even though that's hard
and i'm too good
at pretending ****'s fine
when it's absolutely not
just three of us in this room
my regrets my hope and my thoughts

if you feel like you're being lied to
know you lied to me first
by saying that you loved me
when you only liked her
the version of me
that is easy to be around
be glad i didn't believe you
or it'd be too late to take it back now
part of me wants to feel sorry
for not being who you 'needed'
but i never lied about how i am
you just refused to see it
and when you did
you blamed me for changing
like i was wrong for being somebody else
than the person you daydreamed
i disgust you now
and that hurts more than you know
i never forgot who i was
but deep down it's still a blow
i could never be her
and it's ruining my life
i never fully trusted you
and this is exactly why