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see that you're on right now
pondering what would happen if we talked right now
we're both more than able but its clear
that you don't want me around
but i know you're up in bed
thoughts messing with your head
or maybe that's just me
i remember when you said
that i was perfect for you
what happened to us two
i probably shouldn'tve pushed you away
but i didn't know what else to do
when the feelings started to change
stopped smiling when you said my name
just hurting one another
didn't wanna be the cause of your pain
so i released you to the skies
just to dream of you every night
it's been long enough now
but you still cross my mind
and in another world we'd be okay
but that time is not today
even after all the **** you did
i hope you feel loved and happy and safe
wanna see beautiful things with you
breathtaking scenes and wonderful views
holding hands as i hold back my tears
in awe of the fact i'm standing right here
next to you in this moment in this place
where everything is golden and perfectly in space
what did you come here looking for
nothing good i know
we can't go back though it'd be nice
there's too much to unknow
by now and we've already
ripped up the notes
abandoned the dreams
and sealed off the roads
gave up all hope

there's no coming back from this
i hate to say
you run back to me
but i can't keep you safe
feigning comfort in what you know
a familiar face
makes it easy to forget
how much you hate
me and our fate
carefully buried away
lying to yourself is not the way

hearing from you is so nice
but i need you to not
not intending to hurt you
when i ask you to stop

clouded by a need for affection
you think you know what i need
you just know what you want
even if its not good for me
even if its not good for you
you dive for the prize
i know how this ends
don't need to bleed out twice
closed communications
i miss you from time to time
but i meant it when i left
had to say goodbye
you were everything i needed
for that moment in time
but you started causing pain
became a source of strife
and i think about you sometimes still
but you're gone for a reason
friends aren't forever
embracing the end of a season
there's no way to settle the score
or make us even
it's all for the better
don't go searching for reasons
don't seek me out
it'll just make this worse
i'm not having fun
this really ******* hurts
every part of me
wanted this to work
but in the end
we only made each other worse
i can't tell why i'm doing this
letting you in
saying its fine

it's not
i'm about to lose
my ******* mind

moved on
and ready to be done
yes you are

but this matters
so much to me
taking it so hard

made of glass
so its blatant
you could shatter me to bits

the only thing
stopping you
from doing this

is knowing
once im gone
who'll be your slave

feeding into your
god complex
with my hopeless faith
don't need to say what's been said
or shoot to **** something that's been dead
for awhile and we both know it

i took a shot and you made a bet
made me regret the little care i had left
spoiled my special moment

this was suppose to be my time to rise
finally have intent in my stride
but you saw opportunity in my pride
you ruined me in my prime

as the clock strikes the hour
dizzy on the power
you bid yourself adieu and take off

it's unfair but what can i do
too late to challenge you
just wait till you get caught

not afraid to meet my maker
was no saint but never wavered
as despicable as your behavior
evils just in your nature
can't be by myself anymore
i think too much when i'm alone
too many nights ended crying
over something i saw on my phone
cause i'm not skinny enough or pretty enough
and i don't have many friends
now that i think about
do i even have any friends

deeper darker
out of sight
somewhere far
some place to hide
i'm stuck inside
my self-destructive mind
suprisingly
i don't actually want to die
i'm just struggling to find reasons
to stay alive

can't trust myself anymore
or other people for that fact
i'm too sensitive for intervention
but can't afford to relapse
but when i'm buried under obligations
and it's gets hard to see
reasons to carry on
how could you blame me

finally alone
but i feel no better
life is supposed to be
better together
but i just feel
tethered
plucked and feathered
poked and pestered
feels like i'll feel like this
forever
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