youcancallmesierra

youcancallmesierra Feb 2019

i wish
there was one me
that everyone knew

i wish
i wasn't a lie
but even that's an excuse

i wish
i was just me
and could still please you

but mostly
i think it'd be easier
and that's the truth

maybe
that's self-serving
but surely i deserve to

wish
to stop acting like the old me
and become something new

youcancallmesierra Feb 2019

fission

no motivation
not enough time
falling to pieces
falling in line
prison of love
inescapable mind
scared of the future
getting left behind
choosing to be yours
but you'll never be mine
losing my reason
to keep finding new rhymes
everyday is hard
and i just can't seem to find
something to hold onto
as my many worlds collide
embracing for the impact
all the anger that boils inside
i'm still afraid
i just won't be surprised

youcancallmesierra Feb 2019

yes sir

i can do what you say
and complete every task
i can bend to every whim
and answer every question you ask
i can break myself down
to make myself last
i can keep on going
to the point i should be past
done but i'll keep obeying
slow to argue but my work is fast

but even if i do what you say
i'm still me on the inside
nothing changed about who i am
i still feel the way i did last time
my beliefs are solid and i don't
need to argue about making up my own mind
you might own my body for now
but i am the keeper of my own mind
you try to tear me down
but physical pain isn't something i'll be moved by
you try to twist my mental functions
and i admit you are successful sometimes
but i am still strong in my beliefs
even if the life i lead with you is a lie

i can listen
i can clean
i can be silent
i can be what you need
but despite what i do
i will always be me

youcancallmesierra Feb 2019

neutral

stuck in the middle
too far from each side
to be a part of either

understanding
but they don't understand me
because i'm not a blind believer

i like to know
the whole story before i go
and become a preacher

need to learn my own place
before i try to act like
everyone's teacher

cause i tend to be neutral
two wrongs can never
make a right

i agree with some parts
but nothing is ever
completely justfied

don't fault me for
making up my
own mind

i have my views
but that doesn't mean
i have to pick a side

tired of being pulled apart
by trying to please
both parties

neither of you accept me
anyways
not even partly

enough to use in an argument
but am i enough for you
hardly

hate you both
for ignoring what i say and
taking baseless digs to harm me

i think too much
for you to just disregard
what i say

i still hear you out
when you send me
away

trying to see all perspectives
even when they challenge
what i consider safe

i am just being fair as i can
it's only my opinion
so why the overwhelming hate

youcancallmesierra Feb 2019

hurting still

it hurts to wake up
that never changed
i'm still broken
that stayed the same
just because you can't
see the source of my pain
doesnt mean i'm lying
or making it up in my brain
it really does hurt
despite what you say

youcancallmesierra Feb 2019

trying to rhyme but ever line is true five why am i keeping this trend alive?

if you get to know me you'll find out i'm not that clever
not exactly glum but i tend to find things whatever
i like being alone because it feels less lonely than together
if i think you're toxic i'll add you to the list of friends i've severed
life feels so impossible so my favorite word is never
push my buttons and pull me down then flip my lever
trigger me with you presence forever
worn and torn and bound like leather
cloudy and moody so i must be under the weather
still i am lighthearted and floating like a feather
i wrote down this word but i can use it in this them so header
this is the lamest poem ever