one day older
but years have passed
since the last time i tasted your skin

last night was a dream
but its not right now
when will we meet again

i want to be patient
but there is something about you
that i can't unsee

it has a hold on my body
changing my mind
and i'm not sure what it means

i just need you now
i need you fast
i need you like never before

one last touch
oh yes another and another
is it fine if i ask for just one more

feeling down
gravity pulling so hard
that even good intentions fall short

every word every movement
requires so much
every good deed makes them ask for more

pushing up from the ground
but i can't find my way up
so i guess i'll acquaint myself with the floor

descending into madness
but i will try to enjoy the view
delusion galore

i'm thinking about the nights
that we hid in your car
till one in the morning
not kissing
or *******
we aren't like that
no
we are more
we looked into each other's eyes
and whispered our darkest secrets
and expressing our feelings
with your hand on my cheek
holding me
wiping away my tears
telling me you loved me
and i cooed it back
telling me i was beautiful
even though my mascara had run
and oh
i suddenly believed i was

where did that go?

happy
            happy
                         happy
            merry
                         merry
                                      merry

please just let me be myself, even if it's really
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                                                                                             r
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good god
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
jesus christ
THE FATHER AND THE SON
demon inside?
SATAN BE GONE
only a sinner...
EVERYTHING EVIL BENEATH THE SUN
i'll burn in hell
FOR WHAT YOU HAVE BECOME
but i'm your daughter
YOU'RE NOTHING COMPARED TO THE HOLY ONE