change me
mold me
perfect me

happy
smiling
perfect me

are you perfecting me
or am i perfect already

make up your mind

your thoughts
but not your desires
your words
but not your mouth

your presence
but not your body
please understand
that i am over that now

you can be
comfortable
i won't try to trick you
or mess around

you mean so much to me
that i let it go
i don't want you romantically
i feel no doubt

i used to crave you
but now i am
suffering with this wall
and doing without

you
so please forgive me
i finally apologized
out loud

never meant
to ruin the friendship
but all i did
was drag us down

sweet like sugar
passing like time
you drift along
not knowing you're mine

i could move a mountain
i could part the ocean
i could touch the sky
but i can't handle my emotions

i drown in loneliness
i run into problems head first
i fly away when i get scared
and somehow that makes it worse

because i can be magical
i can be a presence
but when you look at me
my resolve lessens

i forget what i am doing
i'll just hide myself in the shadows
praying you don't see me
camouflaged with bravado

i'm a natural
it just flows when i let it be
but i become an actress
when your in the vicinity

i would get anxious
but at this point it wouldn't be worth the price
my body is tired
and my mind is balancing
on the edge of a knife

i would get worried
and overwhelm myself with the details
but i know that won't change anything
so i'll just take a deep breath
and exhale

i really am drained
but there's this nagging persistence
to freak out and be manic
and focus on the little things
but i'm too tired to go along with it

i just don't care
life is just a word
my feelings
have melted
so i can be unhurt