Unknown Girl

Unknown Girl Mar 2021

The messages you send are full of lies
The messages you send are a waste of our time
You send things saying I'm pretty but when you're done I am nothing
The messages you send have broke my heart yet I stay
The messages you send have broke me time and time again
But my reply is always the same "please stay"

Unknown Girl Mar 2021

Looking At Myself

I hated looking in the mirror at myself
I hated seeing my face because it made me feel sick
I hated seeing the way I looked and feeling so small
I hated the color of my skin
I hated the color of my hair and eyes
I hated the way my body was shaped
I hated that I was alive
I thought that I would never be enough
I thought I should be thin
But I was me and I couldn't look at myself

Unknown Girl Mar 2021

My Past

My past is bad I am also really bad person
My past is smoking **** in class or in the bathrooms
My past is running a blade across my arms or legs
My past is trying to overdose because I was so done
My past is dating guys who hurt me a lot except for one
My past is running away from home because I was out of control
My past is dark and ****** up
My past held secrets good and bad
I can't out run my past
My past made me push people away
He saved me from my past day after day
But I pushed him so far that he couldn't stay

Unknown Girl Mar 2021

Is It Wrong

We used to date but its over now
Its over so move on, just ******* move on
But I cant I still love him, I want him to love me
But he is happy with her so dont wish that
**** I wish he was mine, I want to hold his hand
But Devani and Gavin are great together
I know is it wrong to want it to end
Is it wrong to want to hold his hand
Is it wrong to want to kiss his lips
Is it wrong to want to hear those words again
I want him to say I love you and I want it to be true
Is that so wrong

Unknown Girl Mar 2021

Death Was Almost Mine

I held hands with death all those times
I wanted him to take me away
I tried to end my life with pills and blades
I was so ready for death but he never came
I am trying to get better
But the memory of him still stayed

Unknown Girl Mar 2021

My thoughts on his promise

**** I think I love him
**** why did I promise
**** he looked so sad
**** I was careless so he saw
**** your so stupid he knows
******* never learn do you
**** I already broke the promise
**** go tell him use you words
                                                                                              Gavin Im sorry
                                                                    No you didnt?
                                                                                                          Im sorry
                                                                         Its fine
**** dont get hopeful he wont last

Unknown Girl Mar 2021

Gavins view on things

Whats that on your arm?
                                                                                        **** its nothing sorry.
**** do you cut because if you do thats really bad.
                                                                                        No its nothing really.
I saw them that **** is bad promise me something.
                                                                                      Gavin I am fine please.
Noo if you do it again tell me but promise you wont.
                                                                                                           ........
Please Im worried
                                                                  Promise but dont  get too much hope
..........
                                                                                      Because I have none