Forever was so long ago
You were there holding my hand
We were laughing about meaningless things
Forever was so long ago
You had vibrant blue and red hair
Forever was so long ago
Now I barely know how to live
Forever ago you were there in my arms
But now your in the ground
Did you think of forever ago when you slit both your wrists
Did you shed a tear or were you calm
Forever ago you were here now all I know are blood soaked tears

**** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** ****
I see you there and I panic I freak out I cry
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
I see you there and all the things from the past cross my mind
FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR FEAR
When you whisper in my ear and I know you want to grab me again
NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
You wont get me back you wont get me alone in any room
I swore you wouldnt get me I swore you wouldnt get me
But now I am back here again

I need space to breath
I need space to think
I need space to feel
I need you to be real
I need hope and I need love
I need to be the one you think of
I need strong and I need sweet
I need to be saved from me
I need help please

A new massage on your phone
He left me broken on my own
Out with some other girl
The way he broke my whole world
Now I am scared and all alone
Scared to look at the massage on my phone
I am deleting you like our past
And to think that we could last

Big, Beautiful, & Bold
You said you loved me this way
Big, Loud, & Proud
You said you needed me
Now you want THIN
Thin is pretty you know
Thin, Quiet, &  Polite
Thats the shape of us
You want thin not big
You want that to be the shape of us

The thoughts of you run wild in my mind
The thoughts of you are fun and free
The thought of you disgusts me
Your very existence makes me cry
You are the reason I am starved of love
You are the guy who has it all but still needs more
The thoughts of you...