I pulled out the bottle
And the familiar glint
Glowed in my eyes.
I took a sip
And then another.
One sip
Two sip
And then another
I felt myself slip
And start to go under.
The yelling
The screaming
It all went away
Everything was reversed
And so was the pain.
I didn't see the glass crack
As I clenched it tight.
All I saw was the trippy neon lights.
I thought the sight was pretty and I wanted it more,
But I didn't know that it was blood dripping on the floor

everyday it's like i'm playing the same film
over and over
and over again.
my days are filled with me sinking
in shame
and the happiness that I feel..
well,
ha,
they're actually just ads
that are posted as trailers right before the actual movie starts.
the story of a 16 year old with a hidden life of parental abuse
substance abuse,
alcoholic abuse,
filling in the empty spaces that aren't filled with flashbacks of a past life
a life of how i actually died.
a past life where i actually used to smile
and had a reason to LIVE that smile
instead of just WEARING IT all the time.
none of these labels actually fit my demeanor..
*****
****
*****
drunk
kiss~***
smart~***...
ha,
if only society decided to look through a mirror
instead of a telescope
they'd actually be able to see
what the effect of us is...
the downfall of us all..
we are slowly becoming extinct and~~
sorry once again ive gotten off track.
enjoy the show