And I need your lips right now as much as I need something in my blood.
I drown my pain with temporary fixes,
But maybe your arms are what I need to fix this.
I'm not sure what's wrong with me,
I am losing sight of reality more and more,
As each day progresses
The older I get,
The greater my stress is.
I'm not sure who I am,
Or what I'm supposed to be,
But if I'm next to you,
I feel like me.

I am trapped under layers of skin and bones.
I was brought into this world without my control.
And now I'm here, beating myself up about every little thing.
Trying to do wrong when right is screaming in the back of my mind.
I'm lost.
The world surrounds me and I feel like I don't belong anymore.
Maybe I never did.

The sun casts light through my windows, making little shapes on my floor.
I stare at them and wonder if I'll ever be fascinated with anything else again.
Stress pools down on me, and I feel damp and uncomfortable
Knowing reality will soon hit me like a bus as soon as I sit up.
You left last night.

It's so easy to remember in times you will forget.
I'll surely forget our tears and forget our mutual fears and all of our regrets.
I'll forget about you at times and you'll forget about me,
But maybe we'll be happy.

Run and catch your train,
It's leaving without me.
I never thought the day would come
When reality hits,
And we all grow up.

Love is a beautiful thing.
Love is compassionate, love is forgiving,
Love is unpredictable.
Then again, so is pain.
Pain is harsh, pain is cruel,
Pain is unpredictable.
Pain and love go hand and hand,
But love is deceiving.
Love comes in masked as a lovely odor.
It smells like a cool breeze sometimes,
At other times cheap candles and rose petals,
And at other times asphalt.
Love, however, leaves just as soon as it comes.
Love will knock on your door, and you will embrace it will arms wide open.
You don't know why you do, but you do.
Love nurtures you, and comforts you,
And makes you feel special.
But love is selfish.
Love will leave.
And when love leaves pain will come up right behind you,
Pick you up off the ground,
Clean up your mess,
Help you to your bed,
And let you cry.
Pain doesn't embrace you.
Pain surely does not love you.
But pain will listen to you.
And once pain slowly makes its way towards your door,
On a warm sunny day,
You won't even notice it's departure.
You'll get out of bed,
Look outside,
And feel that cool breeze once again.

There is a flower inside of you.
There is a light inside of you.
There is nothing you can do
to stop it from shining through.
That one night,
I said it was alright,
So we dropped every concern on the ground.
I never gave you my heart, and I'm not sure if I have yours,
and if I do, do not worry.
I will water you and hold you and tell you it's alright.
I'll show you the ways, make us forget all the pain,
And remember that strange summer day
We drove to the sea.
So take my hand,
I'll show you the ways,
And we'll build a castle out in the forest.
You'll be okay,
And so will I.
Life is just funny, sometimes.
Let's just settle our roots,
Take off our shoes,
And remember that there's a flower inside of me, too.

This is the air that smells like the leaves that start to decay.
This is the crumbling of stones as the ocean crashes into them day after day.
This is the rush of the wind that messes up your hair.
This is the smile on your face as your friend speeds up around the curve of the road.
This is the laugh that escapes your lips as you feel yourself let go.
This is the pure joy and excitement of teenage rebellion.
This is the sad truth that hits you after a long day.
This is the dread and anxiety of coming back to reality.
This is the migraine you wake up to the next morning.
This is the squinting of your eyes as you attempt to stare at your phone in the middle of the night.
This is the worry that he might never call back.
This is the warmth of your family's love.
This is the comfort of knowing everything will be okay.
Enjoy the little things.

I can't keep sleeping in my sister's room hoping that you'll text me.
Part of me knows that you've completely left me.
I can't believe I let you slip away that night.
That night I just let you go,
Go drive away.