I hope one day I won't rely
On burning ciggerettes
Or getting high
Because I don't want to regret
While looking out at the sky
The love I've lost
The people I make cry
The non existent hope
That I
Will get better.

Growing up all I wanted to be was like my parents.
Now I'm grown up I want to be anything but.

I tell myself to stay away,
Before I turn myself insane,
But diamonds aren't easily got.
Blood is shed.
Families lost.
If man can endure that for a stone,
I  may work my fingers to the bone,
And show you I am not,
Disloyal, untrustworthy, some one to be forgot.
For to you I will never lie,
The truth we will not shy.
And I'm not staying away,
Nor will I lead you astray.

How disappointing must ones life be
That they only find happiness
Through 30 minutes of ***
For 30 seconds of pleasure
And the smoke inhaling in their lungs
Infecting them deeper.

I eat my feelings ,
Exercise my anger,  
Trying to find a healthy way to advert disaster.
The catastrophe that is my mind,
To many emotions make us blind.
Try not to over think,
But don't  over look.
Every decision balanced on a hook.

i was told i could be anything,
so i chose to be a feminist
because
when i suggested my father help with the laundry,
my mother told me i was crazy.
because
meghan tranior's "all about that bass"
is telling bigger girls to be comfortable in their own skin
because skinny girls already do, right?
because
i'd like to make as much as my male coworkers.
because
i was laughed at for wanting to be a doctor instead of a housewife.
because
people look at me strange when i say i don't want kids.
because
when i gave a speech about feminism in my english class,
i was called a man-hater.
because
"my shoulders distract the boy's education".
because
my mom shouldn't have to worry
about what goes in my drink at concerts.

i will be a feminist until
i can tell my boyfriend
"no babe, i'd rather watch the movie"
and i am not told
"you're depriving him of his needs".
until
my body is my body.
until
i no longer have to carry pepper spray on a keychain.
until
women in foreign countries can vote and drive.
until
woman means human.
until
we understand **** culture
and feminism isn't just about women,
it's about humans.