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Hayden Murphy Sep 2015
What kind of friend,
leaves the other for dead?
You have put me at my witts end.
I trusted you,
I loved you,
And this,
This is my repay?
You and your ******* lies,
Sent me straight to my very demise,
Sh, this our little secret,
Dont tell my mom,
Dont tell my dad,
But this, this is your fault,
And now because you got in my head,
My parents have to burry me,
You led me to my witts end,
Because of you,
I am **dead
Hayden Murphy Jul 2015
Don't try and save me
I've pulled you close enough
Don't open me up,
Even if you have a key
For all that you will see
Is nothing but rotten emotions
Don't feel bad for me
I cant feel you see
For I am already
Dead and Gone
Hayden Murphy Jul 2015
You can't just let them subside
You don't get two, each choosing a side
They are all against you
You can't tune them out
You can't un hear the voices
You can't drown your demons
They always teach themselves to swim
Hayden Murphy Sep 2015
****,
Loner,
*Emo,

Cutter,
Things are things I cant help but stutter.
You say *I lied,

That I am a fake.
But really, how long of a look did you take?
I stood for you,
I bled for you,
I always had your back,
Now you reverse the track,
You take your things, pack.
You leave me for dead,
Oh, this is what I dread.
I can't trust you,
How can anyone.
You're sick,
How can you play these tricks,
Stay away.
Keep your distance.
You've done enough damage.
I no longer need your assistance.
Hayden Murphy Jul 2015
I can't change the want,
The need to change
The need to stand out
The desire to feel different
I am sick of being identical
Tired of being another face
I'll just live one big lie,
With all this **hair dye
Hayden Murphy Sep 2015
Its 5 AM,
I lay here, in my bed,
I stare, I wonder, I fear,
I shed all my tears,
I get up, get ready,
I go to class,
I hope, and I pray,
That I will make it through today.
You stayed, you cared,
No matter the ******* shared.
The voices say,
Dont trust him,
Sometimes, I can't help but give in,
And when I did,
You never failed to pull me back
I thank you,
I know you have to go,
She hates me,
You love her,
Talking to me will only ruin the show.
Stay with your girl,
Treat her right,
Don't worry about me,
I'll try and fight.
I'm okay alone,
Can't you see,
You didn't really save me.
Let me fly, fly away.
Don't take the blame,
Feel no shame,
I came,
I saw,
I failed.
But you,
You will prevail.
Hayden Murphy Jul 2015
I may be young
I may be new
My problems don't seem much to you
But to me, they have taken whats most important
They have stripped me of my innocence,
My happiness, My laugh
My smiles, My excitement.
They have taken my Sanity
Hayden Murphy Jul 2015
Here I go again,
Moving from one damsel
To the next
Ignoring my own distress
Just so i can keep you clear from your stress
I cut, I bleed
But i wont let you follow my lead.
Here I go again,
Just playing my role as the savior,
Once again.
Hayden Murphy Sep 2015
Mommy, daddy,
Can't you see,
How much your words are hurting me?
I think of every word you said,
At night when I can't seem to sleep in my bed

Brother, sister,
Don't you hear,
I'm in my room, holding back every tear,
I don't want you to know I'm broken,
So, I'll keep smiling and leave all the pain unspoken

Friends,
Don't you know,
There are so many things I chose not to show.
I scream, I cry,
I cut, I lie,
But most of all I wanna die.

People, society,**
Where is the girl I used to be?
You drove me insane,
in my head,
Congratulations to everyone of you,
For i am *dead.
Hayden Murphy Sep 2015
Restless,
Scared,
Numb,
Alone,
You see, these are the things I feel in my bones.
You *lie,

You cheat,
Don't worry, it's no surprise to me.
I've felt this pain
Time and time again,
Anxiety,
Seems to be my only true *friend

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