I live for
Those moments between a shower and sleep
Where your body aches with comfort
Tingles in numb ecstasy,
With a stomach full of hot tea
And muscles unraveled like toiletries
Backbone faltering slowly
Eyelids weighted without desire
Without wishes, guilt, regrets
I live for these nights
Where I've been satisfied by the day
And all I want is sleep.

I once asked my mother and father
If there was a way to never wake up.
Not that I wanted to die...
I just want to stay asleep.

Sleep would be
Sweet

But to sleep beside you
Sweeter.

Sometimes I wish that feelings were optional.
We choose when we use them.
Maybe down a grey pill with water,
wait for the moment our hearts stop beating.
Not literally but you get what I'm saying!
If I didn't have feelings,
do you know where I'd be right now?
Don't worry,
I don't know either.
Maybe I wouldn't love the one who hurts me,
deal with the physical and verbal abuse,
wouldn't take no for an answer.
Maybe I wouldn't be scared anymore.
Feelings get in the way of things,
they hide away
and at the moment you don't need them, they come out.
Ruining everything.
Do you ever wish that?
To be able to go along life,
feeling no pain nor worries..
Yet, it's quite obvious that,
that will never be.
Feelings are what make us human correct?
That let us fix our mistakes..
To feel.
But somtimes I can seriously say,
Feelings. ****.

With so much to do
In such little time
Again and again a problem
A problem coming repetitively with time

Even more, the issues stack up like a castle of cards
Fast to blow over, reek havoc and die

The enemy is time
The lack of time
The cruelty of time

The feeling of being overwhelmed,
Instilled into my mind,
Till it reaches a peak,
And my problems die