i want to cry, but for the first time in forever i feel like i dont have a reason to i hope when she tries to hold your hand you pull yours away when she tries to kiss you you'll turn your head i hope when she tries to tell you she loves you u will think of the past and what happened before because know i love you and know i'm with you i'm never going to hurt you but if you want to prove everyone right go ahead and hold her hand go ahead and tell her you love her even though you never meant it because while your doing that i can find someone else who will really loves me see you never know when these guys are lying you never know if he actually loves you guys will tell you almost anything thats why i've already let my guard down I’ve busted the wall at least thats what i'm trying to convince myself is that i don't love you as much as i say i do but deep down i know i'm lying because your my world and if this ends……things will never be the same i feel like your purposely trying to ignore my calls don't you love me? or was you just plying with me and the whole time thinking about her…..?? IM tired of getting hurt so if thats whats going to happy just please leave cause i don't need you just remember if you choose to walk out your giving up your losing the chance to be with someone who loves you instead of lies to you

what if we didn't have to walk down the street and fake a smile?
what if we could all be happy regardless
what if we could go 1 day loving ourselves
no one understands us... because were shy its called social anxiety
no one understands the reason i wear black its because thats how I feel
what if everyone believed in god there would have been no crusades
if everyone was just happy regardless tehre would be no fights
but of course i'm only imagining this thought in my head,because somethings just aren't meant to happen if so it wouldve already

I dont have nightmares at night I live em on a daily. I dont hide under my bed from monsters i walk beside em and it doesnt even faze me just take a walk through my life then you will find the reason why I hurt so much. Do you have any idea what it feels like to be reaching out for help? your screaming and have the feeling theres noone out there. always alone dealing with these demons alone. Ive tried my best to reach out to the heavens above but all I seem to find are days filled with hell. so tonight, just leave me here to bleed. so i can drift and fade away. so I can finally rest my eyes. just leave me alone I dont want to say any last goodbyes. and maby tonight I will finally find some ******* peace.

this is one of the first poems I ever wrote hope you guys like it.

these thoughts are circling in my head like a tornado. the only thing that can keep me sane is the thought of you. I want sleep I want to go one day without the thought of you. but I myself know its impossible.When will I stop lieing to myself saying everything will be okay?? im tired of seeing the dark side of the room no matter how far I try to reach  I cant touch the light of day no matter how loud I scream noone can hear me. Are you even worth fighting for anymore? If I left would you notice my abstince or would you just ignore me? I pick up my pencil I wanted to draw art on myself, who knew drawing could feel so good? im drawing you a picture without description dont worry though it has color. I should stop but it feels amazing. Im letting go because Im not strong enough to keep holding on this is just another battle ive lost to you.

when we wear black were goth no questions asked
when we listen to bands where emo.
we cut were attention seekers.
we talk to one of our friends about whats happining where drama queens.
no matter what we do were judged.
because no one understands we want to be different.

i love the way your hand closes in mine. I love the way you tell me you love me. I love when you call me baby. I love you. Im happy for the life I have been givin. If it werent for you I would possibly be dead. My Mom and I have bettered our lives lets hope it lasts.

wait stop dont talk to me loser lammo wanna be like oh totally